Anjali

Dear Diary

So its been 8 weeks since iv had the surgery and i can see a difference already, but although i know its working im just feeling the same. emotionally drained about being myself, feeling like im trapped in this body. Im 21 so iv heard 21 years worth of comments about my weight im 5ft 8 inches and was 20 stone im no 15 stones and still going down but when youv lived like this all your life its like im trapped in a zone. i still feel so insecure and like im not worthy, i have lots of friends but all of them are size 0 - 12 and it gets to me so much they eat and do as they please but i cant. I know i got myself in this situation and need to stop feeling sorry for myself and im trying my hardest but i just have these points where i just hate it!

This is me