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  1. Dani_Detroit
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    -Moved into the new house mid- January and so happy too! It is much more space and so quite here. It is great to wake up to nothing but sunlight and well, the baby singing to herself in her room.

    -Husband got a new car which will cost less in taxes and cleaner for the air so that is nice. Also a quite. Never knew how much noise that diesel made over the Prius.

    -Got my sexy workout clothes at last and........they are in a size small from H&M! I am a small! I really need to keep things up if I am going to stay in those clothes because temptation is everywhere. It is so hard to keep passing that damn candy store, they have mint cookies and I love mint. It is rare to have mint ice cream and cookies here so the fact they sell them makes it super hard. I decided to order some mint extract and try to make my own mint chocolate sugar free cookies.


  2. A friend of mine took this picture on Tuesday because I had dressed up for Mardi Gras. It made me think about the fact that Mardi Gras means Fat Tuesday, and that it certainly fit *ME*. I have my consultation on the 4th, and I'm never looking back. I'm already excited to post next year's 'THINNER Fat Tuesday' picture. *bounces up and down with excitement*



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  3. Hey all,

    I am in much better spirits today than the last time I wrote a post. Sorry for my crotchety attitude, it happens from time to time.

    Tomorrow I start my liquid diet. I am so ready to just get it started and get it done with! Somebody commented on one of my blog entries that the anticipation was worse than the diet itself, and that made sooooo much sense to me! I am totally making it a bigger thing than it is and I'm ready to just get into it.

    Also, my FMLA is officially approved! I will be off the 10th through the 25th of March. I am so relieved now that it's set in black and white.

    Any tips for liquid dieting? I can only have liquids (minus 1/2 cup of cottage cheese a day). Should I "meal" plan? Also, any tips on shopping for and preparing food for your family when you can't actually eat the food?

    Alright yall, next time I write I'll be starving for a cause! ;) 

    Until next time!

  4. So I just got back from a 4 day trip to Las Vegas. I made plans for this trip about 6 months ago when I thought I should have been 2 months out from surgery. Well because of the mess up with my first surgery I ended up only being 1 month out from surgery. I was really nervous before I left for a few reasons.... 1) I am still on soft foods and just didnt know what my choices would be like down there  and being tempted by food scared me 2) Drinking.... everyone I was going with drinks and although I am not a big drinker vacation time is the one time I really would let loose and we would be going to my favorite favorite beer place and I wouldnt be able to partake..... nobody wants to be the only sober person around a bunch of drunk people! 3) my clothes.... I am in between sizes right now and didnt want to go out and buy clothes just for one trip.

    I am happy to report that not only did I have a GREAT vacation but I had a major milestone for me...... but first.......

    1) I shouldnt have ever been worried about food. I came prepared with my protein drinks that could be mixed with water to drink in the morning. Breakfast was easy since I could get eggs pretty much everywhere we went, we usually had a late breakfast so lunch was more of a snack of a string cheese, and dinner I either just ate off my husbands plate or ordered something(usually chicken) that I could scrape out of something. It was actually nice having to go out because I think I ate more than I have in days (which is good for me since I have been struggling to eat) I havent been going over my alloted amounts but have been getting much closer to my protein goal.

    2) It wasnt so bad not being able to drink. I did take the tiniest small sip of my favorite beer like litterally just enough to taste it and I was completely satisfied with that. And as far as being the only sober person... well its Vegas and thats going to happen no matter if my friends drink or not. I still had a great time even when just drinking water all the time.

    3) so this was the big one..... clothes! I have a few pair of jeans that I have kept over the years that I can almost fit back into. I took one pair with me and just used the pregnancy trick( use a hair tie around the button and then use a belly band over the top of pants so you cant see the zipper is not zipped and the button is not buttoned) I wore them like this on the first day there and was pretty comfortable with it; well on day 3 I put them back on ready to do my little trick again when all of a sudden I realized I could button them...... and not only could I button them I could zip them without sucking in!!!!! HOLY &%$! I couldnt believe it! In just two days I was able to fit into my size 18 jeans. What an amazing feeling!!!!!!!

    That one little thing reinforced why I am doing this. Whenever I get frustrated I just have to remember these moments that makes it all worth it. I dont think I ever have lost weight on vacation. Not only did I lose weight but I logged in over 16 miles while I was there. I had enough energy to go from sun up to sun down. Now thats the life I want to lead!!!!

    I will gladly LOSE in Vegas anytime!!!!!!!

  5. I have some things I need to get off my chest... It has been two months since my gastric sleeve/gallbladder surgery.   I had two really important things to discuss, in my first outing since surgery to my monthly book club meeting.  The waitress who waited on us was very RUDE and I was wondering if anyone has anyone had a similar experiences.

