My WLS was only 2 days away...when I cancelled.
I am writting this message, with the hope that others, will know how one person came to that decision.
I want to stress that, my decision to cancel, is unique to me and is in no way a negative response to WLS. If there is anything here that might help you, I am glad.
Last Jan 15th...I got a wild hair up my considerable back side and sent out e-mails about WLS ...never expecting a response.
The following Monday, I received a phone call from a top surgeon's office, who now had a doctor working with them, who accepted Medicare, my insurance. I was stunned.
Within 2 days I received a huge amount of paperwork from their office to fill out. The following day, I faxed all that info. back to their office.
The next day, I received a call from their office. I had an appointment the following week with the doctor.
The drive from No. County to SD, for that apt. seemed to go on forever.
I was scared.
I wanted the doctor to like me.
I wanted him to say, "YES, I will do the surgery....you are worth saving."
He said "YES."
I felt worthy
My medical tests came back to my surgeon as OK. I was good to go.
The surgery was scheduled for today, March 23rd, but soon...I began to feel uncomfortable with my decision to have the surgery. I could not pinpoint why, until I became aware that this had become a kind of game for me. My focus had been on being accepted for the surgery, not on the surgery or the lifestyle change that came after it was completed. I just could not get my head around it. I sent the first e-mail Jan 15th and 2 months later I was scheduled for the surgery. Huh?
I am in my 60's.
I love my life.
I've lost 20lbs.
The surgery will not make me young again.
There are sickly, skinney old people.
My risks during surgery are greater then most, because of my age.
But more than that...my recovery will take longer, possibly much longer than a younger person's.
I can still work out & get stronger.
I can lose some more weight...I hope.
After reading your messages that encouraged me to listen to myself & do what I felt was right for me...I talked openly with my surgeon about my doubts. With his generous help, I decided to cancel my surgery. For now, this is the right decision for me.
In retrospect, after writing this message earlier (this part is an edit) it would have been helpful for me to have had a longer time between my first contact with the doctor and the scheduling of the surgery.
I wanted the WLS Brass Ring...just not the surgery...at least not before I had time to really decide if it was what I wanted.
Why I cancelled WLS.
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