Am I crazy????? - ThinnerTimes

lealphachienne · 02-06-2005, 12:05 PM

Okay, so after only 8 months, I'm almost at goal. It's been quite the crazy ride. Lately, I've been feeling out of sorts. I'm me, but not me, you know? In many ways, I feel like I'm starting my adult life all over again. I'm recapturing the past ten years and living like I'm in my 20's agian. I feel restless, like there's something more out there for me. I'm no longer content to stay same ole life. I want to chuck it all and start all over again somewhere else. New job, new home, new city, new everything. Okay, I'll bring my husband along too. I've been having crazy dreams about running free through the meadows, barefoot and unconcerned about life and just living in the moment. I'm ready to quit my job, even change careers and do something totally different. Go back and get an advanced degree. Muck stalls at the local stables, be outdoors all the time, study the mating habits of grasshoppers....something totally out of the ordinary. I don't feel ordinary, I'm craving wild and exotic things...move to Africa and teach in the jungles while eating slimy bugs. The same things I use to think about when I grow up, when I was 15 and idealistic. Dancing on tables at the local club seems too tame a thing to do anymore.....

Blueyz · 02-06-2005, 12:09 PM

Marie~

No, you are not crazy!! You are just enjoying your new life!! I am so happy for you and your quick loss. I see that you are just melting away and I am happy for you. Go conquer the world my friend!!!

I, too feel like I am re-living my lost years and I am loving it!!!

watergirl · 02-06-2005, 03:59 PM

GO FOR IT!

bridgetgirl · 02-06-2005, 10:40 PM

but in a good way!

I feel the same way... but I feel sort of uncomfortable. Like I should be and could be doing more...... but then at the same time I afraid of being a failure.
I was actually thinking today, of doing something drastic like sending Isaiah off to my parents in PA, work a slave for a few months and then just move away..... I feel like this is something I should do, but then again I dont want to do anything drastic or unrealistic. I HATE this uncomforatable feeling of not knowing where I belong, not knowing what I should be doing, not knowing what is ultimately going to make me happy....... stay tuned at these are the days of our lives......

So 'Ree is everything going good with the hubby? Last we heard all went to hell in a hand basket.... is all good in the hood?

lealphachienne · 02-06-2005, 11:19 PM

We got over the big hump....now it's a matter of time to see what happens. He's on a suspended license now, so I need to drive him to the Coaster each day.

bridgetgirl · 02-07-2005, 01:07 AM

But are you happy, or just taking things one day at a time... feel free to IM me if ya want rather that post it here. I love you girl!

Christina · 02-07-2005, 08:52 AM

Our lives have changed so quickly and so drastically over the past few months. It is totally normal to want to broaden your horizons and experience new and exciting things. For so many years we have sat back and watched all the other people having the fun we should be having. Now it is OUR turn dang it. Live it up, you only get one life.. make the most of it I say. Leave this world without having regrets about what you could have or should have done. Do it!!!

I am so happy for you.. your dreams sound wonderful.. (except for eating the bugs.. lol)

Go for it girlfriend.. the world is yours..

Bigbaldbuddie · 02-07-2005, 09:30 AM

Don't let the door hit ya where the good split ya.

Maybe I should throw my self to wind and see where it takes me to???

brutherford · 02-07-2005, 10:32 AM

Good Lord, don't I know what you're talking about, Marie! Um, I went ahead and changed just about everything: job, marriage, home, etc. I feel like I finally changed all of the things that I've been wanting to change for years but was too afraid to. It's terrifying and yet incredibly liberating, all at the same time. I don't think there's anything wrong with it - as long as you surround yourself will people you trust who will tell you if you're moving too fast or getting a little out of line. The powerful feelings that come with life changes can be intoxicating, and the feelings can leave you a bit inebriated and not so level-headed sometimes. Ultimately, I know that I'm doing what I need to do, experimenting with things I've always wanted to, etc., so even if I make a mistake here and there it's all good, you know?

Run free, baby... it feels FANTASTIC!

lealphachienne · 02-07-2005, 04:02 PM

Bridget----

Hmmm, I'm not sure if I'm happy. A bit confused on where I should be at the moment.