    I ordered my chicken Caesar salad and a takeout box(I only 1/4 cup of the salad and took the rest home as previously advised) the waitress made the comment that "why was I ordering that ?  And that it was two years before she could) she had gastric bypass previously. and then when I was cashing out she made the comments about "my stomach what I was going to do with my access skin and that I needed to get myself in gym”, and the third comment was not made to my face but with the owner of the restaurant and waitress talking about me while I was eating all because this particular waitress eavesdrop on our conversation. My question is has anyone ever encountered this problem?? Should I give a bad review on Yelp?? I am still bitter about this.

    My second question is my friends wanting me to start going out for drinks and food and because of this incident I am terrified (my friends have insured me that they love me and just want to see me not what I am eating) .. My second question did anyone have anxiety about going in public after having surgery even with close friends or self?

      I am sorry to bother everyone with these questions and appreciate anyone's advice (normal I would keep off the internet but it’s hard to share with my close knot family and friends and I wanted others opinions who have the surgery... THANK YOU for listening.


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  6. Okay, I haven't checked in for a while (and forgot my password here). Everything is taking forever, yet moving right along.

    I'm knocking down the pre-op list for insurance. I have completed the upper GI, endoscopy, manometry, esophageal pH, and the bloodwork. So far, the results have all been good. I'm going strong with my water aerobics, journaling my food intake, and working with my NUT. I've lost beyond the insurance required 5 %. I have to keep puttering along three more months.

    I feel like I'm in the zone. It's starting to feel real that I might actually get this surgery and be thinner. I think I have been afraid to believe it would come together. I still have a few more hoops to jump through and a few more months on monitored dieting, but it's moving along. My nurse contact from the insurance company was very encouraging on the phone today. I'm feeling optimistically hopeful.

  7. I'm currently about 7 1/2 weeks out from gastric bypass, and I can say that I am finally feeling normal. I changed up my multi-vitamin (Eco Blast drink found at Costco), and my B12 (no more chewables, yuck) and my NUT wants me to get all my protein from food, not from supplements like shakes or powder. So I am doing ok in that department.

    What I wasn't prepared for was a combination of dehydration and allergies. I was only getting in about 48 oz of water a day, and even that was difficult. So one night about a week ago, nothing was sitting right--I was vomiting everything I tried to get down, including water. The next morning I thought it would be a good time to start over, try to get in a protein shake in the morning as a breakfast supplement, and then my tuna salad for lunch, cheese stick for snack, etc. I vomited all that up too and when I called my doctor's office, it was strongly encouraged that I get into the ER. I drove there and they started an IV right away and ordered a CT scan. CT scan looked clear but they admitted me overnight to make sure I could keep down clear foods. The doctor asked if my vomit had mucus in it, and I said yes it was always mucus-y, and she thought I should add Zyrtec to my daily regime as well. As soon as I took Zyrtec in the hospital everything started feeling better. I could keep food down. The doc said that often post-nasal drip cannot be processed well by pouches and so it sits there making it upset.

    Not a fun lesson to learn, but one I'm glad I caught early on. 

  8. If you had Gastric Bypass surgery  9 months ago, I'm doing a graduate thesis on FAT Bias and the role it has played in our lives before and after surgery. I would really love to chat with you about it if your interested in learning more. I need volunteers for my research, this is an important study that considers the fat bias experiences people have had in there lives based on whether they were over-weight as children or if they gained the weight as adults. please contact me to learn more -Scott

  9. 2016&Ready
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    well I went for my psych eval results this morning ... I passed... Whew ... Not that I didn 't think I would .... But what the heck ... Why should the results of my MMPI control my future .... The results actually said My responses were too contrived ???? What does that mean????  It means that I was too afraid to be exposed????

  10. just.a.pretty.face?
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    Hi, I was wondering if anyone has any advice on sugar alcohols or sugar substitutes.   So far I am doing well and am 70lbs down with surgery being September 18th.  however, I am working out 4-6 times a week walking a 5k at least twice a week and then the gym for about 1.5 hours the other days with a trainer. I am still stalling at times, and I know that that will happen naturally but I want to make sure that I am giving my body the best opportunity possible to loose this weight and be healthy.  Basically I am wondering if anyone has had any issues with sugar substitutes affecting them in a negative way and slowing down their weight loss.

