Not such a good day :( - ThinnerTimes

AlabamaChick · 10-05-2006, 09:14 AM

I have not really felt like posting very much the last week or so because I have been going through major financial issues at home and just have not had the heart to "shine" as bright as I usually do. I am usually a very optimistic person and never give up, but the past week all I have wanted to do is crawl in the bed and sleep my problems away. I know it's a form of depression, but I'm just so drained and feel I can't go on some days. I'm so tired of the fight. When I get through one major crisis I feel that another twice the size takes its place. I know that life is not easy and I have struggled alot, but dang......can I PLEASE get a break here?!?!?!?!

I say all of this because, as most of you know I am a self-employed, divorced, mother of two and I do medical transcription. I have had this wonderful opportunity to work side-by-side with a friend that I met through another job and do medical transcription independently through my super morbidly obese years when I could not have possibly did a job outside of my home due to health issues from being so overweight. We type for big hospitals and clinics in New York that are very well known across the U.S. The benefits from this work has been tremendous in the fact that I set my own hours and my own salary as to how much I want or NEED to make each week to meet my obligations. The work has always been there. And has frankly been a gravy job, even though time consuming. I have been blessed to have wonderful drs. that are very easy to do. Well, I found out last night that one of my surgeons that is almost half of my income a week is going into private practice and leaving the hospital he is at. So.......I am losing that work. He will employ his own in-house transcriptionist. I enjoy typing this dr. more than ANY I have ever done. Well, as if that was not a big enough blow.........my friend calls me this morning and she has spoken to the company through which we receive all of our work and the hospitals and clinics that we get our work from have decided that they are going to ship our work to India!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because India does not cost as much, even though the work is crap when they get it back, that does not matter. They are looking at the almighty dollar. We have done their transcription for years and noticed that their work load has slowed down so call to see what is up and find out they were going to just stop sending the work without even a word to us!!! (This affects tons more people than just us two, as there are alot of other people doing the same as we are) Well, we are both devastated because we are both the bread winners in our homes. She has two children also. I know there are options for me to get more work, as far as going to work for one of these online companies that will let me continue to work from home, but it's the "what if" or "when" I am so worried about. I know they are alot stricter with rules, times lines, days off, etc. I never had to worry about being accounted for at any certain time as long as I met my deadlines. I could work in the middle of the night or in the middle of the day, or BOTH if I wanted, as long as the work was done. This has worked best for me being a single mom and never knowing from one minute to the next when I would have to do something with or for one of my children or having health issues myself and not be able to work at a certain time due to this and just make it up later. And can I even be as productive and make as much not having specific drs. all the time? I am probably being ridiculous about all of this, and now realize just how spoiled I have been being that I am self-employed, but all the same, my family has major changes we are about to go through now and hopefully I can get started with a company soon enough to not miss any pay, as we live now from week to week. This has become the #1 stressor in my life and worrying about how my kids can suffer again because of me not being able to take care of them as well as I would like. I know they need to learn that life is not always easy either, but these kids have gone through SO much since my divorce and done without so much because I have had to do it all on my own. I just hurt inside thinking that they are going to have to suffer yet again and it's getting to the point where it's a weekly thing instead of an every-now-and-then thing. I need all of my staple friend's help to get over the top of this mountain ahead of me. Please remember us on your prayer list. It helps to know I have friends sending up prayers on our behalf. I call 'em special deliveries because they are special delivered for someone. If I disappear for a few days at a time Michelle, don't get worried, I will still be here, just doing what I have to do to get things back in order. I promise I will be back to my bubbly self when I get this whole mess sorted out. Thanks gang for letting me vent this frustration. It always helps to talk to you guys. You are all so special!!!! ((((GROUP HUG)))).

P.S. If any of you know of a good company out there hiring or have any ideas, PLEASE let me know.

coptergirl · 10-05-2006, 09:19 AM

Trina - I am sorry you are going through this stress!!! I know how you feel being in a low payng job myself and living week to week, and trying to start a home based business so I can eventually work form home full time. KNow that you will be in my prayers (((HUGS))) to you, love!

cassie7978 · 10-05-2006, 09:32 AM

You and your family are in my prayers And I also pray many good things will come your way....

Cinerbelle · 10-05-2006, 09:39 AM

I am sooo sorry you have to go through this. This kind of stress hurts deep. I'm sending you all my good vibes!!

Bypassingme619 · 10-05-2006, 10:07 AM

Trina I highly believe when one door closes another will open. I believe God will send you a great blessing. It may not happen when you need or want it to but it will happen. Try not to stress to much about it. Hopefully soon you will be on here posting how something big has happen and how you can't believe how good everything turned out. Big Hugs back to you sweety.