So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye - Page 2 - ThinnerTimes

LyndasRoom · 09-02-2007, 06:37 PM

Paige,
Take some time to focus on you. You are still part of this community, and are welcome here any time. I wish you all the best in your quest to re establish health.

Baron Patrick · 09-02-2007, 07:34 PM

Paige;

may God Bless and be with YOU.

Corrine · 09-02-2007, 07:44 PM

I hope that your future is filled with healthy, pain free days...hugs!

sdgrrl · 09-02-2007, 10:26 PM

I will miss your wise counsel here on the board, Paige. I wish that the inconsiderateness of some of the people on this board had not caused you to feel shame and nonsupport, but I understand and must agree with you. A smile and a can-do attitude just can't fix everything sometimes.

I look forward to keeping in touch with you, and can't wait to hear that you are doing well. Know that you will be strongly in my heart,

If you need us for what ever reasons, please call or post, Love. We all want you to feel well.

Gentle, healing energy to you this week and the weeks to follow. Expect to be on the mend a long time, and please help your emotions by posting to me or anyone else you trust with your feelings. It won't be an easy road, but I believe it is the road you currently need to travel.

You are a classy lady, and I wish you all the best. I'm sorry I won't be available to give you last minute support and comfort. Know that my spirit is with you, funneling energy up your way. Perhaps once you are healed enough to travel, you can tootle down here for some quality grrl time with the Stapler Sistahs. I for one have room for you, I'm sure others do as well. Love you sweetie, you are one brave Grrl!
Best to you!
Donna

tazchic · 09-03-2007, 01:08 AM

I just want to thank you for you insight and honesty.

You and Janie have opened my eyes to many possibilities. You have also slowed me down and caused a person who doesn't always think before she acts to sit down THINK, RESEARCH, STUDY and COMMUNICATE with the people that are important in my life.

I realize this does not help you and although I have no idea what you go thru each day, you will be on my mind. You have my thoughts and prayers. I hope to see you back on this site...healthy and PAIN FREE!

justawoman · 09-03-2007, 07:23 AM

Paige,

I don't post much but I lurk in my free time and I am really sad to see you leave. I have been following you and Janies stories from the beginning. Like others have mentioned you have opened my eyes to many possibilities and complications that can arise.

I am one that puts a smile on my face each day and goes on with life but I must admit there are times I am dying inside.

My mother drove in to see me this weekend and as soon as she hugged me she asked me if I was ok, I stepped back and smiled and said Yes, why? She said I am just asking, I couldn't keep it together and finally had to sit down and be honest and I cried my eyes out. For the first time I had to be honest to someone. No, I am not ok, I feel like I am dying. I too am in pain, I haven't figured out why or where exactly the pain is coming from. I am tired, weak and eat for SHIT. Someone recently made a comment to me that it was mental, and it really hurt my feelings. I do not starve myself on purpose...I try so darn hard to eat but when I do eat I always feel so shitty when I am done. My kidneys kill me on a daily basis. I am back down to 126lbs and just can't imagine losing anymore weight.

I guess I don't share my story or talk to anyone about the issues I am really having because maybe I am ashamed, I don't want to hear the "I told you so" and I am still not sure if being "FAT" was the answer either. I was in pain and unhealthy then too...So I guess right now my mind is at a lost so I live everyday and just put a smile on and go about my day even though I want to sit and cry.

I am finally going back to see a new kidney specialist and then hoping to find a new GB specialist as mine has left his pratice here.

Paige, I know you need this time for yourseld and I totally understand but please be assured that there are people like me that don't post much or put on a smile and say I am healthy and great who are silently reading you and Janies post and others who have posted complications on here. I am always searching for answers in my private time.

I wish you best of luck and thank you for opening my eyes and hope to hear an update on you when your healthy...I am really looking forward to a healthy Paige

paige52 · 09-03-2007, 09:06 AM

Your post and what you said is what made me stay on here so long....

Some of us have complications that we suffer in silence out of some twisted sense of guilt or deservedness...not sure that's even a word...lol WE didn't do anything wrong, "i told you so" is the other persons way of saying "I'm not as brave as you to take chances to make my life better" there's no risk and that's why other people don't grow. yes we rolled the dice in this life game called GBS and it isn't workign out so good right now.

I don't know what all your symptoms are but some sound familiar enough that I can point you in a direction to get some help. We don't all need to be reversed, many of our comps can be treated and managed, if we know where to look. Different surgeons have different levels of expereince on complications. I know of two that deal with post GBS complications only and they are good. They rarely recommend reversals....

DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES buy into that crap that's it's mental... the is a load of BS you do not need to carry with you. I cna't stress enough that while a good attitude is vitally important to maintain sanity when dealign with any level of complications the comps are real and they do hurt and stress us. When someone says that to you... just nod your head and repeat this thought in your head.. "shut up"... don't say it just thinking because NO ONE but you lives in your body and therefore cna't even begin to understand what is going on. Even me...who seems to be the queen of complications doesn't know what it's like to live in your skin...

My heart goes out to you... accept nothing but the best for yourself and if that's not where you are demand it!