    Also, I am going on a cruise next week and wanted to see if anyone has any advice on the true alcohol.  I have not taken in much alcohol since surgery but know that I will not avoid it on the cruise.  The food aspect does not scare me as I feel like I have beaten that need that I use to feel towards food, but don't want to gain weight from alcohol.  I know that I will not have beer, but any advice on what to have that will not stall me or at least make me not gain would be very appreciated!  (working on being honest with myself about the situation:)) 

  11. So my vsg was 10/19/2015.  I've lost about 80 lbs. Since I began. My highest weight was nearly 375!! On surgery day I was 325 and today I am 284. I have recovered very nicely. To be honest, I feel so normal its like surgery never happened. My loss has been a little slower than I hoped for., but I'm feeling better everyday.  The only real difference is I can't eat very much.  I know that I will hear a lot of crap about goals and diet and being honest with myself. But that's the thing I am honest with myself. I have not changed my life much at all. I healed and did well with food pretty quick. No food is completely off the table for me. I ate cookies and bread throughout the holidays and I enjoyed it. I noticed that I cannot eat beef two days in a row or my digestive system gets sluggish. And some foods just sit a little heavy like potato. But I have not thrown up or felt sick from anything. I have not  vomited once since surgery. Have not had the runs or constipation. No heartburn. No indigestion. Nothing. Nothing has changed for me except the size of my stomach and 5 small puncture scars on my upper tummy. I eat my protein first. But I am not on a "diet" anymore. Im aware to get the most weight off a diet would serve me well.. But I'm trying to live a normal life. I am a foodie. I like to cook. I like to eat. Surgery did not strip me of this. Vsg is what I did, not who I've become. I don't drink soda. I don't do caffeine. I don't fry food often. I don't eat fast food. When I do eat something sweet or fattening its from scratch. I even bake my own bread. My overall diet is pretty natural and healthy anyway. I don't do aspartame or other chemical sweeteners. I use sugar and honey. I quit the protein shakes and don't plan revisiting them unless a blood test shows I'm deficient. I still put carbs on my plate. Once I eat my protein and vegetables there isn't much room for more than a bite or two. I don't graze I eat 2 meals and 3-4 small snacks a day. I drink mostly water. I don't feel deprived of anything. I feel that I have completely adapted. I don't even notice how little I actually eat until someone voices concern that I'm not getting enough. My small portion is my new normal. The hardest part was teaching myself that it's OK to not finish my plate. I waste food every night. I don't plan my meals by protein grams, I naturally gravitate to high protein Foods and I believe that my overall protein and vitamins/ mineral needs are being met with my whole food approach. Considering my surgery was at the beginning of The holiday season ( food season in my family) I am very pleased with my progress.  My loss is weird. I lose 10 stall , lose 10 stall etc. I literally drop 10 pounds overnight and then stall till my next 10. I find it strange and it seems physically impossible. I lose inches during my stalls. 

    All this being said. It is new years and for as long as I can remember losing weight has been my resolution. Not this year. My resolution is to go out and do all the things that I have not been able to because of the pain of my size in the past. I still have a ways to go.. But the current me could run circles around the 3 month ago me. But still I am geared towardss heath this time of year from the past. I guess it's become a tradition. My next doc appointment is at the end of the month and I will finally be cleared to workout more than walking and I can't wait to see how the pace of my loss is once I can do more strenuous activity. I'm getting jiggly in places that have deflated and I can't wait to tighten it up some. I will be eating closer to the surgery status quo minus the sugar free chemicals, and I will be focused on taking myself down to healthy.  I plan on getting as much out of this honeymoon phase as possible. I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store. Im excited about the future and finding myself again. I'm excited to shed this fat suit. I hope you are all well and making strides in your journey. :)


  12. My sister and brother in-law were very surprised when they saw me. My brother-in-law repeatedly told me how good I looked. It felt great!!! I had a new outfit on and more importantly a very positive attitude. This year has been a wonderful year for me. Losing seventy pounds does something wonderful for one's ego. I had a lot of energy to walk around the city without getting tired. This year my goal with be to exercise at least five times a week. I have to up the exercise because I have stopped losing weight and have stalled at 169 for  at least a month. My bariatric team has been encouraging me to exercise at least five times a week. I have been really resisting this and giving them plenty of excuses. But now I am ready to make this change in my life. I have become to realize it's never to late to change. This truly has been a journey of wonderful changes.

  13. so today have been the first day that i have been relitivitly pain free. i get a little twinge every now and again when i sneeze and cough or if i use too much of my core to sit up. and for some reason when i am sitting in the kitchen in a chair it hurts just sitting there. not sure why, but it does. other then that i have been feeling great, physically that is. i have been having a lot of food cravings and wanting. it has been very very hard. i knew it would be, but not this hard or this intense. i know it is something that i will have to deal with for the rest of my life. on christmas the rest of my family was having pizza. i love pizza and i did think it would be hard at all. but they got my fave kinds. the kids had cheese and pepperoni and the wife had a gormet chicken garlic supreme one. it wasnt that i was hungry or anything, i was just wanting it. i really really wanted it. i didnt take one bite ot lick or anything, but it made me think a lot. made me think about how honest i was with myself before the surgery. made me think about the relationship that i have with food and why i eat, besides needed to in order to have energy and live. i thought that i ate out of boredom and when i was having a bad day, but that apparently isnt the case. i eat cause i want the bad things i guess. i meen i know thats how i got to where i am now, but it was just very hard the other day. also the things that i thought would give me the most trouble wanting havent really been that bad at all. i thought that i would want more sweets and things like that, but those havent been bad at all. i dont even really miss beer or booz as much as i thought i would. 

