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Yay! I'm only overweight now.

Jen581791

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So, 196.6 puts me at a BMI of 29.9, at the top end of the overweight category - whew! So glad to have finally gotten there. Honestly, I do now actually feel like I'm just overweight, not obese. I can shop at normal stores (size L or 12/14 tops, size 14 pants), I look pretty OK in the mirror, and I don't worry about all the crazy things that I used to. I feel good. I have more energy. It's great.
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Just for a little reality check, here are some current worries:

  • My hair is still falling out some. It seems to be tapering off, but we'll see. It's fine/thin to start with, and now it's thinned to the point where it's definitely noticeable to me. I take loads of biotin and make sure my protein is good every day, and that's about all I can do, I guess. If you're interested in the science behind hair loss, Chemistry Queen on YouTube has a pretty good video on it: https://youtu.be/gI6li4nBpws
  • The bat wings. My arms have gotten a lot smaller (they're looking very normal in sleeves), but the sag is real. I'm doing some arm exercises to try to help out, but I realize that this is definitely a skin issue. It's been getting better and then worse in spurts as I lose - one week it's tighter, the next week it's looser, so I guess my body is working hard at doing whatever it does to the extra skin when the fat goes away. I'm hoping it ends up OK looking. I don't know if I'm mentally ready for plastics.
  • The sharpei skin. The skin all over my body is just a little loose, like I'm a sharpei puppy. I think this will probably go away, but it's kind of weird. I don't think anyone else has noticed it. It doesn't seem to be getting worse - I think I'm genetically blessed with fairly elastic skin, since I've lost quite a bit and am not having bigger issues than this. I also tend to carry weight sort of all over, rather than in one focused spot, so that may help, as well. We'll see as I get closer to goal.
  • I've started to feel the beginnings of hunger recently - I haven't really felt that since surgery. This isn't a problem yet, and I'm still eating really tiny amounts, but I can see how that might become more of a boogeyman as time goes on.
  • The taste aversions. Well, it's been almost 6 months, and I still don't like the taste of pretty much anything but fruit and some veggies. This may not sound like a problem for a person trying to lose weight (duh! It doesn't taste good, so I don't eat much!), but it's kind of hard to navigate life disliking all food. Anything protein still tastes bad. I've gotten used to it, as in I force myself to eat things that don't taste good, so I don't really notice the taste as part of the eating experience anymore, but it all still tastes pretty not good. This is connected to my sense of smell - everything also smells bad. Bitter things smell horrible and I can't face eating them at all. I can handle weak black tea, and that's about the bitterest thing. This means all nuts and beans taste terrible, which stinks because as a vegetarian, those are some pretty good protein sources. Even peanut butter tastes evil - like I made a horrible face when I put a little bit on my tongue. I've eaten almonds when I've been out and about and other protein sources are unavailable (so convenient, a pack of almonds!), but I just have to make myself do it. The flip side of all this is that I think if I stay like this, I run a pretty minimal risk of gaining weight again: I just don't like food very well.

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OK, that's a complete inventory of my WLS woes at the moment. They're not so bad. In comparison with all the good stuff, it really seems like no big deal.

I spent some time reading an article in the NYTimes Magazine from last weekend. It's called "Losing It in the Anti-Dieting Age," and the author, Taffy Brodesser-Akner, is a woman who has had problems with her weight her whole life. The focus is basically on how awful the diet industry is (statistically unsuccessful, preying on desperate people's hopes, and really really not sure of what might actually work) and also how awful life for fat people is, whether they're actively pursuing weight loss or are accepting of their bodies. A lot of the article focuses on Weight Watchers, both historically and after Oprah bought a share of it, as well as on Oprah's own weight battles over the years. The author goes on her own WW journey (not her first) in the interest of the article. She also talks to various doctors and other experts. Sadly, she gives very little thoughtspace to WLS. I think the article gives a very good glimpse into the soul of a person suffering because of her weight - I can identify with many of her experiences and thoughts, and getting back inside the head of a person desperate for a solution to this problem was a little alarming to me. I recognize that desperation. I was haunted by it for most of my life. I feel really fortunate that I decided to look into WLS in a logical, evidence-based fashion instead of brushing it off as too extreme. Any person who is that unhappy needs to do something extreme if that extreme thing provides a reasonably good chance of success.

Finally, just as an update for those who are curious, I'm eating around 600-800 calories per day still. 65-90 g of protein. 30 g or so of carbs. What that looked like one day this week: 

Breakfast: 1/2 cup Greek yogurt plus 1/4 cup berries (it's strawberry season - yes!)

