The waiting is finally starting to wear on me - ThinnerTimes

Baron Patrick · 10-04-2006, 04:51 PM

Yep, the “poster boy of patience” is finally starting to crack.

Saturday was a bad day for me. ½ of a large Costco “everything” pizza and a 2 liter bottle of soda (at least it was diet) later and I felt, well, full, fat and miserable. All I’ve wanted to do all week is just eat. Last night was almost as bad, I had what amounted to a Dagwood sandwich. It was just automatic, I was doing it without thinking. Then, late that night, the heartburn came on with a vengeance. Needless to say, I’ve been in a real mood today. Just to add to it, I’ve been getting tension headaches in the evening. I reinstated my gym membership so I may go there and just sit in the spa – see if that will help relax me.

I see the cardiologist on Friday afternoon. My doctor called asking if I’ve made the appointment – apparently my surgeon’s office called to find out if I did it yet.

They seem to be getting just as ansy as me. At least I know they're staying on top of my file.

It looks like my surgery date is only a matter of a few weeks now. Once I get the okay from the cardio doc, and MAKES SURE HE FAX’S it to my doc’s, I’m free and clear. I'll feel a whole lot better when I can tell everyone I'll be an October loser as well.

Most of you know I’ve been working towards this going on 18 months, and now it’s down to a matter of weeks. I feel like I’m ready to burst … fall apart … just lose it. I’d hate to see what I’d be like if not for my anti-depressants (I’m sure it wouldn’t be a pretty sight.)

Anyway, had to rant. You’re the only people/friends who truly understand how this feels.

Gladitsme · 10-04-2006, 04:56 PM

You are soooooo normal! Hang in there Baron P. You're going to get thru this with flying colors!

Blueyz · 10-04-2006, 05:30 PM

You are so close to being there and this is normal. Don't worry...I know easier said than done. You have had such a long waiting time and since it is coming down to the wire, it is time to FREAK OUT!! Go for it. Scream to the world that it is almost your turn. I would never have been able to be as patient as you have been. What a true inspiration you are to those who think that it will never happen. Just hang in there and vent away.

Always,
Dale

saraczek · 10-04-2006, 06:19 PM

Baron...I too am awaitinga date in late October. Maybe we'll end up sharing a re-birthdate. Kepp your head up...remember you and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now...we're almost there. in a few weeks we'll be able to join our peeps on the losers bench. Stay positive, we're all here for you.

sdgrrl · 10-04-2006, 06:44 PM

I'm so sorry you are dealing with human's stupidity and inability to do their job.
Here's another example--
I saw Dr. Potts and he wanted labs drawn and an Upper GI/SBFT, as he suspected I had either a hernia or a partial small bowel construction. Got the labs drawn the next day. Didn't hear a word on the UGI, then we all know what happened. When I got back home I tried to call my PCP to get them on the stick for ordering the UGI. My PCP had moved to a new office, and the old office didn't know her new number, and also had not forwarded the request for the UGI. If everyone had done their job even half assed, I may have avoided horrid pain and all that other great stuff.

PEOPLE ARE MORE STUPID THAN THEY ARE SMART AND MORE LAZY THAN HARD WORKING. When you find someone who DOES know what they're doing, get their name and make them your official GO-TO person. I did it with my back surgeon's office. There was a lot of disconnect, but one person always seemed to be on the ball. I made sure I asked for her whenever I needed something from the doc. It always got done. I also got to meet a dear friend and learned about life changing surgery.....right BRIDGET???

I love you, Sweetie! And I love you too, Pat! It will be okay! What hospital will you be at? I'll come see you and make you laugh your gas away.....

MILA · 10-05-2006, 03:18 PM

I think you must have the record for patience and determination. Good for you man. You know it is essential that you get the surgery, so hang in there just awhile longer, shrung off the bullshit the office dopes throw at you, and before you know it you will be walking that hospital floor in recovery.

Good luck.

sdgrrl · 10-05-2006, 08:47 PM

Mila, I am right with you. Pat is King of Patience. I wouldn't have been able to undergo all the BS you have sliced your way through, Pat. You totally rock!

Ann8615 · 10-05-2006, 09:25 PM

I'm right there with you buddy! Saw Dr. Callery's nurse today, they postponed me for a week, til Oct. 27th due to Dr.s business trip.. They told me that as your date approaches you may find yourself getting more emotional, anxious, second guessing the surgery.

It's normal. NORMAL - who care's?! I don't need to know that what we're going through is normal, just that we can get through it

Which, I know we can, we're STRONG PEOPLE, gosh darn it!

I've gained 4 lbs. & am freaking out about it, as they told us not to gain an ounce after our consultation. Give me a break....4 lbs. in 2 months during a highly emotional time? I was re-assured today that 4lbs. will probably not make a difference. Now, 20 lbs. definitely would have!

Keeping you in my thoughts,
ann

LisaBoston · 10-10-2006, 09:10 PM

It's probably the longest wait there is outside of the microwave. Wish I could snap the fingers and have a Oct date for you.

hang in there buddy....you deserve this so much!

Macy · 10-10-2006, 09:14 PM

Wow, can I relate! I completely feel for you, it feels like yesterday I was dong the same thing. You are almost there, hang on!!! I have always said that getting to the table is the hardest part. We are with you in spirit.