    in 2 days i go back for my 2 week check up. i so cant wait for the dr and the nutritionis to see how well i have been doing and i hope that my blood work is all in order. i would hate to have to take shots or more pills for things. taking pills not is a HUGE pain in the @*#. everything had to be ground and powdered. i didn't think that it would be that big of a deal, but some of the pills taste horrible when you have to really taste them. it got so bad that i had to get a liquid multivitamin instead of the ones that they approved for me to take. it was so bad that taking it made gag and almost throw up. most of the others arent that bad, but i think that the pill i have to take to prevent gallstones might rune plane greek yogurt for me. its thousands of tiny little dots and they taste horrible. oh well. i knew this before i signed up for this so i will just have to deal with it. 

    i have also been taking self pictures every week, only taken 2 sets so far, so that in 6 months and in a year i can look back as to how big i was and how far i have become. i have also been getting on the scale every other day or so. i know i shouldn't but i just cant help myself. im steadily loosing weight every day and that has felt really good. i have beein keeping track since dec. 2nd and i was about 308.4 lbs then. so far i have lost about 21 lbs since then. it really makes me happy to see the numbers going down annd down and down. after years and years of the numbers going all over the place. sometimes up..... sometimes down..... it just feels good to be making some real progress. 

    i also cant wait to be going back to the gym on a regular basis and really start dropping the pounds. i wanted to get my water intake under control before i started really heading back and now that i think i have it down good i think i will start going there every day and just walking. a good clip but nothing too crazy for now. i also cant wait to get back to lifting. i loved it when i was making some good headway with the lifting and i cant wait to start it all over again.   

  14. Today I went to see my surgeon who did my sleeve for me and she says I have to talk to the therapist and nutritionist first before talking another surgery. I only went to see her because in my despair I couldn't think of what else to do. I feel as though if something as drastic as surgery didn't work for me what else can anyone do. I am only 18 lbs less than my original weight 3 years ago. The most I've ever lost was almost 30 lbs. I would come online and research failed gastric sleeves, everyone reassured me I was just losing it slow. No one loses this slow. I can't even say I eat a lot of fast food. I can eat a full plate of protein with ease. And I usually don't have time to eat all day so I have large helpings in the evenings.

    I also feel frustrated because something is obviously wrong with me. I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety. I sometimes drink more now than I did before surgery. Nothing crazy but even that I drink vodka and diet coke. No sugary drinks. I'm pretty sure I have high blood pressure now. Even if I were the absolute worst patient and I know that I'm not, I should have lost a modest amount. My thyroid is fine last I checked a few months ago. Being this way has destroyed my self esteem and my life. I try diet and exercise in vain. I felt like she was making it clear that it was me and not the surgery. I'm sure she's right but it hardly seems fair that so many people did it and at least had temporary relief. 18 lbs in three years gaining and losing the same 10-15?? 

    I am scheduled to do a barium swallow so she can look at my stomach and see if I need a revision. I don't want to switch to another type of weight loss surgery if it comes to that. If my sleeve is too big I'd be willing to redo it. Otherwise that's it.


    The nurse practitioner says my case is unusual. That in their practice they may see one or two people per year who have not lost any weight like me. 


    Why did I have to get the confirmation that I'm a biological freak of nature? I would suspect this when everyone says how easy it is to lose weight. I become maniacal about tracking things 

    How do you cut out a chunk of your stomach and without even increasing your meals, remain the same weight?


    So if you googled and landed on my page, I am a person who 100% failed at my weight loss surgery and now I have begun the very long process of trying to do something about it.


    This nutritionist is going to make an appointment with me way later just to tell me to log my food which I already do. I am going to take the most meticulous notes I can so we can get to the point. Three years. The idea of waiting another day for legitimate help out of this prison of a body feels too much to bear.  I'm going to turn thirty looking like this and single because of it.

    I posted this in a thread in the long term post op VSG portion of the site for anyone who wondered like I did years ago if its possible to fail.  Unlikely, I hear, but there's always that one

    I'm that one. :( 

    my heart is broken

  15. I had my surgery done on 11/30 and have found this process was so much more difficult then I had imagined. I had read everything in the book, and had done so much research and practiced this sip sip sip thing before the surgery. My world basically has flipped upside down. I cannot tolerate anything with more than 4 grams of fat, 4 grams of sugar, or thick proteins. I dump on EVERYTHING. It's absolutely frustrating, beyond frustrating, so depressing. I thought that I would rock this, and be absolutely perfect at it. I was horribly wrong. This is nothing like I thought. 

