Well, I guess I'll have to mark today down in this journey as the first time I cried during the GP process.
I went to a general practitioner to see about getting referred for sleep apnea testing and to just talk to him about GP and the process. I had only seen him once before...because, like I mentioned, I haven't really been sick over the years.
Anyway. He totally f'ed with my head. (Can we curse on TT?)
He made me think he was gonna be supportive and then launched into this CRAZY lecture about how GP is the easy way out and really ALL people can lose the weight on their own they just don't want it bad enough.
I was fighting back tears so here are some other F**Ked up things he said.
1) I run half marathons, I'm active - see I'm not fat. (I wanted to tell the A**HOLE that I ran a FULL marathon four years ago after losing 50 pounds and still weighing more than his stupid A**).
2) "Think about the concentration camps, were there any fat people there, NO." This was his answer to my explanation of my family history of obesity and disease. In his mind, the only thing missing at the concentration camps was food and so if there were no fat people then there is no such thing as genetic fat because there would've been fat people. Again, pompous A**HOLE.
3) When we got to the point where I mentioned sleep apnea and getting checked because it could help me to get qualified if I decide this is what I want to do... he said. "Well, sure, so you want to get the test because you want to have sleep apnea so you can get insurace coverage. I guess there's tweaking the law and breaking the law...and if you want it, fine." No A**HOLE, I don't want sleep apnea, I don't want to be fat, I don't want to be here with you and I don't want to risk dying by having GP, but I'm trying to prolong my life and be happy (maybe something you should try you bitter overworked, over paid piece of crap).
4) "I have a fat aunt who had it and trust me, she stretched that stomach out just as soon as they took her off anesthesia. Its really just a matter of your willpower and if you don't have it you don't have it."
Ugh, I can't remember any more. But seriously. What a punk. I've decided this is why i have ALWAYS avoided the doctor. Like any profession, they can suck. But their mistakes, miscalculations, lectures, personal preferences can have such a profound effect on people's lives.
I'm just gonna keep on keepin on. I cried in my car. I cleaned up for the office. I logged on to TT and I got it out.
If this surgery isn't right for me, fine. If people continuously tell me I'm jumping the gun, I don't qualify, I need to go it alone and either continue to gain and qualify or somehow lose????, then fine.
I've put my all into all my previous efforts and I'm gonna do the same with GP.
F**K IT!
**Sorry for all the simulated cursing, its how I need to express myself at the moment.
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