ARGGG and Bother - ThinnerTimes

aesidwell · 01-24-2006, 04:50 PM

Okay, my job is turning me into someone I don't like very much. I work all the time, I'm obssessed, I'm totally out of control panicky and anxious ALL THE TIME, and I feel like I'm whining WAY too much. I just want to get OUT of this situation. I am seriously starting to feel like I'm in hell. Just hearing my cell phone go off is enough to start a panic attack these days.

I really don't know what to do. I mean, obviously, I have to get out of the situation, but with surgery coming up in 2 weeks, I have to make it through at least then and start looking for a new job once I'm back from surgery. I just don't know what to do with my life here. I can't take all the stress, panic, and crap that's constantly being heaped on me day after day after day. I really need to find a more structured environment, where I can use my skills, because lately I've been feeling like a REAL MORON, making mistakes all over the place, and I just can't seem to pick myself back up. Not sleeping, just anxiety 24 hours a day; I've definitely reached the breaking point.

I don't mean to whine to yet more people (the poor people I know IRL must be sick of me trying to handle this...badly!), but any advice or what I can do to make a job search kind of easier (it took 60 plus interviews last time to get this job) would be a HUGE help.

bridgetgirl · 01-24-2006, 04:53 PM

Well you could go to a head hunter and have them find the "perfect" place for you according to your needs and desires. I feel ya about your job irritating ya, I have visions of whoopin' my new office managers ass! I know I would feel so much better if I could do it too. Til then I just keep ignoring her stupid self.

Hang in there and find a head hunter!

Cinerbelle · 01-24-2006, 06:38 PM

Amanda, I sooo feel your pain!! I often feel the same way about my job. I actually had a dream last night that I bashed in one of my co-workers heads with a rock.... Good thing my psych eval is already completed!!

Velma · 01-24-2006, 07:41 PM

OMG, CPS flashbacks. You explained my situation to a T when I worked as CPS caseworker. I was on anxiety(sp?) medication. (but never stopped eating

, gain most of my weight while working there) after four years, I decided to quit. Almost lost my husband due to never being home. I was afraid I could never get another job.

Even applied for jobs with lower salary. After a few interviews got a new job. More pay. When you least expect it will come. Cheer Up

coptergirl · 01-24-2006, 09:53 PM

Amanda - your situation is exactly why I got out of "the biz". I hated the people and the stress. You are in an interesting olace with your education in film. There are many (as you know) headhunters for the entertainment biz,and many many companies that you could still do what you do in a more structured, normal environment. In a small production company less people do all of the work. At one of the majors, the work is distributed better so employees can operate on a more normal level of stress. Your 4AM end times are crazy...Hang in there fornow for insurance and for your surgery, but get out of this company asap... my two cents, only because I care about YOU!

LizardQueen · 01-25-2006, 05:19 AM

Girl-Whine and the world whines with you, okay, well at least I am whining with you! Major sucky changes at my place of employment have me just sick! 152 people got laid off monday night. My hubby and I fortunately weren't on that list. However, I'm back to the good 'ol assembly line on day shift for at least a week (I already put my transfer back in for second in another dept) and I'm stressed about how I'm gonna eat on day shift. Plus, I have done all this assembly stuff in the past, but it has been about 6 mo and I'm not sure if I am physically up to it at this point. Sitting around here crying about it really hasn't been doing me much good either. My company has been bought out and come Feb 27 none of us may have jobs much longer. 450 people have to get laid off before it gets to me but if that many go the whole place will go. I have my associates so that is something and my hubby has a degree in mining so that is something, but it is gonna be tough around here. Where I work is the largest in employer in this area. I wish I knew what to say to help you or make you feel better, but I'm in a pretty tough position right now too!!! Hugs!!! Good luck with your job search!

Tawanda · 01-25-2006, 10:42 AM

Amanda,

I'm really sorry that you are going through this. But I can give you some words of advice learned through years of experience on the work force.