    I've had to go to the ER for an IV and a CT scan because they thought I had a leak. Turns out no leak and I was just waiting for the IV to finish and was sent home. I was sickly, because of the OXYcodone they gave me for pain. I can no longer take my pain medications because I dump when I take it. I hate dumping it's the worst feeling in the whole world.

    Im getting so frustrated because I cannot do any protein at this point without dumping, I've tried like 5 different protein shakes. It's horrible. I know that I'll get through this eventually, but it just blows. 

    Sorry, vent over.

  16. I know I shouldn't be complaining, it's not really that bad, but remembering to do it is.   Having to do a calorie count is not easy either.  I try to plan my meals better now, so I can write everything down in the morning, then if I have to add anything I can.

    How do you all do it??

  17. Only 20 lbs. left to reach my arbitrary weight loss goal! I chose 135 because (a) it sounded lovely when I was 262 lbs., and (b) it's a few pounds into the normal BMI range for me. I completely never thought I'd be staring that goal in the face - it seemed like a fantasy.

    I'm about 12 days from my one year surgiversary (Nov 14). I can't believe how far I've come in such a short time and how complication free it's been. I've been so very fortunate. I can't say it's been easy, but maybe simple would be a good description? I've worked hard at keeping my diet simple and restricted. I worry about long-term maintenance, but I believe I can do it.

    I'm so impatient to get these last 20 or so pounds off and hit that magic goal number. The last time I was at that weight was over 15 years ago, so I don't know if I'll want to stay there or go up or go down. I'm 155 lbs. today and in a size 8. Size 8 - A one-digit size number!!

    We are travelling to Jamaica for two weeks vacation in December. It's the first time in a decade that I'm not anxious over the plane trip or worrying if I'll be miserable in the humidity. I'm actually fully looking forward to it. My only anxiety at this point is clothes! I have virtually nothing because I've been very frugal in buying because I'm shrinking so much. I literally have two pairs of dressy work pants, two pairs of capris, five dressy work shirts, and four t-shirts. That's it. Aaaaagh! I need at least one swimsuit, a sundress or something similar, and shorts / capris. And it's winter, so all the stores are selling sweaters. Oy vey. Plus, I don't want to overbuy, because if I reach my goal of 135, I won't be in a size 8, so I don't want to waste too much money.

    This weekend, when we went to Costco, they were selling swimsuits and shorts, so I decided it wouldn't hurt to grab a Speedo swimsuit ($19.99) and a pair of shorts ($12.99) in a size 8, thinking I'd be in them later this month. I tried them on when I got home and they FIT! The shorts went on perfectly (I didn't like the swimsuit - too short-waisted) and for some reason I was so shocked. :rolleyes: I may go back and buy a couple more shorts (at $12.99, I'm not too worried about shrinking out of them).

    Anyhoo, first world problems and all that. I'm sure it will all work out as long as I can find a workable swimsuit. Ha!

    I'm so bloody happy with my weight-loss progress / success. Some days it's like some magical fantasy that doesn't seem real yet. :wub:

  18. First the stats:

    Day of surgery:  Sept 1; 191 lbs 

    Today: Oct 29;  bouncing around between 169 and 173.

    So now I am almost 2 months out and I am in a bit of a pause.  Sigh.  I have moved to fairly normal foods, per the doc, but I think I have slipped back into some old habits.  Grazing and snacking.

    Even though the amount of Grazing and snacking is a severely reduced volume of food....it is there.  I think my brain hunger is based on the weather getting rainy and chilly.  I have fallen back to "but it's just yogurt...it is a healthy snack"  -- when intruth, that same size yogurt is really a meal for me now.  I have to remind myself that there is likely no sick thing as a snack for me any more.  I used to pick my way thru the morning...now that would spell disaster.

     So my plan is to only allow myself into the kitchen to prepare a plate. .. a full meal... and not grab and go.  That full meal may look exactly like the thing I am grabbing and going with, but it represents a break from a long g-instilled habit.

    My husband is amazing--he has taken over prepping meals bc he knows me like I know me. 

    Thanks for listening--I think I figured this one out.

  19. kisten1210
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    so ...  Surgery was February 4 of this year. Since March I have sounded like I have severe bronchitis with a squirrel stuck in my throat! I finally started going to an ENT  to figure out what was going on. In the process he found nodules on my larnynx and wanted me to have it checked out by a G.I. doctor  because he believed that it was caused from Gerd even though I have had Gastric Bypass... after talking to my surgeon he said that Gerd can still happen after surgery ...  Very slight chance but can still happen. 

