Hard Day - ThinnerTimes

AlabamaChick · 07-22-2006, 10:06 PM

Today has been extremely difficult for me. I think a depression is setting in and all I wanted to do was crawl in the bed and sleep my life away so I don't have to deal with this food issue any longer. I feel I am gonna lose it sometimes because I was so close to eating "real" food again and because of my ulcer I am back to full liquids for at least six weeks and maybe even double that time. That will be 4 1/2 months that I have had NOTHING to chew and swallow. I wonder some times if I can do this! It's like I'm staring the scariest monster in the face and have nowhere to run or hide. I feel like the medicine is helping because all of my abdominal pain has stopped and I don't have the burning under my left rib cage anymore either, but I do not even see the dr. again for six weeks to schedule another EGD so I know I have to endure it for that long. This is emotionally and psychologically taking a toll on me. My mom called today while I was so upset and crying and she lives over an hour away so it's hard for her to just get up and come over, but she called my sister and told her I was really down and having a hard time, so my sis called me and told me she wanted to make me dinner. I could of cried harder when she told me that, but she was serious. My sis is a cosmetologist and worked on her feet all day and when she got home she cooked "me" dinner. Her husband was working and her son is in Mexico with his dad, so she did this especially for me. She made me potato soup, pinto beans, and yams. She added things for extra flavor and sweetened the yams with agave nectar, which is a natural sweetener, and she put each one in her food processor and made it all into a liquid and strained it and drove over 30 mins. to my house to bring it to me and sat with me while I ate dinner. She told me before I ate that she prayed over it the whole time she cooked it that I could eat it and not dump from it. You guys, she really touched me doing this for me. I cried when she told me she prayed over it the whole time she cooked. I come from a very religious family. My dad, before he passed away, was a minister, and my brother is a minister now. I fully believe in the power of prayer and intervention. I'm really thankful I have a family that loves me so much and was there for me when I needed them the most or I don't know how I would have made it through today. Just thought I'd share with everyone. I feel so blessed even in the middle of all of this craziness.

Mavisavis · 07-22-2006, 10:18 PM

Trina,

Just remember that this is a VERY lifechanging and stressful event without the complications. Try and relax and give yourself time to adjust. Your hormones are also going crazy as you drop the weight. That is so sweet of your Mom and sister to be so supportive of you. Her meal actually sounds yummy.

Hang in there, it will definitely get better.

KatyCatz · 07-22-2006, 10:31 PM

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Originally Posted by AlabamaChick

Today has been extremely difficult for me. I think a depression is setting in and all I wanted to do was crawl in the bed and sleep my life away so I don't have to deal with this food issue any longer. I feel I am gonna lose it sometimes because I was so close to eating "real" food again and because of my ulcer I am back to full liquids for at least six weeks and maybe even double that time. That will be 4 1/2 months that I have had NOTHING to chew and swallow. I wonder some times if I can do this! It's like I'm staring the scariest monster in the face and have nowhere to run or hide. I feel like the medicine is helping because all of my abdominal pain has stopped and I don't have the burning under my left rib cage anymore either, but I do not even see the dr. again for six weeks to schedule another EGD so I know I have to endure it for that long. This is emotionally and psychologically taking a toll on me. My mom called today while I was so upset and crying and she lives over an hour away so it's hard for her to just get up and come over, but she called my sister and told her I was really down and having a hard time, so my sis called me and told me she wanted to make me dinner. I could of cried harder when she told me that, but she was serious. My sis is a cosmetologist and worked on her feet all day and when she got home she cooked "me" dinner. Her husband was working and her son is in Mexico with his dad, so she did this especially for me. She made me potato soup, pinto beans, and yams. She added things for extra flavor and sweetened the yams with agave nectar, which is a natural sweetener, and she put each one in her food processor and made it all into a liquid and strained it and drove over 30 mins. to my house to bring it to me and sat with me while I ate dinner. She told me before I ate that she prayed over it the whole time she cooked it that I could eat it and not dump from it. You guys, she really touched me doing this for me. I cried when she told me she prayed over it the whole time she cooked. I come from a very religious family. My dad, before he passed away, was a minister, and my brother is a minister now. I fully believe in the power of prayer and intervention. I'm really thankful I have a family that loves me so much and was there for me when I needed them the most or I don't know how I would have made it through today. Just thought I'd share with everyone. I feel so blessed even in the middle of all of this craziness.

