Newsflash: I have issues - ThinnerTimes

Ryn · 01-29-2006, 03:57 PM

I like to think that I am pretty well adjusted in life, but I think I am wrong. I have always been a food hoarder. No I don't necessarily need to eat the food, just knowing it is there is comfort to me. Easter candy would be in my house until my mom threw it out because it was soo old. I can barely eat but I felt the need to buy approx EIGHT bags of soy crisps...um I haven't finished the original one I bought 2 weeks ago. I am obsessed with food. I think about it contantly-I am not hungry so I am doing ok in that respect.

My daughter talks to me like crap and disobeys the littlest command (don't use my new nail file on your toes...then she starts to do it with a smile, then doesn't get it when I get upset).

My bf is a totally loving person-when he feels like it, but he can blow up at any given minute for unknown reasons.

I am just tired...physically and emotionally.
OK pity party for me!

One good thing I met my protein goal yesterday! First time EVER!

Gina in NY · 01-29-2006, 04:21 PM

We can control food on some level. At least the little bags don't go running off the shelves anyway. Unfortunately, the price is your health, but you've dealt with that part anyway. But I'll be darned if we can control other people for even a minute!

I have read more about people finally facing and resolving their, as you say, "issues" after this surgery. It is very empowering to go through this transformation, come out the other side and say - hey, I changed this part of my life, maybe I'll change that part too.

You could try talking to someone... I personally LOVE therapy. Haven't been in years but it has always helped me SO much and what a comfort. I'll never forget talking 20 minutes non-stop to a wonderful woman (she had recovered from an eating disorder, kept off 85 pounds for like 15 years) about all my issues then looking at her and saying, "I'm nuts, aren't I". (she said I wasn't) and she really helped me!

Anyway, you could try talking to a professional who can help guide you through your re-creation. People don't call your surgery date your re-birthday for nothing!! But you can always complain here at least - folks here are so supportive!

Good luck!

Bypassingme619 · 01-29-2006, 05:58 PM

Ryndi You poor thing. Honestly as a bigger woman(because I am still big) I accepted a lot of abuse from others. I am only about 100 down and I don't take no mess. I don't if it is confidence or just the extra energy that has kicked up in me. When I was 400+ the last thing I wanted to do is agruee or stick for what was right because I barly had the energy to walk to get to work. As that weight comes off more and more you will start putting things in order. When things are going on and they are bothering you they need to be addressed. Start standing up for you. People only treat us the way we let them. I hope in time you will see.

bamagirl · 01-29-2006, 06:11 PM

Congrats on meeting the protein goal!!! That has become the biggest accomplishment of most of my days.

As far as everything else, I agree with Gina. Talking to someone, especially a professional, is a great thing to do. I love my therapist, and she is helping me out SO much! Before I meet with her, I already have a working list of the new areas of my life I want to tackle...I guess the surgery jump-started a total life overhaul for me.
But if not a professional, then someone else that has been in your shoes would be great to call/meet with. Or you can just keep posting here!

We're all nuts together.

twodogsmom · 01-29-2006, 06:14 PM

We all do have issues and there's no shame in seeking help from a qualified professional. Besides the food hoarding, and all the other food issues that led us down the path of morbid obesity, there are so many other things. Sounds like you need to work on assertiveness, with daughter, bf, even food. I hope you find someone to help you sort things out-a good therapist is money well spent and will help you move on more successfully with your life.

coptergirl · 01-29-2006, 06:42 PM

Words of wisdom have already been spoken, and I am at a loss for what to add. Ryndi, we all love and support you!! You are in my prayers...