    This last week I ended up getting an upper G.I. scope and they found that my vocal chords and my larnynx were pretty severely damaged and very scared - during intubation during surgery.  I am just in the beginning stages of this, but it's kind of sad, and I going to sound like this forever? Yes I am healthier I am 125 pounds lighter and I am still alive but they damaged my vocal chords!  I sound like a man ... hot!

    happier note!  They checked out my pouch  and it is perfect size… As well the openings at both ends are perfect! And my intestines look great. Finally he said my surgeon did a fantastic job!

    any advise?  What would you do if this was you?

  20. daler28

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    I had a revision of my lap band which I had several years ago. My sleeve was done 06/15 and I have recently hit a plateau. I have been ranging from 167-168. It seems like the scale just doesn't want to move. I am active and watch what I eat. How can I get past this I keep asking my self. I know that I have become a slave to the scale and have been trying to stay away. I even moved it down to the livingroom but that doesn't seem to stop me. I still find my way down there before getting into the shower for the day. I just hope that this doesn't last to long.




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    HI, I just had my revision from lap band to ryn bypass on Nov. 4th.  Still in a lot of pain. especially when getting up and down.  I'm  surprised howi feel hungry at times.. wasn't like that when  had the lap band surgery back in may 2009.  anyone else in the same boat and pointers?

  21. AskAnt305
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    Good morning TT family, 

    Got the new diet from the doc, starting phase three... pureed foods...yum.... I will start tomorrow got to go shopping first I bought a ninja prep pro just for this... my old blender really didn't work for this part.  So. It's the middle of October and I'm suppose to be on this for the next three weeks, I made a fission to stay off the scale as best as I could I found myself jumping on three times a day and getting confused so I'll try this out... I got a little lazy on getting to the gym but it's more of a time issue then me not wanting to go, I really want to go!!! Not sure if anyone is following my YouTube channel from here but my next one will be up soon it's do I n got be on the insurance process. Well off I go melting away.. till next time...

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    Today I handed in my hospital admin papers. It's all systems go.

    i keep thinking that at this time in 2 weeks time, it will be done! 

    When I was in line today, another lady was handing in her papers too. When I went to leave she pulled me aside and said she overheard I was getting the same operation as her. She has her surgery 4 days before me and was very nervous. 

    I was trying to support and relax her which was weird as I'm very anxious too. 

    She kept saying that I will look amazing once the weight was off especially because I was young! Lol this woman looked in her late 40s, so i couldn't help but say that I am 40. Well she almost died, couldn't believe it and thought I was in my early 30s!!! Geez the past 7 days of dieting, detoxing, 3ltrs of water daily and losing 6kg must be working lol!!!! 

    We wished each other the best :) 


    13 days to go! 

  22. I am doing well.  I have been so busy with my new job and the little ladies starting back to school.  I am down 111 pounds.  I only have about 14 pounds to my goal weight.  There are many positives.  I have decided to train for a half marathon.  I have been running for several months but I felt like I needed something more.  I run usually 3 days a week for 3 or 4 miles but I have recently added Sunday as my long day and last week I did 6 miles.  So hard to believe that I was able to run 72 minutes straight and I didn't really feel bad afterwards.  I feel so blessed to have had this tool to help me reach goals that I never thought were attainable.  Another positive is the energy that I have.  It is amazing.  

    One weird thing is clothes shopping.  I know I am an abnormal female.  I hate it.  It is so hard trying to find clothes that fit that are appropriate and long enough.  I don't want to dress like my teenage daughters or like my mother so this has been a little bit of a struggle for me.  Today I am actually wearing my first pair of leggings.  OMG I love them.  It is like being in workout pants at work.  LOL!!!

    Negative side is my mother.  She is always the first to give me back handed compliments.  Like you look pretty but don't lose anymore weight you face is too thin.  It is hard because she lives with me.  I usually have my husband there to keep me grounded but I am afraid she is going to get a good lashing from my mouth when and if she hits me on an off day.  






  23. No, not Christmas yet. Just a rundown on how things have gone.

    Thursday, 9/10, Surgery Day: got in 15 minutes late, no biggie, waited in waiting area for about 15 minutes, then was called back. Went through the usual Q&A, bloodwork and pee test, and I think I told one nurse my birthdate 20 times. My surgeon comes in amid the flurry and says, "Anesthesia doesn't like your iron numbers. They'll be here in a bit - but it'll be up to them if things are a go." I have severe anemia, and I'd been doing some iron replacement therapy, but you can only do so much in ten days. I said okay, but inside I was a bit rocked - No! This is perfectly timed! Everything's set up! We can't reschedule this! - Aunt C, my husband's godmother who came out for moral support, and who is also a retired surgical assistant, reassured me that in all her years, she's never seen a surgery cancelled because of anemia. And she was right - the gas docs came in, expressed their concerns, and asked me again (I'd already signed the permissions) if I'd OK a transfusion if necessary; "Of course," I said. That's just practical.