I've worked for 30 years...since I was 15 and I've had a myriad of jobs. Some high pressure that paid really, really well. Some laid back where the paycheck was lacking. What I learned is that money is only money. I didn't like what I was when I was making the big bucks. Everything was materialistic, including my marriage, my surroundings and my own thought processes. Yes, money can give you a life style that is more pleasant, but your health and serenity and peace of mind comes from somewhere that has nothing to do with a dollar.

It's all about sacrifice and choices. If you're willing to pay for your paycheck with stress and anxiety...that's great. Some people do it willingly and I salute them in their crazies. But if you want to sleep at night and enjoy your days without the panic, I can attest that it IS possible. I have a job where I make a lot less money than most of my peers. But I'm happy with that. I don't need a boat or a giant mortgage payment to impress anybody. And when I leave work, I go home and leisurely attend to my modest home and family. Sometimes I look in my check book and wonder how in the world I'm going to afford something, but those are FLEETING moments, compared to the continual stress and anxiety I used to have at a high powered job.

Your choice is to decide what is most important to YOU. And what are you willing to sacrifice to make yourself happy?

Here's hoping all the best for you and wishing a happy, peaceful smile on your face at the end of every day!

Bypassingme619 · 01-25-2006, 11:12 AM

Amanda sweety you are so not by yourself in the situation you are going through. I just recently quit my job after being there for 5 years. Broke my heart, because I love the job just the environement was way to much for me to handle without me feeling like I was going to crack. I was kind of down and depressed for a couple of weeks(seperation anxiety I guess), but something better came along giving me the chance to better myself so I can get a higher position and better pay(that is always a plus

). Amanda if it is bringing worry into life mainly with your surgery coming up, that is no environment you want to be in post-op. Start off new and fresh. It might be rough at first but if you want something bad enough something better will come along. Don't put up with the BS if you don't have to, there are companies out there who will value you a lot better. Everything will work it self out.

coptergirl · 01-25-2006, 12:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Tawanda

Amanda,

I'm really sorry that you are going through this. But I can give you some words of advice learned through years of experience on the work force.

I've worked for 30 years...since I was 15 and I've had a myriad of jobs. Some high pressure that paid really, really well. Some laid back where the paycheck was lacking. What I learned is that money is only money. I didn't like what I was when I was making the big bucks. Everything was materialistic, including my marriage, my surroundings and my own thought processes. Yes, money can give you a life style that is more pleasant, but your health and serenity and peace of mind comes from somewhere that has nothing to do with a dollar.

It's all about sacrifice and choices. If you're willing to pay for your paycheck with stress and anxiety...that's great. Some people do it willingly and I salute them in their crazies. But if you want to sleep at night and enjoy your days without the panic, I can attest that it IS possible. I have a job where I make a lot less money than most of my peers. But I'm happy with that. I don't need a boat or a giant mortgage payment to impress anybody. And when I leave work, I go home and leisurely attend to my modest home and family. Sometimes I look in my check book and wonder how in the world I'm going to afford something, but those are FLEETING moments, compared to the continual stress and anxiety I used to have at a high powered job.

Your choice is to decide what is most important to YOU. And what are you willing to sacrifice to make yourself happy?

Here's hoping all the best for you and wishing a happy, peaceful smile on your face at the end of every day!

Well said!!! ***Clapping in agreement***

Dara · 01-25-2006, 02:18 PM

Tawanda hit it right on the button. I used to work in a very high-paying, stressful job, and I also drove 35 freeway miles each way to work every day. After nine years, I was completely burned out and my family suffered terribly. I worked too far away from my young daughter, my elderly grandmother, and my disabled mother; hence, even more stress!

Finally, I had to stop the insanity. I took a 50 PERCENT pay cut to work at a school district close to my home. I have never regretted my choice one second. In fact, it was one of the smartest career moves I ever made. After 12 years, I love my job. The people I work with are my extended family. I have an enormous amount of time off each year. The quality of my life more than compensated for the loss of pay.

Ultimately, a job is just that--a job. When you are old and reminisce about your life, will you remember the details of your job? Unless you've cured cancer or are Bill Gates, NO! You will want to remember your family, friends, and the memories you created with them.

After your surgery, find yourself another job.