Just today.... - ThinnerTimes

Ms.P · 10-07-2004, 08:13 PM

A gamet of emotions...

Nervous.... with the anticipation of what is to come and how I will handle it.

Scared... by the hype, knowing that it is an invasive procedure and that there may be risks that are yet unseen.

Exicted...telling many of the people around me that I may be up for it, or at least my doctor thinks so.

Happy...from knowing that eventually I will be able to cross my legs or fit more comfortabely in chairs.

Embarrased... because I have become this heavy.

Joyful... because there is hope of getting many things in life that I have missed back.

Enamored... because I have a husband that appreciates me for who I am and doesn't mind what I have become. Knowing that he will be behind me in this.

Angry... because I can't tell my best friend, my mother, about what is occuring in my life because she condones the procedure and I don't need that kind of stress right now.

And, these were just the emotions that I felt today. I am afraid of what I will feel in the coming weeks and coming months.

Blueyz · 10-07-2004, 08:23 PM

Ms P,
I felt the same way. This is a very emotional ride. I was angry, too because I told my mom and she was against me having the surgery. She barely talked to me and always changed the subject if I brought up anything about the surgery. Today, she is fine with it. I think she just worried that I would die on the operating table and leave my 3 kids and wonderful husband behind. It will all work out for you.

All of your emotions are totally normal and we have all felt them at some time. Best of luck to you.

HapBird · 10-07-2004, 11:45 PM

Hi, Ms. P -

Sounds like a familiar roller coaster ride of emotions! When I first started looking into this, I walked away from the education seminar and said "No way am I going to do this!" After some thought - and a reality check - I realized that it was irrational to be so deathly afraid of it, since by NOT doing anything, I was placing my life at risk altogether. This gave me some perspective.

Yes, it is scary to contemplate. But if you're in Dr. Callery/Dr. Potts' care, you'll be fine! They are very experienced and know what they're doing.

Keep on posting here - we'll help you through as best we can!

watergirl · 10-08-2004, 07:29 AM

The best advice I can give you is try to deal with each of the emotions that you are feeling.

Risk is minimized by outstanding doctor. This should eliminate a lot of your emotions. Do your research!

Outside people against WLS, educate them. Give them web sites to check out.

I wish you much luck and success in your journey. It's all so simular, but yet also very individualistic.

educ8dwmn1970 · 10-12-2004, 03:05 PM

Glad you shared your thoughts. I too have my Mom as my best friend, and she was very upset that I was going to do this. We did have a long talk about it and I shared with her how much this meant to me and that I had to take the risk so I could improve my life. It wasn't until after my surgery that she accepted it and was my greatest supporter. Once the danger was over she was no longer worried. She asked me last weekend "would you do it again"? I told her without hesitating "yes". She was glad I was sure of my decision. She told me how proud she was of me and that made me feel great.
Give your Mom time and she too will come around. All Moms worry about their
"kids" when we make these kind of decisions.

Cheryl Allen
9-22-03
Dr. Callery
Open RYN
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