    Bullet dodged.

    Things moved fast from there. IV set up (damn that thing smarted going in), pre-op body wipe from neck to feet, prepped and pressed and off we went. Down a couple of halls, and into the OR - the first time I'd ever seen the inside of an OR in all my life - move from gurney to table, answered a couple of questions, and... BOOM, out.

    My next memory was moaning in recovery, swimming up from the surgery... then out. Then up again, then out, etc. I couldn't get out of the sleepiness. They couldn't release me until I could stay awake enough to go home. Apparently, they'd given me too much of the narcotics and my breathing took a dive. Also, when I dozed, my O2 alarm would go off because I'd desat. I'd wake up, be okay, then doze off and the alarm would go off. It suuuuucked. And of course, you can't take walks in the recovery ward, and that sucked too. I wound up being admitted for overnight observation. Boo.

    So upstairs I went. They did let me walk once I was established there, which helped. The stupid breathing exercise thing was frustrating, because of the gas against my diaphragm; I just looked at it in general dislike. They also let me move to the recliner at about 1am, which was great - thanks to the narcotic mishaps, I'd been on my back for about 5 hours and in bed for about 8. Lucky me, I had a good nurse and a good CNA and they made me very comfortable.

    General Status on the night of Operation Day: woozy here and there and bloated like a whale. The gas pumped into the abdomen made my diaphragm sore. Pain management was done well. Did get some sleep.

    Friday, 9/11, Day 1: At 4am I was a freaking ice cube because the a/c was cranked down and aimed right on the recliner; that cold went right through my three blankets. So the nurse helps me out, and I do a short circuit to the hallway and back, go to the bathroom, and get back into the bed. I doze off, and the phlebotomist comes in and pokes a hole. After that, the nurse makes his final rounds and I give up on sleep. The morning is a round of looking warily at queasy pseudo-jello, dodgy tea, and sticking to my water and ice chips; insisting on walks but can only go with someone there, so I can't walk as much as I need to; taking one look through the channels on the TV and snapping it back off; them pumping me with God knows what in the IV. Hubs and Auntie show up at 10, so I can walk more. The shift floor supervisor chatted me up as I walked - I really liked her - and she would be instrumental later.

    Dr F pops in at about 11 or so. "So, would you like to go home?" And I replied in rather piteous voice, "Yes, please." Everyone thought that was funny for some reason. I was just done. "Well, let me write it up and we'll get you home." Awesome. Instantly my spirits rose - whose wouldn't? - but my silly hubs and silly aunt jump into action and get my personal items and start laying things out like I'm being sprung that moment, and I eventually bark at them to knock it off. I was feeling overwhelmed, tired, goofy and sooo done. They retreated to the cafeteria downstairs. The best part was that I could as of that moment walk by myself, and I did. I had waves of goofiness, the dregs of the narcotics still in my system, but I kept walking when I could because it helped. Did a lot of rinsing my mouth out because it tasted terrible.

    When Hubs came back with Auntie, he started watching the clock because our son got out of school at 2:30. He didn't want to go all the way up there, come back to the hospital, and allll the way back to the house. He went and talked to some person who bumped it up the chain, and the floor supervisor I talked about previously expedited things, hallelujah.

    I dozed in the back of the car on the way home. Once there (just before 2pm), I went to the shower, cleaned the hospital yuckies off of me, and went to bed for a couple of hours. Later, the best thing about being home was that I could walk all I wanted and not be tethered to the IV tree. Spent a dopey evening sipping nothing but water v e r r r y  s l l l l o w w w l l l y.

    General Status, end of Day One: home! Still bloated and uncomfortable, though not painful. Incisions let me know if I pushed too hard or went the wrong way. Very tired. Good news - self-care was not a problem (toileting, etc).

    Saturday, 9/12, Day Two: Up a couple times overnight because mouth was leathery and couldn't create enough spit to wet it, so I went to the recliner and would sip, doze, sip, doze in the dark until I could keep spit in my mouth and not feel so dessicated. And they are TINY SIPS - they are not kidding. And I remembered to BURP to minimize discomfort. Dozed some more. Pretty much kept a low profile all day, staying in my nice loose nightshirt after taking my usual shower (being careful to not get any sort of direct stream on my abdomen. Homebound, obviously. Walked a circuit of the house when it struck me, tried to increase my distance every time. In the course of the day, I took three doses of the hydrocodone - low doses, but it didn't matter, because it would knock me right out. Did a lot of sleeping. No attention span. Difficult to stay hydrated, but my pee kept staying lighter in color which told me I was going in the right direction. I didn't bother with protein this day - hydration was more important. One more dose - pretty much gagged it down, so very gross - and off to beddy bye.

