I know I've been awfully quiet these last few months, it's been stressful to say the least. But I have my surgery date. November 3rd 2009. I started my liquid diet today, although technically I don't have to start until next Monday, I want to get a jump start on it since I've gained so much in the months since my approval and diagnosis with Grave's Disease hyperthyroidism.
I'm afraid that if I don't at least get down to what I was when we sent in for approval my surgery won't go as smoothly as it could.
Every now and again I have the "OMG! It's real, it's really going to happen!" moments and I get a little scared. I'd liken it to the last month of pregnancy and realizing you're going to give birth soon and it's too late to change your mind.
I can't change my mind, I've put too much work into getting to this point, so all I can do is take it one day at a time and visualize the absolute best outcome. I see my bariatric team next Friday the 23rd for my pre-op and I'm SO hoping that I'll be a little lighter by then so they won't be as put out with me for gaining weight like I did.
I can't believe it's finally going to happen. I keep cringing, waiting for yet another road block, but at the same time I'm living as if it is happening. No more acting as if it doesn't matter because it "may not happen".