Ok, so i'm a little unconventional...been posting for awhile now, and finally decided to take the time to introduce myself and tell you all my story. So here goes....be prepared...I tend to ramble a bit!!!
My name is Dawn, my heighest weight was 300 lbs. I'm 33 never married, and no kids...hard to find this day and age!!!....I would love to have it all...but i'm not one to settle, I just can't find a man that gives me everything I deserve and desire...so my journey goes on to find my one and only....I had my GBS 5 years ago now. I had struggled with my weight my whole life...i'm an emotional eater, as well as a major sweet tooth, I love to bake...but have learned to bake and take it to work or give it to the neighbors instead of sitting down and eating it all myself. I used to be depressed and the more depressed I was the more I seemed to eat...exercise had never been a part of my life...yeah, i'd buy all the new diet pills...but nothing ever really worked...but I didn't let myself let them work. I rarely stuck with a healthy diet for long...exercise was not in my vocabulary....so the pills and hope were all I went on. A this point of time...Carney Wilson was just starting to be a household name, and the thought of having surgery had never crossed my mind till then...I just happened to look over my insurance book for something totally unrelated...and stumbled upon weight loss surgery being covered!!!!....I'm a very spontanioius and driven person...as soon as I saw this I had made up my mind that this was my solution to my weight, my depression...I finally saw a light at the end of the tunnel. I called my general Doctor...and made an apt to discuss the surgery assuming i'd need his referral...I got in to see him within days, and he refered me to a surgon at another hospital an hour away, since my local one didn't do the procedure. I got into the surgon within a few weeks....Now remember back then 5 years ago...the process was not as nearly complicated as it is today...I couldn't believe all the red tape all of you are going through on here...I was amazed!!! I met with the surgon, told him my thoughts, and reasoning....I was 300 lbs...I did carry it well, for being so large...and the surgon agreed...he would of never guessed I was 300 lbs. he said I was a good canidate for the surgery, That some people are refered to a psycological evaluation if he doesn't feel there heads are where they need to be, but me being the driven motivated and determined gal that I am....he didn't question me what so ever. So he refered me to a dietation..with whom I met with 2 times before surgery...the week after my initial apt with him..and the following week...there were no classes to attend to give me a background or extra knowledge as to what I was getting myself into...nothing else was required...that easy!!! (during this time insurance stuff was being taken care of)....week 3, I met back with the surgon to have a final apt to finalize my decision and to answer any remaining questions that I might of had..... I told my surgon in the beginning of all of this that I was realistic, that I didn't expect to be a size 4...I wanted to be able to shop at any store without being discouraged whether or not anything would fit me a 10/12 would be wonderful to me......this was probably the last week of November...I had my surgery Dec 10th ....yes that quick!!! My surgon was going on vacation and he got me in before he was leaving for 3 weeks...to help me out insurance wise as far as deductibles and that...since it was the last month of the year...and he wouldn't be back till after the new year started...Yes...this quick ...this simple....I was cut open...they were not starting the lap procedure till the following fall...and I didn't want to wait that long....and knowing myself...I'm not one to even think about wearing a bikini...so I figured hell...it's only a scar!!! So surgery was over....I had very little knowledge to go on, about the only knowledge I had been given from the dietation was to chew really good and eat slowly....seriously!!! I was on my own...I did the checkups for the first 6 months...but other than that nothing else was required of me. Through the months I started shrinking and got down to about 180 lbs ....from a 26/28 to a 10/12...AMAZING!!! I had reached my goal...but I remember telling my doctor that I didn't like still weighing so much...I never would of guessed I weighed 180 and could fit into such small clothes...that I wanted to be 160....and he told me he didn't know where i'd loose it from...that I looked great!!! and to loose another 20 or more pounds just to get to a certain number was kind of silly....I was healthy, and young enough to have enough elasticity in my skin to where I didn't really need any plastic surgery...of course now my boobs are half of what they used to be...and a bit saggy...but other than that...just toning, building muscles was all I needed...and that would actually add more pounds to my body, without looking like it...I accepted all of this... I've always been told i'm one of the most attractive larger gals people had scene (as far as guys go)....but now....holy @##$.....totally not used to all the attention!!!!!!!....I'm not vain or conceeded...I've never let my weight loss go to my head and let myself think that I was all that...It took a long time for my brain to let my eyes see the new skinny me....I still have the heart of a fat girl and always will...and that is one of the things I love best about myself...I'm one of the most compassionate people I know...and i'm far from a bragger!!!...The reason I found this forum was due to developing gall stones...and I was doing research....I had gained some weight through the years...as of now i'm 205 lbs. I thought maybe while the surgon was inside of my he could tweek my stomache up for me...after learning sooooooo much from all this research, and the reading of peoples responses....on here and other sites....I now know that all these years I have never used my "tool" the way it was meant to be used......I never knew how, I was never given the instruction the education...that all of you are so lucky to have!!! All the information that is out there today.. still amazes me!! I wish it was out there back when I was going through all of this...maybe it was, but I didn't know it and was not made to learn it...I know it's a long process these days....but educating yourselves will definately help you down the road!! Now that I have learned so much....I can't wait to start using, and appreciating the "tool" that i've been blessed the way I should have years ago....it wasn't ruined through the years like I had orgionally thought.....I just didn't use it the way I should have!!! All I went on we my own trial and error....some good, some bad...So my new journey is beginning...well...as soon as I heal up from gall bladder surgery that is.....So that's me
that's my story...I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you, and if anyone has any questions about post op stuff, I have lots of experience to share...just ask
Guess this should of been my first step!!
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