This is my blog diary of my weight loss journey.
The reason I named it "Driving Sideways" is after the Aimee Mann song, "Driving Sideways." I like all kinds of music but the lyrics in this song in particular always made me envision being in a car. "Thin Everleigh" driving and "Fat Everleigh" reclined in the passenger seat.
I've always felt like a thin person underneath the weight.. the thin Everleigh I was supposed to be. I allow my fat unhealthy Everleigh sit back and do nothing and continue to guide me wrong (while assuming no responsibility for where I end up.)
I'm trying to drop off Fat Everleigh at her destination and continue down the road with just the thin me driving the car and making decisions.
The reason I named it "Driving Sideways" is after the Aimee Mann song, "Driving Sideways." I like all kinds of music but the lyrics in this song in particular always made me envision being in a car. "Thin Everleigh" driving and "Fat Everleigh" reclined in the passenger seat.
I've always felt like a thin person underneath the weight.. the thin Everleigh I was supposed to be. I allow my fat unhealthy Everleigh sit back and do nothing and continue to guide me wrong (while assuming no responsibility for where I end up.)
I'm trying to drop off Fat Everleigh at her destination and continue down the road with just the thin me driving the car and making decisions.
To tell or not to tell
Posted 10-29-2009 at 02:14 AM by everleigh
I keep saying I'm going to get serious & set up my nut & psych appts but I still have not. I want to but then feel guilty because dh is still not working (he's not laid off either- it's a weird vortex of manipulation really c/o his co.)
Dh has said he doesn't mind me going in for the nut & psych but the conversation always ends up with him asking why we wouldn't tell his family about me getting LB. He's close to his family & as much as I love them too, I have come to the conclusion its better to keep it private, especially since its not happening for sure right now.
As I was getting ready for bed, I decided I'm calling to set up the appts for sure tomorrow. Then I started thinking about the actual surgery. If dh's job situation works out, & I get surgery, we're gonna have to tell his family. I have a toddler who I don't want hanging around the hospital (swine flu anyone?) I don't have any of my family close either. I'd be ok on my own a night or two in the hospital but the day of & day leaving we'd need help w/ dd. They will want to know why since we never ask. I don't know if I can give them the hernia excuse.
Originally that was my plan but now what if I have a complication & they have to watch dd again? If I claim its hernia surgery I would have to stick to the story or come out a liar. Ughhhh.
Its really just two members of dh's family who have big mouths (both men oddly.) I just don't know but I gotta figure it out.
Dh has said he doesn't mind me going in for the nut & psych but the conversation always ends up with him asking why we wouldn't tell his family about me getting LB. He's close to his family & as much as I love them too, I have come to the conclusion its better to keep it private, especially since its not happening for sure right now.
As I was getting ready for bed, I decided I'm calling to set up the appts for sure tomorrow. Then I started thinking about the actual surgery. If dh's job situation works out, & I get surgery, we're gonna have to tell his family. I have a toddler who I don't want hanging around the hospital (swine flu anyone?) I don't have any of my family close either. I'd be ok on my own a night or two in the hospital but the day of & day leaving we'd need help w/ dd. They will want to know why since we never ask. I don't know if I can give them the hernia excuse.
Originally that was my plan but now what if I have a complication & they have to watch dd again? If I claim its hernia surgery I would have to stick to the story or come out a liar. Ughhhh.
Its really just two members of dh's family who have big mouths (both men oddly.) I just don't know but I gotta figure it out.
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I was one who had weight loss surgery, gastric bypass, and chose to not tell anyone. I told me husband, children, and mother that's it. It was a decision I felt strongly about and I am now 1 year post op and would not change it for the world. There are too many uniformed people with negative impressions about the WLS and about us taking the easy way out, I just did not want to deal with it or have to explain myself. in my support group and seeing the LB patients, it is an over night and the pain and discomfot seems minimal, of course barring any undo complications which I have not heard about in support group. I have not regretted my deciscion one bit. It is private and personal and you should share it with those you willingly chose to, please do not let anyone pressure you to go against your will.
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Thanks Ivana! I love to hear from people who have made it to the post op side of things and have little regrets. I'm sticking to my guns and planning to protect my privacy!
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