Still A Wanna Be.

Here I am again folks. Still a 'wanna be'. As you know already I had was just getting over a cold the day I arrived for my surgery and was sent home. Well I was expecting to hear from the hospital this week as they had promised (Dr AJ), but not a 'dicky bird'. The only reason I didn't call him was the fact that have caught another cold again, its just that it's that time of the year, when the weather is so unpredictable, warm one minute and cold the next, this always as an impact on my health. I'm trying very hard to work on this cold again. I'm drinking a blend of garlic and and lemon juice with a tip of scotch bonnet. I can still hear a little wheeze on my chest. Bugger!

In additon, it could be that i've been going under an excessive amound of stress this month. We've had a situation in the family with one of the young ones (27) which has caused all of us sooooo much stress full of worry.

I'm now focused on getting this surgery done, because I think I mentioned before my husband is being made redundant - so it looks like i'm going to have to go back to work - and put my own business development on the back burner for a while. So its important for me to get well as soon as I can.

On another note, I've been having laser hair removal and have had 3 sessions so far. I'm really pleased with the results. Having PCOS does mean that they are likely to grow back in the future, however, i'm expecting a decrease in the symptoms of PCOS after surger (weightloss). That I hope will tackle the now excessive grey hair that is now on my neck and a couple on my face. How wicked is that, just when I find a solution to deal with this facil hair and started to notice a few grey hairs under my neck, they've now gone into a mass production. When I touch my face and neck though, it no longer feels rough and prickly. The remaining grey hairs seem softer to not brittle. lol my sister says to me one day whilst I was in the kitchen doing my thing "you not going to cut those grey hairs off your face"? I replied " yeah when I get round to it", you see these grey hairs don't bother me as much as the heavy black mass of hair that I had on my face and the black shadow that was there. I know that's hard for anyone to understand, being female it's still not nice but its a long way from where I was at.

If you've been reading my posts in the forums you'll see that as part of my preparation - I research the things that I'll need when I'm post op and I've got my little supply right here. My bag is packed and ready to go to the hospital too, including my puzzle book, a noval, and all the other stuff i'm suppose to need. I'm planning to have my husband bring in the Igloo with ice and a large bottle of water. I hate the taste of the water in the hospital and those awful looking jugs just put me off. They have disposable cups so that's ok.

We've also made a new space in the extension for my exercise bike (spinners), which I found very difficult to use when I got about 3 years ago for about £400, give or take a few pounds. I've got my dumb bells, and Pilates gym and a few other bits and pieces that I've got. My exercise regime when to the dogs these last few months. Basically, after been let down so much since June, I've just lost my motivation to exercise. I've been to water aerobics a few times, but now my swimming costum got all washed out and dyed in the wash, I don't really want to spend a lot of money on a new one, only to find that I've lost a good amount of weight and it don't fit. Same thing with trainers.

I had joined the October 2009 Staples now everyone has had their surgery, i not sure if there is anyone for tomorrow, 31st, I didn't look. I'm happy for them all, but it feels a bit like your family has all gone on holiday and left you behind. They are a great bunch of people. I now will attempt to meet some new guys in the Nov. thread, but right now, the question is, 'will I become a November stapler'?

Anyway, currently, I'm still a wanna be.