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Midntsgirl · 02-26-2005, 10:32 PM

I am almost 9 months out and I have a confession to make. I have been eating sweets (candy, cake, etc.) ALOT lately! I started my weight loss journey with the mind set that eating candy or whatever will make me violently ill. But...I blew that out of the water!! After Trick or Treating last Halloween, while I was checking my kids' candy, I ate a piece. I didn't get sick. So, a few days later, I ate two pieces. Still didn't get sick. "Uh oh", I thought, "I'm not getting sick." Fast forward to Valentine's Day. I didn't have a whole lot of money, but wanted to get my kids something, so I bought some cake mix and made them a cake, frosted it and covered it with red Skittles. (What did I do with all the other colors?? I ate them.

) After we, ok mostly me, finished that cake, I went and bought another cake mix. I made a carrot cake and have since managed to eat almost the whole thing. (Keep in mind it...I don't sit down with the cake pan in front of me and eat. It's one small piece here, one small piece there. BUT STILL!!) I don't know what's wrong with me!! I mean I think it has alot to do with depression. Since it had been raining so much and I hadn't been working, I was just sitting at home...eating crap! I don't know why I am trying to sabatoge (sp?) my progress so far? What am I doing? Someone...ANYONE...please help!!!

Jeanie · 02-27-2005, 12:28 AM

Hey girl. I don't know how to tell you to stop, or give you some wonderfull answer as how to stop. All I can say is that I'm here for ya, so if you wanna snack call me instead. I'll talk to you on the phone. I was snacking a lot lately also, but now I pick up a book. Good luck. I'm sure when you go back to work things will get better for you. Hang in there!!!

watergirl · 02-27-2005, 09:20 AM

I'm so sorry to hear of your challenge. I don't know how to tell you to change your cravings, but I hope you find the way to stop the madness! It's easy for me to tell you stop buying them, but the hard part is being in the store and having the overwhelming feeling that you want the cake. I hope you're able to fight the good fight and resist and go shopping in the produce section instead!

I'm really proud of you to share this with us. I hope you can find the courage and strength to change this path you're on. Keep us posted!

JohnsWife4Life · 02-27-2005, 02:33 PM

Brenda,

I know right where you are at, last September when I was six months p/o I bought a cake fro my granddaughter's third birthday. I had every intention of eating that one small piece, yes I had good intentions, just a taste, then send it back up here with my daughter. She forgot to take it. My husband had a couple pieces and my son and I ate the rest over a three day period. It was 1/4 sheet I guess. I have a large family! I gained three pounds! I lost that as soon as the cake was gone. and went on to lose more. Yesterday, no matter how hard I tried, I could not go to sleep, I had worked all night, and had run up the stairs a few times. My first time in a long time. I think it gave me enogh energy to fight fatigue, that and the one hour nap I had in the car right after work. So I finally fall asleep at 1530. I usually leave for work between 1600-1700 hours. I let myself sleep til 17, so I didn't have time to stop and I grabbed what I could on my way out the door. A small 1/2 cup can of ravioli, a bag of popcorn, a packet of oatmeal, a large orange, and 3/4 of a hashbrown and cheese burrito from my local haunt, what I had left over from my trip home from work. I couldn't make any of those things, and by the time I got to work it was 1900 and I was hungry, but can't eat anytime soon at work, so there was the new box of seas candy again. (New dad's love to bring the nurses Seas candy). Sigh and oh yeah, I did it. I had 6 pieces of that candy from 19 - 04 hours, like two pieces every three hours, and that would set it off. I ate the ravioli, I ate a few bites of my hashbrown burrito, 2 crackers with my ravioli. Oh I forgot I did put 1/4 cup of cottage cheese in my bag. I ate that first after the first two pieces of candy, and the ravioli after the second set of two pieces. I popped the popcorn ( i never eat that stuff, lol) I shared with the other nurses, we each had at least 1 1/2 cups. I ate my large orange. Had a bag of lays potato chips, ( I shared a few) I never ate those even before surgery. I had apple juice, coffee with choc creamer, tea with choc creamer, on the way home I got a small blended iced mocha, then got a kids meal for Lei Lani, and her and I shared that this morning, and I had a bite of her oatmeal and a couple bites of her eggs, a piece of her bacon, that has been 4 hours. I ate all that from 7pm to 9am and called myself pig all night long! Sigh. 14 hours, non stop eating.

Good luck Brenda,

Traci

lealphachienne · 02-27-2005, 05:08 PM

It's all part of the process of relearning healthy habits. Once you start to get around goal/nearing a year, our bodies seems to loosen up a little. It takes more of whatever to get sick or to feel satisfied. Our bodies are amazing at adjusting to any changes.

The honeymoon's over and it's time to buckle down and just do what needs to be done. Each person has their own way of figuring it out. Our tool has gotten us quite far, but it still takes effort to keep that tool sharp and functioning it's best.

JohnsWife4Life · 02-27-2005, 09:06 PM

Yes, what an amazing tool we have. I don't want mine to get rusty.

Hugs,

Traci

JJ Girl · 02-28-2005, 06:58 AM

Food addictions are very cunning - they pop up when you least expect them. I have many years in Overeaters anonymous and compulsive eaters anonymous. And yes, I have lost weight but it always come back. If I eat sugar and simple carbs I crave them...... If I don't eat them I feel great and lose my cravings. It takes me about 3 days of no sugar or flour to lose my cravings and get my energy back. I know that even though I am approved for surgery, that my addiction will still be there if I am not vigilent. Good luck, I know how you feel.