PM me with your number and I'll give you a call, we can chat and I can put you in touch with some people that can help you.

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Originally Posted by justawoman

Paige,

I don't post much but I lurk in my free time and I am really sad to see you leave. I have been following you and Janies stories from the beginning. Like others have mentioned you have opened my eyes to many possibilities and complications that can arise.

I am one that puts a smile on my face each day and goes on with life but I must admit there are times I am dying inside.

My mother drove in to see me this weekend and as soon as she hugged me she asked me if I was ok, I stepped back and smiled and said Yes, why? She said I am just asking, I couldn't keep it together and finally had to sit down and be honest and I cried my eyes out. For the first time I had to be honest to someone. No, I am not ok, I feel like I am dying. I too am in pain, I haven't figured out why or where exactly the pain is coming from. I am tired, weak and eat for SHIT. Someone recently made a comment to me that it was mental, and it really hurt my feelings. I do not starve myself on purpose...I try so darn hard to eat but when I do eat I always feel so shitty when I am done. My kidneys kill me on a daily basis. I am back down to 126lbs and just can't imagine losing anymore weight.

I guess I don't share my story or talk to anyone about the issues I am really having because maybe I am ashamed, I don't want to hear the "I told you so" and I am still not sure if being "FAT" was the answer either. I was in pain and unhealthy then too...So I guess right now my mind is at a lost so I live everyday and just put a smile on and go about my day even though I want to sit and cry.

I am finally going back to see a new kidney specialist and then hoping to find a new GB specialist as mine has left his pratice here.

Paige, I know you need this time for yourseld and I totally understand but please be assured that there are people like me that don't post much or put on a smile and say I am healthy and great who are silently reading you and Janies post and others who have posted complications on here. I am always searching for answers in my private time.

I wish you best of luck and thank you for opening my eyes and hope to hear an update on you when your healthy...I am really looking forward to a healthy Paige

paige52 · 09-03-2007, 09:09 AM

a simple thanks... your words give me pause to wonder if I'm doing the right thing but I know in my heart I am...

So again... for now.... stay healthy... and when my surgery is done I'll be back.....

Until then I"m checking my PM's for another week or you can email me at ubrstrbksmom@gmail.com

Blessings to all....

coptergirl · 09-03-2007, 10:02 AM

Paige - I saw this post a little late, so I will PM you. In case you see it, pursuant to our PMs, we will be in touch. You are always a member of this community whether it be public or private. We love and support you all the way. Prayers for healing, calm, and serenity are said for you, my love.

LQQkn · 09-03-2007, 10:26 AM

Renee,

I'm sitting over here crying, and wanting to give you a big hug! Please remember one thing, it took me two yrs to get it. There is NO SHAME in what you did to your body to correct obesity, and again there is NO SHAME that the surgery failed your body. Yes we are discriminated against daily, I'm here to validate that. Please contact Paige she has been a godsend to me I'm telling you I wouldn't be able to get through what I'm going through without her love and support. Also I'm here for you as well.. and if you PM me I will give you my number and I can perhaps help you in the right direction. I can also maybe help you figure out what the pains are caused from. I've been a bundle of pain and it's frightening not to know what's causing it or where it's coming from but please stop suffering in silence. It's not healthy.. let it out please. Janie

Quote:

Originally Posted by justawoman

Paige,

I don't post much but I lurk in my free time and I am really sad to see you leave. I have been following you and Janies stories from the beginning. Like others have mentioned you have opened my eyes to many possibilities and complications that can arise.

I am one that puts a smile on my face each day and goes on with life but I must admit there are times I am dying inside.

My mother drove in to see me this weekend and as soon as she hugged me she asked me if I was ok, I stepped back and smiled and said Yes, why? She said I am just asking, I couldn't keep it together and finally had to sit down and be honest and I cried my eyes out. For the first time I had to be honest to someone. No, I am not ok, I feel like I am dying. I too am in pain, I haven't figured out why or where exactly the pain is coming from. I am tired, weak and eat for SHIT. Someone recently made a comment to me that it was mental, and it really hurt my feelings. I do not starve myself on purpose...I try so darn hard to eat but when I do eat I always feel so shitty when I am done. My kidneys kill me on a daily basis. I am back down to 126lbs and just can't imagine losing anymore weight.

I guess I don't share my story or talk to anyone about the issues I am really having because maybe I am ashamed, I don't want to hear the "I told you so" and I am still not sure if being "FAT" was the answer either. I was in pain and unhealthy then too...So I guess right now my mind is at a lost so I live everyday and just put a smile on and go about my day even though I want to sit and cry.

I am finally going back to see a new kidney specialist and then hoping to find a new GB specialist as mine has left his pratice here.

Paige, I know you need this time for yourseld and I totally understand but please be assured that there are people like me that don't post much or put on a smile and say I am healthy and great who are silently reading you and Janies post and others who have posted complications on here. I am always searching for answers in my private time.

I wish you best of luck and thank you for opening my eyes and hope to hear an update on you when your healthy...I am really looking forward to a healthy Paige