Just venting... - ThinnerTimes

bamagirl · 07-19-2006, 02:13 AM

It's 4 a.m....I hate it when I can't sleep! So I'm going to do a little "unloading" while I listen to my husband snore. It's been seven months now since my GBS, and I still don't feel normal. Most of the time I'm glad that I had it done, but with all of the complications I've experienced, it's really hard not to feel depressed and frustrated. I wish I could get through ONE week feeling good. Does this ever end? At first I heard that everything gets much better after the first couple of months, and then I heard that you feel super after six months. After being in the hospital recently for passing out, I was told by several nurses that I'll feel like a champ after one year. Ugh! Is the next time going to be a year and a half or two years???

I've been sooooo good and followed every rule. You would think that it would make a difference, and I'd be one of those lucky people who breeze through the whole process.

I have many things to be thankful for, and I try to constantly remind myself of these so that I'll feel better. I'm almost at my goal, I am no longer borderline diabetic, my PCOS is dormant, and I'm actually ovulating every month. BUT my hair is still falling out and I'll need a wig soon, I always seem to be either throwing up or have diarrhea, I have NO energy, I can't go out of town for even a weekend without it kicking my butt, (I have to spend two days recovering every time I go anywhere), and I still have serious complications almost monthly. It's exhausting.

Okay, I'll stop now. I feel bad even posting this, but I just needed to vent for a few minutes. My poor husband has to put up with it all the time! I feel bad for him too...I know it must get tiring to have a wife in and out of the hospital 5 times in seven months, and when she's at home she never feels good. He could probably use his own forum for support.

Sigh.......

Bypassingme619 · 07-19-2006, 06:36 AM

Aww Bama I wish there was something I could say to make it all better but hopefully this is something that will pass soon enough. Has your doctor run labs and done a full work-up on you to make sure all your labs are all in order? Sometimes there are things going on in our bodies we would have no clue about other wise unless our doctors took it apoun them selves to evaluate areas that we would have never thought of. It is good to know you have a great husband on your team, give him big hugs and kisses for being your suppor when you need it most. Big hugs to you from me

. I hope you are feeling better real soooon.

Mavisavis · 07-19-2006, 02:02 PM

You know you can come here to whine. Besides, people need to read evryone's experiences....not just rosy reports and wow moments. I'm sorry you are still feeling so badly. I wish there was something I could do. Honestly, it seems to me that something more might be happening. I didn't think it took that long to feel better. I felt pretty good early out, but I know everyone is different. I hope it changes for you soon....or that you can get a problem pinpointed so something can be done.....ugh.

Gina in NY · 07-19-2006, 06:09 PM

Do you know why you have vomiting and diarhea all the time? Is that part of the problem/complications? I would think, having just had my first couple days of vomiting, that doing that alot would completely zap your energy. I know I was really down and depressed just after three meals that came back.

I'm so sorry to hear you've had so many complications! You just need some time to actually heal, sounds like. I'm sure you're in touch with your doctor a lot, but if you're losing all your nutrients, how could you feel normal?? Can you be more demanding?

Good luck dear - there is certainly an answer to your problem - finding it seems to be the problem, but it will come.

TabFox · 07-19-2006, 10:17 PM

I'm so very sorry that you're feeling bad. Some people are fortunate enough to feel like a million bucks after a month or two. Sometimes it takes longer. I did feel great at about 2 months, but I still had my bouts of hurling my guts up, and/or diarrhea. I'm 2+ yrs. out and threw up today (chicken sandwich didn't sit well). Have the doc do some lab work...and check your thyroid. Make sure you take your vitamins everyday. Deficiencies are nothing to play with. You could even be having a bit of depression which can make you feel physically bad. There are still days when I'm pissed that I had to have such major surgery to lose weight; why couldn't I be strong enough to put the damn fork down and lose weight with diet and exercise. Then I have to kick myself in the butt and realize that this is a medical illness. If I had diabetes or heart disease and needed surgery, I'd do it, so I shouldn't feel bad for having surgery to cure my obesity. Basically, we go though an emotional roller coaster along with the physical one. I really didn't start to feel "normal" until after a year. There are days when I still don't, but it does get better as time goes on.

bamagirl · 07-20-2006, 01:36 AM

Thank you, thank you, thank you for your wonderful responses. I love you all! I called my Bariatrician, who said that my lab work looks great. But I've had some suspicions for several months that my female hormones are WAY out of wack, so I'm going to go see my ob/gyn, and also schedule an appointment with an endocrinologist. I've wanted to do that for a while anyway, with my PCOS.
Thanks again for your support and encouragement. I don't know what I would have done without all of you and this wonderful forum!!!

(((((GROUP HUG!!!!!)))))

lealphachienne · 07-20-2006, 12:30 PM

It's been over two years and I often don't feel normal. I had no particular immediate problems with the bypass surgery. But then , suddenly, out of the blue I'm in the hospital with a busted blood vessel in my pouch. It's a reminder that we made a life changing decision and that you just never know how your body is going to react to such a major change. I would rather face all the problems as a result of surgery than having to wait until I'm 40 or 50 when the obesity related diseases start becoming a real problem and have irrevesrible effects, like cutting your toes off because of diabetes.

What it all boils down to, is that life is a struggle, not matter what. For some it's cancer, others, it's hurricanes, etc.....

So feel free to vent...we all need a moment to recollect our thoughts and move forward.

Dennis Radecky · 07-20-2006, 02:25 PM

Dear Bamagirl,

Not sure why all of the problems, but our doc always said look at what you are eating. Certain foods can cause diarreha and vomiting. Also, make sure you are taking your vitamins. This could be why you are not having a lot of energy. Have your doc check your levels. Finally, you might want to try Nioxin Shampoo. It is a bit pricey but helps with the hair loss.

Good Luck,

Dennis