T - iming
W - onder
O - ddities
TWO Months post-surgery.
TIMING: This past month brought an amazing trip to Martha’s Vineyard (see this post) and a one-ish month weigh in that was at first underwhelming (see this post) but was a great example of the pressure we put on ourselves and the scale (accurate or otherwise).. After the lovely encouraging words from the women here on Thinner Times, I prepared to join the gym and find a trainer only to have a great opportunity drop in my lap. I was an invited panel member to a 3-day workshop this past month and was paired with a woman to be her mentor on the workshop topic. As we sat and strategized, she mentioned she needed an accountability partner for both the work we were doing as well as some personal fitness goals. I agreed to do both with her and one of my fellow panel members said she formerly owned a personal training company prior to starting at our employer, and that she could offer us some sessions for free as well as do a body fat assessment. Never in my life did I think I would get excited by those words! So with that, she and I have met twice and developed an exercise plan that evolves past my former cardio only fumblings! What perfect timing!
WONDER: At this point I have lost 30% of my excess weight based on my goal weight. I am left with a sense of wonder at how much this weight loss has done for my confidence. I have always been a fairly confident individual but I think a portion of that was more of the fake-it-until-you-make-it variety. Now my friends have been calling me sassy and I am happy to own my sassiness. I work in a male-dominated, old boy network and it used to really weigh on me (pun, believe it or not, unintended) as I became accustomed to being marginalized because I was female and additionally marginalized because of my weight. I don’t know when this mental shift happened but my hesitation at speaking up or doing certain things just dropped away. I wonder where my sassiness will come out next?
ODDITIES: At 2 months out I don’t know where I expected to be but here I am. My recovery was luckily a thing of beauty. Minimal gas pain immediately after and no complications since surgery, unlike some of the super-hero Trish’s here on TT who have endured many trials and tribulations during their post-surgery recovery time (I salute you @Trish1967 and @Trish13!). But there are some odditites I’m getting used to. Like I have nausea every day. Every. Day. Talk about an incentive not to eat. Surgeon and PCP say this is acceptable only considering the other medical treatments I am undergoing because of the Africa situation so I suppose it is not really related to the WLS but when added to Oddity #2, it’s not great. Oddity #2 is that apparently cold water and I are not going to have the relationship we once had. At least for right now. I was a water drinking fiend and the not-drinking-with-meals is T.O.U.G.H. Adding more nausea from cold water to the nausea of oddity #1 means I have been avoiding water – not like me at all. Oddity #3 – some of the things I bought pre-surgery, thinking I would be using them all the time, are getting dusty from lack of use while other items I bought at the last minute are getting constant use. Unused: blender, mini bento lunch boxes, Worth their weight in gold: food scale, snack sized Ziploc bags, gummy bear molds. Other post-oppers – anything gathering dust or worth their weight in gold that surprised you?
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What's this vegetarian eating? cottage cheese, protein gummy bears, protein powders, Trader Joe’s meatless Italian sausage, egg whites with nutritional yeast, Dubliner Cheese
What I'm not eating? Jackfruit – nope, not jumping on that bandwagon. No matter what I try doing to it, not loving it enough to give up precious sleeve space.
What I wish I wasn't eating? The miraculous-never-ending-no-matter-how-many-shakes-I-make bucket of veggie protein mix. Vitamins, I’m looking at you Calcium Citrate.