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janine · 11-02-2007, 08:58 PM

I'm so emotional today! I just can't stop crying over nothing at all...
I feel so well... ugly... like everything is bothering me... my mail order antidepressents were mailed to the wrong address and now I need them more then ever, the doc office said they'll be here in a day or two. I had hoped to do better with my emotions but here I am a basket case again. I'm on the downward spiral. my water intake is lower today but I'm trying hard to get it in before I get to bed. I haven't had this problem before today so this is something new. At least my dh and son both know I'm emotional and have been trying their best to help but I'm still crying. so, I'm going to go to my room and try to just chill, maybe take a long shower and drink something warm afterwards. I hate when I get like this!!!

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Toony · 11-02-2007, 09:08 PM

Janine... You need to get your water in with all the crying you're doing

Just kidding hon... I remember the extreme crying jags I had after my achilles tendon surgery... I knew they didn't make sense and that there was no reason for the tears, but i could not stop... it was a horrible time!!! Things will get better... try to get your water in, sleep extra, and just relax... Supportive HUGS!!!

katie

janine · 11-02-2007, 09:10 PM

thanks katie,
from one min. to the next.. I'm up, I'm down, yo-yo all day, but mostly down. I just want to crawl somewhere and not be known to the world. if that makes any sence at all. I'm just not right!

Midntsgirl · 11-02-2007, 09:15 PM

If anyone knows how you're feeling right now, it's me. I've been on an emotional rollar coaster myself for the last week...just rest assured that this too shall pass. God does not give us more than we can handle. Just trust in Him.
Hugs!!

sdgrrl · 11-02-2007, 09:54 PM

There seems to be a lot of bogus $hit going on lately. I have found out some stuff about dear friends that blew me away--broadsided me unbelievably. Some dear friends that "everyone" thought had a perfect marriage just blew up and are divorced. Others have reported terrible joint and muscle pains, poor sleep, inability to concentrate, hypervigilant,you name it. Between the fires and the evacuations, the weather changing, my lord it feels so HARD! Folks are floundering and hurting all around us...I feel so inadequate in my abilities to help or make things any better. Lots of other feelings too, but too many hard ones to talk about. I'm right with you, Dear.

janine · 11-02-2007, 11:08 PM

Donna,
As I read your post it seems to trivialize my plight.

Your are so right! Here I sit in Tucson, <no fires, smoke or evacuations here>. I'm not in a desperate situation that many are. When devistating times hit marriage foundations are put to the test. Emotional distruption cause havic on the mind, body and spirit. I could have it much worse and I count my blessings and it only makes me cry more.

I do hope the tragidy turns around soon... But I can only assume that it will be a long time before healing can felt. So much bad going on but there are so many good people doing good things for others.

Jeri · 11-03-2007, 04:28 AM

{{{{{{JANINE}}}}}}} I sure hope you start feeling better soon. I hope you get your meds soon. How awful to be without them right now.

sdgrrl · 11-03-2007, 04:52 AM

Oh Janine! I'm so sorry you felt as if I was trivializing your situation! Nothing could be further from the truth. I guess I was attempting to validate that it is a seriously assinine world out there and didn't want you to feel like you were out there alone, blowing in the wind.

It never pays to compare the legitimacy of our troubles. What one of us thinks is insurmountable is another's no brainer. If I've broken an arm, and you've broken a leg, who has more pain? All we can do is stand up beside each other and say to the world, "I am doing the best that I can, and I will not be diminished by this crap in my life." Believe me, Janine, I would never poohpooh anyone's life situation. What gets to me more than anything is how unneccessary so much of our pain is. Our world seems to be hellbent on valuing greed, meanness, and craziness beyond belief. As I said before, I stand there with you, meaning I understand and empathize with you.

sdgrrl · 11-03-2007, 05:17 AM

Oh Janine! I'm so sorry you felt as if I was trivializing your situation! Nothing could be further from the truth. I guess I was attempting to validate that it is a seriously assinine world out there and didn't want you to feel like you were out there alone, blowing in the wind.

It never pays to compare the legitimacy of our troubles. What one of us thinks is insurmountable is another's no brainer. If I've broken an arm, and you've broken a leg, who has more pain? All we can do is stand up beside each other and say to the world, "I am doing the best that I can, and I will not be diminished by this crap in my life." Believe me, Janine, I would never poohpooh anyone's life situation. What gets to me more than anything is how unneccessary so much of our pain is. Our world seems to be hellbent on valuing greed, meanness, and craziness beyond belief. As I said before, I stand there with you, meaning I understand and empathize with you.

LisaM · 11-03-2007, 05:41 AM

Janine,

We're also flooded with hormones as soon as our fat cells start to shrink post-op. It's like having the world's worst case of PMS. That part of it will level out after a few weeks, but it's a rough ride through those particular rapids. I cried early and often, many of us did. It does fade, I promise.