This is my blog diary of my weight loss journey.
The reason I named it "Driving Sideways" is after the Aimee Mann song, "Driving Sideways." I like all kinds of music but the lyrics in this song in particular always made me envision being in a car. "Thin Everleigh" driving and "Fat Everleigh" reclined in the passenger seat.
I've always felt like a thin person underneath the weight.. the thin Everleigh I was supposed to be. I allow my fat unhealthy Everleigh sit back and do nothing and continue to guide me wrong (while assuming no responsibility for where I end up.)
I'm trying to drop off Fat Everleigh at her destination and continue down the road with just the thin me driving the car and making decisions.
The reason I named it "Driving Sideways" is after the Aimee Mann song, "Driving Sideways." I like all kinds of music but the lyrics in this song in particular always made me envision being in a car. "Thin Everleigh" driving and "Fat Everleigh" reclined in the passenger seat.
I've always felt like a thin person underneath the weight.. the thin Everleigh I was supposed to be. I allow my fat unhealthy Everleigh sit back and do nothing and continue to guide me wrong (while assuming no responsibility for where I end up.)
I'm trying to drop off Fat Everleigh at her destination and continue down the road with just the thin me driving the car and making decisions.
Psycho Nut Job :) (originally posted 11-03-2009)
Posted 11-06-2009 at 12:37 AM by everleigh
I finally contacted my psych consult (Thursday) and left a message with the nutritionist so hopefully I can get that scheduled soon. I forgot a lot of people say on the boards that it can take a really long time for these pre-appointments to get set up. I hope I don't regret waiting a few weeks from the seminars to set these appointments up.
The counselor sounded really neat on the phone so I'm looking forward to the appointment. I got this massive attachment, however, in the confirmation email she sent. Ten pages of all things weight related. Normally I don't mind filling out forms but when it's all about your weight history it's depressing.
I'm still eating like I'm preparing for famine. Chips, soda, pizza, crap crap crap. Today I started looking online for outfit ideas for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Although there's a lot more these days for size 22/24, it doesn't make me feel any thinner.
I forgot to mention on here that the friend I told about LB, (let's call her "Lexie"), the only friend I've told about it (aside from my parents and dh knowing), has turned out to be more supportive than I thought.
I don't think she loves the idea of me getting it, but she's agreed to support me no matter what. I'm SO GLAD to have someone I can talk to about it that is a good friend. I have two other pretty close friends that I have not told and probably won't. I'm so glad to have a girl friend to talk to about it. DH will discuss but it's not the same as talking with the girls!
Actually, in talking with Lexie, she said she heard the gastric sleeve was a much better procedure. Funny, my gastroenterologist said the same thing. I figure I'll talk to the surgeon about it once I get my one on one consult but right now the reason I was not thinking the sleeve was because A.) It's too new.. not enough long term data B.) It's absolutely irreversible and C.) Since I want more children, I've been told the band is a better and safer choice.
But as I'm no expert, I could be wrong.
I'll keep you posted.
The counselor sounded really neat on the phone so I'm looking forward to the appointment. I got this massive attachment, however, in the confirmation email she sent. Ten pages of all things weight related. Normally I don't mind filling out forms but when it's all about your weight history it's depressing.
I'm still eating like I'm preparing for famine. Chips, soda, pizza, crap crap crap. Today I started looking online for outfit ideas for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Although there's a lot more these days for size 22/24, it doesn't make me feel any thinner.
I forgot to mention on here that the friend I told about LB, (let's call her "Lexie"), the only friend I've told about it (aside from my parents and dh knowing), has turned out to be more supportive than I thought.
I don't think she loves the idea of me getting it, but she's agreed to support me no matter what. I'm SO GLAD to have someone I can talk to about it that is a good friend. I have two other pretty close friends that I have not told and probably won't. I'm so glad to have a girl friend to talk to about it. DH will discuss but it's not the same as talking with the girls!
Actually, in talking with Lexie, she said she heard the gastric sleeve was a much better procedure. Funny, my gastroenterologist said the same thing. I figure I'll talk to the surgeon about it once I get my one on one consult but right now the reason I was not thinking the sleeve was because A.) It's too new.. not enough long term data B.) It's absolutely irreversible and C.) Since I want more children, I've been told the band is a better and safer choice.
But as I'm no expert, I could be wrong.
I'll keep you posted.
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