Milestones and changes

For the last few weeks, I've not spent much time here at Thinner Times. This makes me sad because I don't want to stop coming here. It is currently my only source of support groups and I've said from the beginning that I don't want to be one of those people who stops using their support group and then gains weight back. I have to admit, though, that when I do make a point to go to check in on the Forum that it just doesn't hold my attention lately. I have to find some way to re-commit myself back here before it's too late.

In other, much better!, news, I recently hit an awesome milestone in my weight loss. 175 was the same weight I weighed in my freshman year of college when I was in the best shape of my life. I was doing ArmyROTC physical training 5 mornings a week and going to taekwondo several evenings a week, on top of other exercise, too. I got my first degree black belt that October. Unfortunately, just after that time of my life is when my weight gain sloooowly started creeping in. But now! I weigh 173!!! Very happy about that!

My attention lately is largely devoted to trying to find a new job. The deadline for the end of this current job is mid-October. Since I've known about this job ending for awhile now. I've been sending out resumes here and there, but not spending as much time on job hunting as I should. But now I REALLY have to step it up because on Monday I found out that my best co-worker friend here gave her two weeks notice. She is leaving our team, which means I need to find a new job STAT!!! The last thing I want to have happen is for my boss to try to make me take on half of CC's caseload, plus my current caseload, plus the extra duty I'm doing for another short-handed team...PLUS trying to find a new job!!!! Not fair, yo! So I'm doubling my efforts in that regard. I even called the company that I left to come to work here a year and a half ago. When I left they had told me that I could always come back there someday. At the time, I was like, "yeah, right! Never!" but now...now I just need somewhere to get a paycheck from, as depressing as that sounds.

Honestly, I'm hoping to use this time as an opportunity to maybe find a new career path, or to at least evolve beyond the one subject area I'm currently working in. I just want to do something different, you know? I tend to LOVE change and hate stagnation. I figure that if fate/karma/whatever is forcing me out of this particular nest that the least I should do is fly to another tree. ...oh, lordy, I think that metaphor got away from me.

Anyway, to bring it all back to the subject of my weight loss, I have to admit that I'm wondering if things will be different at a new job where they never knew the "morbidly obese me." I'm also wondering if I have more courage now. You'd think I would know the answer to that, but I'm not sure yet. I've always been pretty brave in some areas and totally NOT in others, so I guess this is something that time will tell.

Sidebar: I think I'm the same clothing size as my mother now.

And finally, this past weekend I went on another coffee date with a guy from the online dating site. Will this guy finally be the one that I agree to a second date with?? We shall see!