I'm Feeling Numb Now - In Limbo

So this morning I get a call from AJ the registrar. The one who promised to call me the following week after they sent me home from the hospital. I said to him, you never called as promised. He replied, "I've been trying to contact you, I've called you about 4 times" Oh please! I couldn't be bothered to argue about that at all, it was not worth it. Anyway, he continued to say that he'd not got any thing to tell me that i'd be expecting to hear. Basically, he says my surgery is likely to be around November 30th or possibly 1st Dec. So I asked, so are you saying that they are not doing any surgery in November, oh yes he replied, but the surgery dates were already allocated before so you'll have to wait.

You know what I really could not be asked. It's obviously to me that they've missed me out again, he claimed that the head surgeon had wanted me to have a good clear month to get over the cold that I had. I reminded him that this is the time of year that I tend to get repeated colds and its the worse time for me. He acknowledge that. It all seems like excuses to me. What does some like me do, is this God will, maybe so. If it was not for the health issues, truely I would have given up. I was initially told that the waiting time would be 4 months, then it went onto 6 months, now it looks like I'll be waiting a year.

I need a little time to absorb this, give it a think. Now i've got to go and tell all my peeps on the October and November Staplers that I probably wont be joining them anytime soon. I feel like such a fraud.