almost 1 yr post-op and feeling failure coming on - ThinnerTimes

momronda2k · 11-06-2006, 05:10 PM

This is going to be super hard for me to write, but lately I have been feeling like a failure. I have been "testing" myself on what I can eat. Like halloween candy, I tested how much I could eat and "snuck" every piece I ate making me feel even worse. I have a lot going on right now. In July I left my very secure corporate job, to start my own business. It is not bringing in nearly as much as I had anticipated, in fact I have completely cut out my pay, just to pay the business bills with that I am bringing in on it. I feel like I should give up, but my husband is super supportive and believes in me and the business so I will keep going. I have no drive. As soon as he leaves in the morning, I feel like doing nothing but sleeping, and eating and feeling guilty about it all. All day I sit here feeling like a failure. I know it is all in my head and I have total control over this, but during the day I don't feel like that. I go to bed with 100% confidence that "tomorrow" it will be different, but when I wake up, it is not different. It is the same day after day. Well, that is my rant... sorry to bring this to you all, but I really have noone else to talk to. I don't feel like I can talk to my husband about this, because in his eyes I am his hero and rock, and right now I don't feel like that. I am going to start going to the NC support group meetings at Rain's house, to get some moral support from fellow bypassers.

crazylittlelamb · 11-06-2006, 05:17 PM

I agree that you should definately come to the support group. There seem to be many wise and caring women in North County. See you on the 13th.

MiladyB · 11-06-2006, 05:31 PM

You have taken the first step; admitting that you are struggling. You are about to take the second most important step; getting into a support group. I think one of the most important things you can do for yourself is to make yourself accountable to someone. A support group is a great place, a safe place. Start a food journal again. Bring it to support group. They are there to help you. If you can, get yourself to a therapist who specializes in patients who have undergone weight loss surgery. They want to help you and don't want to see you fail.

Please, don't look at this as a failure. It isn't in my eyes. It is a recognition of a struggle and that you need some help. That isn't a failure!! That is a positive step in the right direction! You can take control of this. I know you can!

rainrain · 11-06-2006, 06:00 PM

momronda, can't wait to see you!!

We are having the meeting Monday instead of Tuesday, just this month due to my work.
Please feel free to come and if you need directions, please p.m., me.
You can not be a failure. You can be having a set back, or perhaps you need a lil' push in the right directions...but...never a failure!!
Rain