And the wait begins........

Today was the last day of my pre-op appointments. I went to see the Dietician on Tuesday and learned nothing new. He didnt tell me anything that I already didnt know....however, it made me feel horrible for knowing what I should be doing, but not doing it.

I went and saw my PCP today. This particular doctor I have only seen one previous time. I had to choose a doctor in town seeing as I have been here for three years and have yet to do so. Anyway, went in and told them that I was pre-op for Lap Band. As soon as the doctor heard Lap Band he immediately starting telling me that he doesnt believe in the Lap Band and that I should look into Gastric Bypass before I make the decision........I just about pissed myself. How dare he try to talk me out of my decision....it is my choice. I have spent months researching and going to these pre-op appointments. All I wanted was the darn letter saying that I was medically stable enough to have surgery.....hello?!!

I called my Mom after the doctor's office and told her about what nerve he had. Unfortunately, she was on neither my side nor his. She began to tell me that she didnt believe in Lap Band either and that I was taking the "easy" way out. That if I wanted to lose weight all I had to do was exercise and eat better. I gave up trying to explain it to her. Infact, just about everyone I talk to says almost the same thing......but screw them, it is my decision, it is my life!!!

So now the waiting game starts. I have to wait for the phone call from the surgeon's office to schedule the Nutrition Seminar and then that same day, I will be given a surgery date. Not sure how that works......guess I should call. HAHA! I am truely beginning to think that this could really happen....that I could learn to love myself again, that I could be healthy, that I could be me......