Jerseygirl

Hi everyone! I am a newbie on this forum, but have been emailing and chatting with Christina, which has been a god-send to me these past couple weeks. I had my surgery which was a Lap bypass, not the open one on Feb 10, 2005. I just wanted to put on the site that I have been vomiting and nauseated each and every day out since surgery. I have undergone 3 endoscopies and been dialated twice, but still sick. Christina has been trying to help me through the mentally depressing days, which seems to be every day. I live in New Jersey am a bit far away, but wanted to be a part of the forum. I wake up (when I am able to sleep) being sick, and am having the worse time eating. I have currently started trying cup of soups. Tomorrow makes 7 weeks out and I am so disappointed in this surgery. I am almost 50 lbs. lighter now, but what a sacrifice I have been making. I kind of regret the surgery right now, but everyone says a year from now I'll forget this has happened and I'll be happy. It is hard to think of the future right now and I am sad....daily. I thought "not me"...I will be strong and back to work within 2 weeks, and I wouldn't have any complications. I need to say, I have humbled myself and have started seeing a therapist and speaking out more, asking questions of others that have had this surgery.

It seemed that everyone at my group meetings had nothing negative to say about the bypass, only being constipated and some abdominal pain. I have been in the hospital probably 3-4 weeks in and out since the surgery. I am so worn out over all of this and how I feel, I no longer know what I feel anymore. I am sick of being sick. I have also developed tremors and have seen a neurologist now. Seems like I am falling apart.

After reading some postings, I know all of you have gone through your own hell. You have all pulled together and conquered all obstacles. I hope this will all just be a BAD memory...soon.

I just wanted to post my issue, it makes me feel better talking about this right now.

Carol
Lap Bypass 2/10/05
339/290
BMI 49
5'10

Bypassingme619

Hey Carol

I know nothing I can say would or will make you feel better but my prayers are with you. I haven't had my surgery yet but I am in the process and not far from being a loser. I have been fighting for seven years for this surgery and suffering more every years as I get older and he weigth stacks on. I don't know your history as far as being obese but I have been a big girl all my life. I feel like I am trapped in a body I am never going to get out of, I have put my life on hold and I have missed so so much because of being MO. I know I say it now and yall can quote me on it later if I am on her complainin but I wouldn't mind being a lil sick so I can live my life healthy. Everyone is different Carol you do have to remember that. Peoples bodys react differently the eachothers. I do hope this is just a faze and it will be over soon. My prayers are with you. Stay strong. HUGGS from california.

Jerseygirl

Thank you so much for your input. I am MO and I know this is a decision that I had to come to due to my health. I am just not the same person I was as far as my personality, due to lack of energy and being sick. I am just sad adn feeling yucky all the time. I am happy that I lost the weight, but just can't wait until I feel better. I wish you luck too with your surgery (upcoming). I just seem to need to reach out for more support thru this time. Thank you so much again.

Peckkale

Hi Carol,

I am so sorry to hear you're not doing so well.

I can't offer much in the form of wise words regarding your complications. What I can offer you is distraction time.

Sometimes putting your attention on other things work wonders in helping the body heal.

I'm available....Email, ICQ or MSN...Whatever.

Renée
peckkale@lycos.com
(New Jersery born and raised)

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Jerseygirl

Hi Peckkale! Thank you for the support, it is true to stay occupied so your not thinking of being sick all day. It is so hard to do anything right now because I am constantly wanting to clutch the pan all day and be close to the bathroom. I am taking real small baby steps daily, it just wears on you when there is nothing else to do. I have taken every prescription and over the counter drug to help me with this sickness, but nothing worked. I am trying...one day at a time. Thank you again for the email addy
Will chat soon....