bridgetgirl

oh yeah i still get turned off by food... right now you have to decide whats hunger and whats head hunger... thats more difficult than it sounds. its something I battle all the time... eating when your not hungry is a bummer! A constant battle ...... help this helps ya.

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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10

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What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug

"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White

sandiegomija

The Avenue Is The Store That Has Tall Pants Im 6'2 And They Go To The Floor On Me So I Know They Would Work For You And They Sell Clothes All The Way To Size 14 They Have One On University And One In Chula Vista On Palomar St. Check Them Out Online..my Home Pc Is Fried Too I Had To Take It Apart And Dry It With A Hair Dryer My 2 Year Old Spilled A Whold Cup Of Juicy Juice On It He Was Trying To Be Grown And Took The Lid Off Of It To Drink Put It On The Computer Table And Before You Know It I Was Smelling Hot Grape Juice...lol...

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sandiegomija

Thanks It Does Help

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Dara

Shopping for clothes is a total head trip. I went from looking through the very limited matronly stock of size 20 or 22 in March...to now trying to make myself go to the size 4's!!! I can never go directly to size 4...it just freaks me out. I usually go to size 8 or 10, then go to size 6. After the 6, 8 and 10 are too big, then I'll try on a size 4...and it fits. It's sooooo bizarre! I wonder if 10 years down the road, I'll still be going to size 10's!?

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Dara
Open RNY 4/27/04 Dr. Callery
10-15 lbs. above goal weight and okay with it

Blueyz

Dara~

Size 4!! Whoo- hooo you skinny little thing!! Isn't life great?? It is still hard for me to believe I am shrinking. I still see fat Dale in the mirror.

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Blueyz
Open 7/14/04 w/Dr. Callery 4 years out
239/103/125 below Goal fluctuating between 108-115
BMI 18.8~Dr. C is ok with my weight...yeah

Official Scale Whore # 27 (Recovered..I threw mine out!!)

cedesigns

Well some of you guys may be far enough along that going to buy clothes is a fantastic journey <sigh>. I, who have not shopped for clothes except when it was horribly horribly necessary (like my sons wedding, hated it, didnt want to be there, didnt want to be in the pictures, never expected to look like that when my son go married!) unwittingly went to buy some clothes (a bathing suit, that was a big mistake) for my trip today. It's amazing what your mind can lead you to believe (that I was looking good!) and what the real story is. I actually went into one of the rooms with the wrap around mirrors, thinking it couldnt be that bad............."heck I've lost almost 50lbs!". (what the heck are they thinking putting those mirrors with down lighting in a plus size womens shop? every ripple shows up!).

Well no way on that project boss! There is no way I would put a bathing suit on and walk around in public. So, although the weight does/has come down, and I/you are feeling very very good, its a good thing to not overshoot reality, it can be very disappointing. I am losing a lot of weight, and I am certainly going down in sizes, but I ain't ready for a bathing suit! I remember coming back from a clothes shopping trip with my daughters last year, I was so shocked at what I saw in the mirror, I couldnt get it out of my mind for a day. I cried all the way home in the car. I felt bad for my kids, they couldnt console me, and they didnt know what to do.

So I hope to be happily posting next year with all of you ladies who are looking at the size 6 rack, but not for me yet.............guess I'll be tanning in my shorts this year~

Carol
8weeks post op/ laproscopic GBS
down 43 lbs (but a long way to go!)
270/227/135

sandiegomija

Carol please dont be so hard on yourself we all have major hangups with our looks and while some might be size 4, 10, and 8's there are some of us like me that have huge way to go i had my surgery 4 months ago thursday and I have lost about 100 lbs now i weigh 298 that is still alot but I am 6'2 and I should weigh about 190 to some people that is heavy but that is ideal for me, you dont think you could wear a bathing suite well just try a different style get a wrap you could put around you, i have the same image issues all though people tell me i need to buy new clothes i never show my arms i always wear long sleves cuz my arms are huge well to me and the lose skin thats starting to hang makes me cringe I have never in my life wore sleve less shirts or anything. this summer i am though cuz i have to get over this fear i have that everyone is looking at me, the truth is they are probably not looking and in our own eyes it looks wose than it actually is. I got my tax return back and I have money to go clothes shopping im going tomorrow although everytime i think about it i get butterflys cuz i know whats going to happen ima try it on love it in the dressing room but then start thinking and thinking and over think it and whind up putting it back we have to take each day one step at a time so tomorrow im going shopping for shirts that are short sleve maybe one or two and next month maybe a skirt i dont even own one cuz i dont like to show skin..lol..so if you ever need to talk or anything let me know we can work on these issues together. hang in there love veronica

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kenziesmommy

Believe me, when I see myself naked it isn't pretty at all. I prefer to keep my clothes on. I try not to think about what's still there because at this point I haven't started obsessing about that. I am still stuck on my scale and it not moving. In time I am sure the skin will become an issue with me. As far as the bathing suit goes I really can't wait to try one on this summer. I won't go shopping for one until June sometime and I am hoping to be pretty close to goal. Or at least 30 or less pounds away. I have always been one of those people who would put on the bathing suit a pair of short's and a tee shirt. I would swim with the shirt and short's on. It always pi$$ed me off when everyone else would be bone dry and I would still be soaked. You don't dry as fast with a wet shirt and short's on. The only fat I have on my legs is up real high so if I get one of those bathing suit's that have the little skirt I should be fine. As far as the tee shirt goes, i am still not sure I will be losing that. Unless I throw the shirt off fast and hop into the water. My arm's have hanging skin and I try hiding that as best as I can. We'll just have to wait and see. I still have 5 months till it really starts getting warm around here so I have time.

Shannon

HAMPTON5555

Wow, this was an interesting thread. So many thoughts from so many people at many stages. What a variety of self images. When it all comes down to it though.....where ever we are in the game of WLS, we are still amazing creations, worthy of love and happiness. I hope we all can give ourselves a hug and be proud.

Our bodies are the outer part of the true being.

We have all struggled with weight, yet it does not own us.
And if your not in a place where you can hug yourself, know that I am hugging you....the inner beautiful, amazing YOU!!!!

Rain

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Rain
12-27-04 Dr. Callery (Open RNY)
296 before pre-op
285/164/155 5'7"1/2

"Where you are matters more, if you remember where you've been."
"It's the journey, not the destination!!!"

Christina

I completely understand where you are coming from, at an early post-op stage. I remember thinking when I first began that everything would fall into place when it was supposed to. The only thing I didn't realize that even though I personally am a size 6 (not willing to try on those 4's yet.. lol) I am still very unhappy with my body. Maybe even more so than before. You see now I see something completely different in the mirror, a bathing suit.. NO WAY!!! The thought freightens me.. I don't think I will ever be happy with my body.. unless it is fully clothed! I have extremely excessive skin where my fat used to be and the sagging and hanging skin tears at my heart. I still can't wear a sleeveless shirt because of my saggy arms. I had this major surgery to lose weight, get healthy and look better.. and I can't even wear a freaking sleeveless top.. or shorts that go anywhere above my knee because my thighs sag to them. So don't start beating yourself up now, you will have plenty of time to do that later.. or just do yourself a favor, don't beat yourself up at all.. it's a tough and grueling habit to get into..

We may never be completely happy with our bodies.. but we should try and be happy with ourselves..

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Christina
Open RNY 03/31/2004
274/128/137 (131 Per Dr. C)
BMI: 47 / 22

"There's nothing noble in being superior to your fellow men. True nobility is being superior to your former self." - Ernest Miller Hemingway

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