Regret - ThinnerTimes

Heather0788 · 06-29-2008, 02:36 PM

Hello
I am 5 days out of surgery, gastric bypass, and I am really REALLY starting to regret it. I barely meet the requirements and I am only 19. I feel like I have made a huge mistake. I read that the reversal is extremely hard and insurance will not cover it unless its medically necessary. I regret having the surgery even though I have heard great things about it but it comes down to the fact that I lost 22 pounds the two weeks before the surgery and now, after, I am losing much less in a week. I heard that the surgery was supposed to make you NOT feel hungry but I feel like I am starving my body. The cravings are horrible. My body has been in constant pain since the surgery. It is just recently, as in the last day, gotten a tad better. I tell my surgeon these things and he seems really not to care at all. He keeps repeating that it is normal pain and I am unsure. The last thing I remember before falling asleep on the surgery table was "I don't want to do this". I wish I had said something before hand but I felt so bad about getting that deep into it. I regret this so much.

I also got fired because I asked for a week off. I spent my saved money on the vitamins and specific diet needs. I did not realise how expensive this was going to be on me. I am scared that when I run out of my vitamins I will not be able to afford new ones. I am going crazy with all these problems. I feel like I burried myself in problems and should have thought more before I let all this go too far.

Corrine · 06-29-2008, 03:07 PM

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Originally Posted by Heather0788

Hello
I am 5 days out of surgery, gastric bypass, and I am really REALLY starting to regret it. I barely meet the requirements and I am only 19. I feel like I have made a huge mistake. I read that the reversal is extremely hard and insurance will not cover it unless its medically necessary. I regret having the surgery even though I have heard great things about it but it comes down to the fact that I lost 22 pounds the two weeks before the surgery and now, after, I am losing much less in a week. I heard that the surgery was supposed to make you NOT feel hungry but I feel like I am starving my body. The cravings are horrible. My body has been in constant pain since the surgery. It is just recently, as in the last day, gotten a tad better. I tell my surgeon these things and he seems really not to care at all. He keeps repeating that it is normal pain and I am unsure. The last thing I remember before falling asleep on the surgery table was "I don't want to do this". I wish I had said something before hand but I felt so bad about getting that deep into it. I regret this so much.

I also got fired because I asked for a week off. I spent my saved money on the vitamins and specific diet needs. I did not realise how expensive this was going to be on me. I am scared that when I run out of my vitamins I will not be able to afford new ones. I am going crazy with all these problems. I feel like I burried myself in problems and should have thought more before I let all this go too far.

Sweetheart - they don't call this hell week for nothing.

What you are feeling is normal - honestly it is.

The cravings for food you feel are normal too so find something to distract you - read a book, take a gentle walk. Anything to take your mind off it. And what you may think is hunger is just in your head - try to get more fluid down you and that will help.

I don't know that it's legal to fire someone for having time off for surgery. Hopefully someone can chime in on that one.

And as far as the expensive of vitamins and supplements is concerned - try guessing just how much it cost you in junk food before your surgery!

Hang in there. Things will look a whole lot differently in a couple of weeks.

jenn75 · 06-29-2008, 03:30 PM

I haven't even had the surgery, but I think what pp said was right, that this is normal in the beginning to have regrets and really wonder why you did it. The more you try to fight against why you decided to do it, the more you're going to linger in regret. Try to read other's stories here and see how the long-term has outweighed the short-term B.S. just after surgery. No, I can't say that I've gone through it, but I'm preparing myself to feel this way right after surgery. I spoke with a co-worker who had it done and she felt the same way at first.

Please, use the supports in your life to get you through this rough time, and talk to others here who've been in your shoes and I think as the days go by you will feel stronger and more justified in your decision.

In general, as far as the pain goes, I would think that only five days out you would still have pain. As long as you keep communicating with your doctor then try to keep your mind on other things.

MiladyB · 06-29-2008, 04:38 PM

Heather, sweetie. Like Corrine said, what you are feeling really is so totally normal; the buyers remorse, the feelings of hunger, the pain, the fears, the slowing weight loss....most of us have felt those same things right after surgery.

I certainly remember the feelings of hunger. Or what sure felt like hunger. Maybe it was head hunger, maybe it was real hunger. I honestly don't know but it sure felt like the real thing. Just try to keep up with your fluids and try really hard to get your protein in. It does get better, it really does but it take some time. Actually in a few weeks you probably won't want to eat at all.

The slowing of your weight loss is because your body is kind of in a panic. The calories aren't there and it is in a panic that it won't have what it needs when it needs it. That first huge drop is often a lot of water weight too. Try not to panic, sweetie. Your weight loss will pick up when your food intake starts to pick up. Just be kind to yourself.

Right now your hormones are all over the place. You are angry with yourself, you are mouring the loss of food, your emotions are all over the place. It isn't easy but no one said that this journey would be an easy one...but it does get better. It really does.

Keep coming back here. Talk to people. Keep yourself surrounded by those in your life who are supportive....and just be very gentle with yourself.

Claire-in-Texas · 06-29-2008, 07:20 PM

Heather, I truly understand.

Here is something to think about. It's no longer a diet thing, it's a life-changing event.

You can do this.

It IS hell week (for me it was hell month).

Reach out right here to us, as you have. Go to support gorup meetings if possible. You need us all, and we need you.

Best of everything,

tx mom · 06-29-2008, 08:13 PM

i will bet you in a few more weeks you will think this is the best thing you have ever done in your life. i will also bet you find a better job. keep your head up things WILL get better.

waterbottle · 06-30-2008, 12:19 AM

Good Morning Heather

I have not had the bypass I had the band fitted and I read your thread and thought I would just say I am thinking of you and hope this phase will pass and you will soon feel better.

It is hard any operation and you are so young. But in time I am sure you start feeling better and will be able to get passed the stage.

my thoughts are with you Dianne

JuliaGulia · 06-30-2008, 12:33 AM

Hi Heather.

I just had my surgery on June 9th and I understand how you feel. when I got out of the operating room and woke up I kept thinking "what did I do?" "I should have tried Weight Watchers ONE MORE TIME" (even though I have done it atleast 40 times.

When I got home from the hospital I was googling "reversal" "can gastric bypass be reversed?" etc....

The truth is you CAN technically get it reversed but for now just keep that in the back of your mind as comfort if it helps. Just try to relax and remember why you did this in the first place.

It will get better I promise.

Hang in there and we are here for you

I_love_Hello Kitty · 06-30-2008, 01:09 AM

Heather,

You should have seen my posts when I was in Hell Week. The beginning is the worst because you are off of caffeine, fat, sugar...its withdrawl.

I felt regret. I felt actual hunger. Everyone told me I wasn't hungry...but I really felt I was. I almost leaped across the isalnd in my kitchen to take a bite out of a nectarine my Mother-in-law was eating.

I cried. I felt like I was dying.

You will get through this. Hang in there.

JuliaGulia · 06-30-2008, 11:06 AM

Heather.

Let us know how you are doing???