Trina! You are so blessed to have such a loving family! I really enjoyed your post. I could'nt sleep and came on here to read more about my surgery post op do's & don'ts..... which is coming up fast!! I had my last nutrition class to day with my good buddy Mindycure, and we both sorta freaked over the food we could not eat... and replacing it with clear broths, jello etc....Everyones pouch seems to have its own character...pouty pouches..some hate this, some hate that..once we learn what our "pouchys" like then i think it will be smooth sailing. Stay focused...pray often ...try to relax with soft music...healing takes time..but we heal faster when we are relaxed ....paint your toe nails some wild fun color.....sort thru old photographs..turn to nature;...feed the birds some bread or cracker crumbs ( becasue we cant eat it, may as well share it ,right, haha)...sit outside under a tree, if you can't walk in a park, do anything to focus on

..rather than your pain and the changes going on. We are so blessed by the simple things going on around us. I know it's easier said than done, but I just wanted you to know, I'm here and so are many others, that are also praying for your speedy recovery!!

Gina in NY · 07-23-2006, 05:10 AM

Your family sounds like mine - aren't we blessed?

I know you've thought of this, but thank heavens you have a problem that will be cured. You don't have some terminal type of thing that will never get better, you know you will recover.

So in the mean time, it is one day at a time, one meal at a time. The Lord does not give us more than we can bear without giving us the strength and a way to bear it.

Six weeks seems like such a long time but how many years of health will you enjoy because of them? You are going to have to work to stay "up" every single day, I am sure, but you can do it. Call friends, get out of the house, listen to all the great ideas suggested by Katycatz above. And if you have a bad day, it will turn around the day after. As you said, you have many blessings.

We are here, thinking of you and wishing you all the best!

A new Me Awaits · 07-23-2006, 10:17 AM

that was super sweet of your sister to take the time and prepare you food that you can eat.

you are lucky to have that kind of family support.

It may seem sad now but your going to get to the other side of eating soon. keep your spirits up. your ulcer will be gone soon and you will get to enjoy eating again. when your feeling low just dream about how your going to be the size you dream of..

wearing the clothes that you havent worn before.

and how HOT you are going to look! and since your religous I dont think there would be anything wrong with your saying a prayer to god for comfort. I will keep you in my prayers as well.

AlabamaChick · 07-23-2006, 10:24 AM

Thank you for all of your words of encouragement. Katy I actually took your advice and went outside to enjoy my roses today. It's amazing how perfect a flower can be. They are just beautiful when they are little buds about to spring to life and blossom. I also sat on my porch and just listened to the birds chirp and sing. Funny how we take such a wonderful sound for granted in our busy lives. You guys are great, thanks for the support when I need you.

LyndasRoom · 07-23-2006, 10:59 AM

I think you already know it, you are lucky to have such a supportive sister. Everry day gets better.

Bypassingme619 · 07-23-2006, 11:22 AM

Trina trust me a lot of us have been through a period of finding our selves in this process. I am still trying to find who I am underneath it all. Don't take what you are going through as a bad thing but a healing and a learning process for the feature. You have a lot of love around you and that should be motivation in it self to get you to fight the good fight and see it through. Are you getting all your vitamins and protein in? Make sure you are keeping up with those.

coptergirl · 07-23-2006, 12:16 PM

I am sorry toread that you're going through this right now. Thanks God for your wonderful and supportive family!!! Hang in there, sweetie - I will be praying for you too...

Domus · 07-23-2006, 01:49 PM

What a wonderful sister!! Sometimes it's the simplest things that people do for us that mean so much.