Working towards less stress

I got a new job!! Woo hoo! Man, the last week was a killer with having a job interview (which I woke up late and had to rush to), then on my way in to work from that interview getting the phone call that I got the other job I'd been waiting to hear about, then giving notice at my current job (and having to face a huge guilt-trip from my boss), then having to cancel a bunch of interviews and some of those jobs I had been very excited about possibly getting...but I made a choice. I am going back to the old company I was at before this current job. Not sure exactly that this is the best thing for me (though the money should be nice), but I needed to just get rid of the stress of not being sure if I'd have a job at all by next month...Stupid budget crisis. I will now have a hell of a commute AGAIN, but at least now I'll be reimbursed for most of my daily mileage. Even with that load off my mind my stomach is still in knots every day, but I really, really hope that will go away after I get settled at the new job...and get my first paycheck at my new salary.

On the bright side, I lost a few more pounds and just barely slid into the NORMAL bmi range!!! Wow, I can hardly believe it. I'm just coming up on my one year surgery anniversary, and am just now finally medically certified "Normal" -- for whatever that means. Though I can't deny that it is kind of a rush.

One year ago I weighed over 300 pounds and my bmi labeled me "super morbidly obese". I now weigh 163 pounds and am "normal".

Think I'm just gonna sit here and stare at that sentence for awhile...

You know, something eli_far wrote made me think about the fact that I'm actually not really sure what my highest weight was. I didn't weigh myself for a couple of years when I was at my heaviest and most unhealthy. Somehow just managed to avoid ever going to the doctor or owning a scale. I know for awhile that I was bigger even than my highest known weight. I increased my walking activities and noticed that my pants got a little looser just before I saw the dietician for the first time and got my weight recorded at 338, which was what my surgeon used as my starting weight. So maybe I was actually 350-ish -- who knows? Now I weigh myself every single day, in the morning, naked, before my shower, but after going to the bathroom. Daily weighing and keeping my food diary are my accountability tools, and keep me as honest as I am. If I ever see the scale vary up by more than 2-3 pounds, I'll be aware and start to worry.

It was fun this morning to email a bunch of my old coworkers/friends and say, "I'm baaaaack!" In one email to someone I haven't seen since last Halloween I was like, "Hope to see you soon, but wonder if you'll even recognize me. I have changed a lot." In her response she said she couldn't wait to see the changes. Can't wait to see everyone's faces when they do see these "changes" -- should be FUN!