Dont get me wrong, I couldnt dig you guys n gals here more than i do. But i am all the way in Colorado

So i cant hang with ya.
The groups they have here in Colorado are so clickish. I just started going to my support groups, and i did meet some new people, i just can tell when there is a click, and more times than not, i dont fit in, or they wont let me. I have to be very careful of the friends i make. I just made a new one, and found out she was a "swinger" and her preference is Black men. Well the preference does not bother me, or should i say would not bother me, if my husband were not black. It just made me feel really insecure, like she might be after my man. Ya know? You gotta be careful these days! And there is NO way in Hell i am swinging. Not that i think she is a bad person, but i just dont want to get myself into any sticky situations. And the other ladies i met just dont let me in their click. It's not like i am trying to win a popularity contest or anything, i just want a few friends, i can trust, hang with, shop with. I dont like hanging by myself, never have. I enjoy company.
I'm sooooooooo lonely!!
Dave, yes, you can join my click!!
Denise, Yes I am talking to someone, You peeps!
Van, I am glad someone knows how i feel!
I am grateful to have found this forum, even tho we are so far apart you always know how to cheer me up.