A reason I eat....... - Page 2 - ThinnerTimes

Nikkiart29 · 09-08-2005, 10:52 AM

I eat while I watch tv and to keep my mouth busy. I like the textures of food, especially crunchy, which is why I always would pig out on crunchy foods. Tacos, chips, cookies, etc. And, I was always taught to clean my plate and not waste food since there were "lots of starving children in this world not as lucky as you." Which I do agree with and is why I get sick of wasteful people (whether it be wasting their life away, wasting food, wasting time, wasting their potential...you name it!), and I'm still dealing with that issue and trying to overcome my need to clean the plate! I also tend to eat a lot in social issues, or at least feel the need to eat if others are.
Still dealing with that too. Getting better though!

Groovey kinda Love · 09-08-2005, 11:10 AM

Ok now you have made me look at myself and ask myself.... Self why did you eat? I ate for many years cause I was lonely, I didn't date for over 6 years cause I was afraid of being hurt again, then I met mr.right. I ate cause I was bored, I ate cause there was no money to do anything with, I ate to eat, I have a trillion reasons I supose but the main reason I ate probebly was low self esteem, unhappy person, and loved food. One of the habbits I have yet to break is I keep going to the fridge and cabinets look inside and close the doors, then about an hour later I repeat this like something is going to magicaly apear and I am going to eat.... I have done this since I was a child and I to this day do it. I catch myself in what I am doing and can't seem to stop.

Gladitsme · 09-08-2005, 12:32 PM

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Originally Posted by mfergusont

Does anybody else have the problem of still using food for comfort sometimes after surgery?

Yes, I do. I'm doing my best to be more aware of every bite that I take, rather than eating mindlessly. I was eating saltine crackers in the evening, and realized that I wasn't hungry, just wanted something in my mouth. I also posted about eating ice cream when I was angry. I need to focus on how I can handle my feelings without sabotaging myself.

Laura@BellaBabies · 09-08-2005, 12:35 PM

I feel kinda stupid for saying this but I was never full. I felt like such a freak for as long as I remember I would eat and never feel full, I would say I was because everyone else did but it took massive amounts of food for me to get that "full" sensation then I would feel so very guilty for eating so much to get myself to feel that way, it was a viscious cycle.

I am so thankful I do not need to do that anymore and a little bit of food satisfies me. i do not eat till I get a very full feeling as it makes me feel guilty, as soon as I feel a little pressure from my pouch I stop.

QueenB · 09-08-2005, 05:15 PM

About being the "hot chick":

Because I am blonde, because I have a large chest, because I never really learned to be OK with attention from males that I wasn't involved with......these are some reasons I ate. I didn't want to be the one drawing attention or deflecting advances. Even just last year at 190lbs I caused some horrible rifts with a group of girls I was vacationing with. Guys hooking up with girls then being introuced to me and having a "change of heart". I am married, wearing my ring PROUD and even though the others were willing to put out, there I was the object of attention and affection. I don't know how I will deal with this as it becomes a bigger part of my life again after surgery BUT I know I won't jeapordize my health and well being so that others feel more comfortable around me.

I eat for so many reasons about 50% not out of hunger. I also like the act of eating but I think it stems from anxiety and turned into habit. The more you all open up the more I can see myself in alot of your posts. In couseling I have worked through alot of these triggers and reactions but it's still amazinging how I hold on to the "reasons".

Thanks for sharing with me

mfergusont · 09-08-2005, 09:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Laura@BellaBabies

I feel kinda stupid for saying this but I was never full. I felt like such a freak for as long as I remember I would eat and never feel full, I would say I was because everyone else did but it took massive amounts of food for me to get that "full" sensation then I would feel so very guilty for eating so much to get myself to feel that way, it was a viscious cycle.

I am so thankful I do not need to do that anymore and a little bit of food satisfies me. i do not eat till I get a very full feeling as it makes me feel guilty, as soon as I feel a little pressure from my pouch I stop.

Wow! I can identify with you on this. I never really felt full before either. It would take a lot of food to fill me up. I remember going out to restaurants and eating my entire plate, most of the appetizer, and 2 sodas and a desert, that would sorta make me feel full, but mostly when at home I would eat constantly from the time I would get home from work until bedtime. I was never ever satisfied. I guess I was trying to use food to fill some sort of void. I don't know why I was like that. I feel like I have control over those feelings now, though. I don't feel the need to eat eat eat now. But sometimes when I am upset or whatever, I still will go for food. Just not EVERY day. It is hard trying to change.

Barbarajo · 09-09-2005, 08:20 AM

I ate/eat (I have not arrived yet) when I want to numb emotions of lonliness, sadness, fear, anger. I also eat to make a magic shield so that men won't come on to me. My magic shield has disappear now a days and I have only binged once after attention from men. I caught myself one hour into a binge and said Barbara what are you doing you can't do this any more. I stopped and have not done it since.

Now that I have taken away my numbing desire to eat I want to smoke more and more. I quit smoking for the second time first time was 6 years not smoking. This time is 10 months. My brain this last couple of weeks is screaming to smoke. To numb to distract to what ever.

SaturdazeChyld · 09-09-2005, 09:02 AM

After reading everyone's posts I have to admit I do eat also to make myself invisible to men.

When I'm fat, it forces men to look deeper than the physical to get to know me. I have this notion that if they don't bother to do that, well then they are not worthy!

hmmmmmmm .. do I need therapy?

NelleBelle50 · 09-09-2005, 09:44 AM

Umm, okay, yeah, all of the above...

I notice that with my anxiety, if I'm not on my medication or overlly stressed, I have an overwhelming desire to chew something, or have something in my mouth. I've learned to chew gum furiously. I eat when I'm bored, and when I'm sad. Sugar is a fix for sadness.....it's a medical fact.

I eat because it tastes good. If I'm really enjoying the taste of something, I don't want to stop. I want more and more. I eat because somewhere allong the line I associated food (especially sweets) with a reward and feel that anytime I do something good or get through something good, I should buy myself a treat.

I've also come to the realization that my family bonded while eating, we still do. Every holiday or special occasion, we'll get together and eat a big meal and celebrate. It's not a bad thing, but it's hard not to overeat when you're celebrating. I had an uncle (by marriage) who was severely obese and he used to pile his plate so high, and his food would all mix together and he didn't care if it corn mixed with jello, he just ate it and wanted more. He died young (60's). I was always careful I didn't go that far overboard, but my family did and still does love food. Cooking fabulous food for your family is a way of showing love. And man do we love each other.

QueenB · 09-09-2005, 10:28 AM

Italian over here! We definietly bonded over food and the more you ate, the more you said "thank you".

Totally