Lunch: Romaine salad with some olives and cheese, with one T of blue cheese dressing (I was at a pizza place and this was a side salad - nothing else appropriate available!)

Dinner: 3 oz cod cooked in a bit of butter

Snacks: 1/2 cup cottage cheese with some salsa, Syntrax vanilla shake made with Fairlife milk

 


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Congrats! And keep up the great work. U look amazing and I'm sure you're feeling amazing too :rolleyes:

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2 minutes ago, Relovlee said:

Congrats! And keep up the great work. U look amazing and I'm sure you're feeling amazing too :rolleyes:

Thank you! I'm feeling really great. 

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Thanks Jen, for the detailed update. It really helps others to know how you're as successful as you are. You are invaluable to this community!

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Nice post as usual, Jen! 

Not a lot of food on your daily list.... I'm a couple months behind you and I eat more. Good? Bad? Bit of both, probably.

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I have also lost 105 lbs and almost obese instead of morbid. Its so exciting to see my weight go down instead of up.. cognates on your weight lost

 

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Love the updates and inclusion of how your whole body is doing and what you're eating right now. :wub:

The struggles with protein sound rough. I've told my DH that I may have a change in taste buds after surgery, but he didnt "get it" until someone he follows on youtube had the surgery last week and has been discussing how the most innocuous things are making him nauseated right now, and the struggle to get enough in. Naturally, before surgery, we kind of look forward to this - but I can totally see how it becomes an issue as it goes on, especially when you need to make your protein numbers!

Congrats on smashing some milestones!

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8 hours ago, Carina said:

Nice post as usual, Jen! 

Not a lot of food on your daily list.... I'm a couple months behind you and I eat more. Good? Bad? Bit of both, probably.

Yeah, I'm not eating a lot - like 600-800 calories per day - but I'm never hungry, so I just go with my protein numbers as a minimum and stop at that. I figure that I feel fine, and I'm losing ok, so I'll change if either of those change (or if my labs come back with deficiencies). When I get closer to GW I'll have to up my calories, but for now I eat as much as I want, which isn't much! I get full really quickly. If you're losing ok and are happy with your quantities, you're probably fine :) 

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31 minutes ago, delilas said:

Love the updates and inclusion of how your whole body is doing and what you're eating right now. :wub:

The struggles with protein sound rough. I've told my DH that I may have a change in taste buds after surgery, but he didnt "get it" until someone he follows on youtube had the surgery last week and has been discussing how the most innocuous things are making him nauseated right now, and the struggle to get enough in. Naturally, before surgery, we kind of look forward to this - but I can totally see how it becomes an issue as it goes on, especially when you need to make your protein numbers!

Congrats on smashing some milestones!

Honestly, it's the weirdest thing in the world to not want food. Your mileage may vary, of course, but I just don't want it. That'll change when the honeymoon is over, I think... :o 

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On 8/4/2017 at 4:32 AM, Raddy said:

Thanks Jen, for the detailed update. It really helps others to know how you're as successful as you are. You are invaluable to this community!

Thanks, Raddy :) I hope others can gain a little info from my posts just as I did from so many others' posts! 

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Jen thanks for a great post! Like you thought the NYTimes article had a big hole in it by not discussing WLS. Sorry to hear your hair loss continues. (This is the only time being a near-bald guy was ever good). 

I didn't know that (given my skin) that I was a sharpei. My bat wings, belly button sag, and droopy butt are hard to describe... so instead of listing them, now can just say, sharpei! <_<

Congrats on the weight loss and BMI < 30!!

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4 minutes ago, BurgundyBoy said:

Jen thanks for a great post! Like you thought the NYTimes article had a big hole in it by not discussing WLS. Sorry to hear your hair loss continues. (This is the only time being a near-bald guy was ever good). 

I didn't know that (given my skin) that I was a sharpei. My bat wings, belly button sag, and droopy butt are hard to describe... so instead of listing them, now can just say, sharpei! <_<

Congrats on the weight loss and BMI < 30!!

Thanks, BB. <30 is a great place to be.

I've spent the last week since I read that article thanking my lucky stars that I found the escape clause or secret passageway or wardrobe that leads to Narnia or however you want to think of WLS. Too bad it's still fairly secret, though. 

Maybe if TTF needs a mascot, it could be a sharpei.

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Yes, it does feel like a secret door. One with lots of little spiky annoying things but it is an escape hatch! 

re: the mascot, woof woof woof. 

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