thought for 8/16 - ThinnerTimes

alees55 · 08-15-2007, 12:29 PM

"Creativity is a gift. It doesn't come through if the air is cluttered." John Lennon

The character flaw of projection clouds my thought process along with my peace and serenity. Projecting my insecurities of life impedes my growth. Projection comes out of situations I have no control over and its an illusion to think I can control it by obsessing in my mind what I can't control.
I think that projecting my insecurities started for me way back in my childhood. It started when my needs went unmet and these feelings were carried into my adulthood. When my adult self's needs go unmet, the child within me rebels and wants their needs catered to. These insecurities act out in many ways and many forms, but projecting and obsessing are the most prevalent for me today.
Today my spiritual and emotional growth in recovery have brought about a new awareness within. This awareness becomes my guide to a better self. It becomes my warrior in the battle I fight within for recovery versus addictions. This battle I fight is never won; it's never lost either; it is only fought. It is a fight I choose to take everyday. For me it is better to fight and learn how to better myself while getting closer to God, then choose not to fight at all. That to me is the road to recovery; the road to God.
Recovery has given me the gift of creativity. The ability to act in the most rational and mature way then ever before. It unclogs my mind, my inner self, and gives me the voice of reason. Do I listen to this voice every time? Not always, but I do get better every day at it. This life of recovery is a great life, an ever expanding life, while it gives new purpose and meaning to my life. I have to let God handle my future, it's a much better way to live.

"We accept each day as a gift from the hand of God and we live it to the best of our ability." Food for Thought

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." Albert Einstein

Peace, love, and recovery,
Bobby