Feeling 20% and Sad - ThinnerTimes

VanessaSFL · 04-28-2005, 01:59 PM

Well,I returned to work this week and it has been awful.I feel like crap and have not been able to complete an entire shift.I have lost over 30lbs at 5 weeks post -op but to be very honest I felt better @ 263 than @229.Two days before my surgery I worked 13 hrs.,cleaned the tiles thru-out the house and made dinner....and watched late night TV...No problem.Now ,I am lucky to make it longer than 5 hrs at work and then sleeping the rest of the day.

I realize that I am not where I should be as far as the diet goes.I feel like I still only eat popsicles(because they stay down) and water diet drinks.Protien drinks too.Tried some fruit,no go.I feel so weak...I am sure the food has something to do with it.

I feel like I am running @ 20%.With ever week I am feeling more depressed.So tired and crying for no reason...on the surface anyway.I want to call my Dr and ask for a reduced work sched untill things improve but I am afraid because of his past comments about his "super patients" who return at two weeks post op.

I spoke to my HR at work and they said I could take up to three months witha DR.s note stating I needed a reduced work sched.I just don't think My Dr.will give the ok.Why would it bother him?They just make me feel like a reject WLS person.

I am in an eating ,energy,and emotional...rut.

Puffy eyed in Florida......

Vanessa

katlover66 · 04-28-2005, 02:04 PM

You may have returned to work too soon. Usually 6 weeks is the normal. If you have a taxing job it may take longer for you to get back into it. You had major surgery and it takes time to heal.

Blueyz · 04-28-2005, 02:06 PM

Vanessa,

Hi there...sorry you are feeling this way, but if it helps I was the same way. It took me a long time to get my strength and energy back. I know it is very hard in the beginning, but it will get better. Maybe a work schedule with reduced hours will help. Just tell your doctor how you are feeling...hopefully it will work. I thought I would never have energy again, but sure enough it came back. I am sending hugs to Florida!

VanessaSFL · 04-28-2005, 02:13 PM

I never thought I was an "emotional "eater....well bingo...I can't turn to food now!I may actualy have to verbalize my feelings....I am still not "hungry" but I feel literaly CRAZY...my emotions are out of control.I have been crying for over an hour...the desk was wet when I returned from the restroom.

Need to get a grip....

vanessa

LizardQueen · 04-28-2005, 02:38 PM

i went back at 6 weeks and felt the same way (still do but not quite as bad). have you thought about asking your primary doc instead? My surgeon forced me to keep working and I'm still not at 100%. It does get a little better each week. I'll keep you in my thougths and prayers! Best of Luck to You!!!

Amber

twokids · 04-28-2005, 02:43 PM

I am now 7 months post op and felt the same way you are feeling. I was always tired, couldn't keep up with the housework and my job and the kids. I felt if I could eat a cheesburger it would be better. (but I didn't) And it did get better.

I found at the two month mark things really started changing. I think my body was starting to adjust to the shock. Now I am mowing my yard with a push mower without a 1/2 hour break to catch my breath. I am playing, and running, with the kids every night.

I know it is hard for you to keep going, but it does get better. Don't try to push yourself too much, your body will let you know when it is ready! And the emotions will even out, too!

Jeanie · 04-28-2005, 02:48 PM

Honestly I didn't get rid of the tired feeling till I was about three months out. It does go away it just takes awhile. When I went back to work I didn't work the full 8 hours. My boss is very understanding (best boss I've ever had), and she suggested that I only work a few hours a day for as long as I wanted. I did that for a week, but needed money so I started working more. If your doctor won't give you the note go to your PCP, and have them do it for you.
I hope that you start feeling better soon. Since you now can't eat to make yourself feel better try writting how you feel down on paper, maybe that will help you to help yourself. Just a suggestion!

watergirl · 04-28-2005, 02:52 PM

Remember, you just had major surgery. It took me quite awhile to feel 100% energy level. It was about three months for me as I recall. Be sure you walk, every day, at least 30 minutes. It doesn't have to be marathon speed, just slow and easy.

Be easy on yourself and slow it down if that is what your body is telling you.

It will pass, I promise.

bridgetgirl · 04-28-2005, 02:53 PM

My gosh I felt so lousy, until about that 2nd month mark. Just know your not alone sugar pea and that you will get through this.

I was so bad I had my friends help me do laundry and clean my apartment and do dishes, I was miserable!

It will be over in no time lil lady!