    General Status, Day Two: Housebound. Hydration was the priority, and walking to get me moving and the gas moving. Used pain management quite a bit, even if low doses. Diaphragm felt better but tender. No problem with incisions other than the expected twinge here and there. Self care doing well. No complications so far.

    Sunday, 9/13, Day Three: Up twice for overnight hydration (sip-doze-sip-doze in recliner). Goals for today were to try and stay within a relatively normal routine as stamina permitted, and to avoid hydrocodone until bedtime. I actually succeeded pretty well. Still housebound, again staying in my loose nightshirt so as not to irritate the incisions, still dozing at various intervals. Back in the hospital I was told that barring problems, I could start protein drinks today, so I took a large cup of Sonic ice and dumped a Premier chocolate shake into it (something that was tolerable in the pre-op diet), and sipped that sucker over the course of hours as much as I could until I just couldn't bear another sip. I didn't bother with measuring, but I got protein in today. Passing good amounts of gas. I also attempted Jello (wonderful SF black cherry, woke my taste buds up) - I got maybe three teaspoons in before I had to abandon it - and about a third of a popsicle later in the day. No problem with anything I drank today, nothing came back up. I was pretty fried by halftime of the frustrating as **** Dallas Cowboys game, so I took a very small dose of pain meds (to keep me comfortable as I turned in my sleep) and off to bed I went.

    General Status, Day Three: Much, much better day. Got protein in, but still concentrated on hydration, falling far short of the 64oz - but pee still light colored, so I'm okay. Good walking, still in-house; got some alternate items in (popsicle, jello), no problems.  Oh, and I have no problems sleeping on my sides, or getting up, except for that shifting feeling when I do move, probably gas - once the 'shifting' is done, I'm comfortable. Diaphragm less noticeable. Still bloaty, but starting to have gas move, taking the pressure out of the abdomen. Feel better.

    Monday, 9/14, Day Four: Had one hydration session overnight. Got up at 6, took shower, got partially dressed and helped Mr D with getting our son ready for school. After they left, I finished dressing, and got brave: I went on my first out of house foray to the store. Had half a thought about using the powered cart, but no, dammit, I'm not an invalid. Plus, my pride, you know? I caved and got some Miralax because I'd not had a BM since... two days before the surgery?... and things needed to move, pronto. But before I resorted to that, I had one trick up my sleeve - I went to my fave non-Starbucks coffee place and got a small SF mocha. My stomach sure surely didn't like whatever they use for their SF syrup pre-op, so I figured it'd do the trick post-op (coffee is not the issue here, but it didn't hurt). I carefully sipped that sucker, only getting about a fourth of it down, and dontcha know? It worked. Threw the rest away. Thank God. I don't like chemical laxatives like Miralax, and I don't want my body getting used to that chemical signal. But just in case, it stays in my arsenal.

    Experimented: 1/3 of a bottle of orange Isopure in a large cup of Sonic ice, let it melt and dilute. Very successful, but it wound up being the only protein I could stand all day. I did try to do a Pure Protein shake before bedtime, maybe got about two ounces down. It stayed down, no problem there, but just couldn't handle any more, so I didn't push it. Water was still the mainstay.

    Energy is up. I pretty much made it all day. Got tired by 4-5pm.

    General Status, Day Four: Yay! I pooped! Lots of gas out, too, and the pressure is down a lot. Got some protein down, including milk based. No problems. More energy, feel better. Able to take more, slightly larger sips today, too, meaning I was pretty well hydrated at bedtime.

    Tuesday, 9/15, Day Five (today): it was the first night that I didn't have to have a hydration session, but instead got a charlie horse at 430 am. Took a few sips and dozed back off until 6. Had BM at usual pre-op am time without intervention - yay! Sort of dawdled after husband and son left. Got a 16oz bottle of water, and started in: I finished it in about 90 minutes. WOW! It was like the internal swelling backed off overnight. Once I logged that little victory, I got my butt going, because I was on a mission. After two days of sweet-sweet-sweet, I was jonesing for miso soup. And happy day, I found some without MSG. I know the salt content is thought the roof, but dang it, I was happy to find it. Armed with my Isopure in Sonic ice, I went to my appointment for iron replacement therapy, burned two hours there, and then home to the best tasting miso soup I've ever had. Of course I didn't eat the solids (seaweed, green onion, tofu), but who cared? It was great. I also had a SF popsicle. I later experimented with pudding with no problem, but I decided not to push it. Pick up son, tie in with home help (lifting restriction, of course), and ran out of gas at 430. Didn't sleep, just rested in bed with phone. Drinking as much water as I can before bed.

    General Status, Day Five: Feeling more like myself. Can tolerate milk-based things (yay!), and miso! Pretty darn good day.


    So, there's the update. No, I'm not measuring, logging or weighing. Water is my priority this week. Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.