Tonight's the night!!! - ThinnerTimes

12-26-2004, 09:28 AM

Well, the time is here!!!

I check in tonight. I am strangely calm. I am packing chap stick and stuff to read. Anyone suggest anything else I may need?

Well, I feel like I should be more nervous, but I have a real peace about this. I have gotten lots of prayer from the people who know. I have kept this rather quiet, as I did not want my wls to be the topic of conversation at every Christmas party. Only the very close friends and family know.

I'm still having feelings of failure, like why couln't I have been able to loose weight, without going to such an extreme. I remember when I told my 17 year old son I was thinking about this surgery, his reply was, "gee mom, is'nt that a bit exteme?"

I wish I had the answer, but the truth be told, I have lost the weight, over and over again. Anyway, I'm babbling. Do not really know who else to talk to.

On the other hand I am so darn excited!! My 20 year old son asked if I had a certain outfit picked out in my head that I can wear after I loose weight. I laughed because I so totally do!!

One last thought. My 16 year old daughter, has decided she just does not want to be around...period! So she's going to friends and family during that week. Her statement to me is that, "she is not emotionaly prepared to see me in pain, again." She says again because I have had many back and hip injuries and she is so close to me, she hurts to see me hurt. All the more reason to have the wls so I stop hurting myself. She knows that and supports me, but is honest and says, sorry mom, can't watch you, it just hurts her too much. I want to cry!! Not because she hurts my feelings, but because that same feeling of failure.

Enough of that. I am very long winded, I guess its because the time is here!! I plan on spending a quiet day with my family before checking in. I'll check the sight one more time before I go if any one has any pearls of wisdom for me!!

Thanks you all for listening and your replies!

Love ya
Rain

Gloria · 12-26-2004, 09:51 AM

Rain, just wanted to say I'm thinking about you and wishing you the best. I know all will be well.

I know what you're thinking as I feel the same way. I've told only a few people about wls. My buddy says she thinks I'm doing this in a very mature way and not looking for sympathy. This is just a means to get to where we should be.

Anyway good luck.

Blueyz · 12-26-2004, 11:19 AM

Rain,

Good luck with your surgery. I am sending positive thoughts your way. What a neat New Years present for you.

stellaspar · 12-26-2004, 02:38 PM

Rain,

Best wishes for a speedy recovery. I'll be thinking about you. You'll be going home the day I'm having my surgery.

Although you understand your daughters feelings, its still painful to endure, especially since you two are so close. I admire your strength. Hang in there...the best is yet to come.

Stella
12/29/04
lap?-Dr. Callery

TabFox · 12-26-2004, 06:43 PM

Thoughts and prayers are headed your way from Virginia! Get ready to ride the roller coaster. Looking back, the pain is such a teensy tiny part of the surgery. It's over in no time, and then the pounds just melt off. Remember to sip, walk, rest, sip, walk, rest.

Tabitha
Open 5/26/04
321/199/???

12-26-2004, 07:25 PM

Thank you everyone for all your sweet words. I know every one is so busy with the Holidays it means so much that you all reply to me. I am excited and nervous, but I am packed and ready to go.

Thank you all

rain

Butterfly · 12-26-2004, 08:58 PM

Rain ~
Good luck to you on a speedy recovery. Your first week will be one to remember, however, the ride and fun are just beginning. You will soon be writing to us to tell us about that fun outfit you have picked out for when the weight starts coming off. Your co-morbidities will lessen and you will feel awesome! Your daughter may want to reconsider staying away from you this coming week. If you two are that close, it will help in your recovery. The most pain you'll be in will probably be while you're in the hospital. The time you get home, you will need a little help moving around, but the pain is bearable.

Keep smiling because it's going to get better!

My prayers are with you and your family during your surgery and recovery time.

Let us know when you get back home.

watergirl · 12-28-2004, 08:34 AM

You've been in my thoughts and prayers during the Holidays. I'm anxiously awaiting word from you that everything is fine and that you are home and doing as expected. Remember to sip, walk, rest, repeat!

HapBird · 12-28-2004, 10:15 PM

Glad to hear you felt serene on going in for the surgery - I had that experience also - and was immensely surprised, since I figured I'd be pretty wound up.

But I felt incredibly supported by family and friends, and was carried on the wings of their concern and their prayers so I wound up feeling amazingly calm right up to the time I got on the operating table (last thing I remember!)

I've had job interviews that made me more nervous!

Let us know how you're doing......