Thanks Belle...yes it way sucks. She was only 8 and was supposed to break my heart in old age like my other furry kids have. I think its even worse now with because my nest is pretty much empty and Im a nurturer by nature....theres noone left to take care of so to say. But there will be again someday. I have a cat but well,,,shes a cat. Shes pretty sure Im the one who needs her not visa versa.
Jo I dont even know what Zumba is but this fat white girl dosnt dance LOL.
Kelly...I wish we had a Y, the closest one is over a hundred miles away. I love swimming but probably wouldnt be seen in public in a swim suit yet anyway LOL.
I appreciate you all taking the time to give me some ideas and support. I know that this to shall pass. Or at least get easier as time goes on.

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First Consult Nov 08.....310 lbs
RNY April 6 '09.......290
Current.......193 (9/25/09)