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Week 17, Month 4: Past the halfway point

Jen581791

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It's coming up on Week 17, otherwise known as Month 4. I feel like I'm in a good place in terms of having a pretty solid routine going. I'm still not hungry at all (thank goodness) but I'm getting to know my Pouch Signals and the Limits of the Pouch: I'm still keeping an eye on the clock to make sure I get my food in, but I can really tell when I need food, and I can tell when I should stop eating. I get this sort of empty feeling when I need food, which usually happens after I exercise (or sometimes during! I've started bringing string cheese with me when I'm on a long walk). When I'm eating, I eat pretty slowly and can feel it when I'm getting to my limit. I can eat almost a cup of soft stuff like yogurt or cottage cheese, but much less solid stuff like veggie "meat" or fish - about 3 oz. of that. I've eaten too much a couple of times and felt uncomfortable afterwards - this was due to eating too fast and not catching the signals. I don't seem to have any of the hiccuping, or runny nose, or sneezing, or whatever other weird signals that some post-op people get.

Here's a typical day of food for me right now, for anyone who might be interested:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup greek yogurt + 1/4 cup berries

Lunch: protein shake with Fairlife milk (Syntrax Nectar is my go to shake - others I've tried have been less good. I like the vanilla)

Snack: 1/3 cup cottage cheese + 1/4 cup fake meat taco meat + salsa <-- my awesome go-to snack right now - my fav brand of fake meat crumbles to make taco meat with is Beyond Meat

Sometimes I have a string cheese, too.

Sometimes instead I have a deli slice of cheese and a slice of fake lunch meat (Tofurkey).

Dinner: veggie burger or tofu or veggie sausage or (sometimes) fish or shrimp, with a bit of veggies like broccoli or sweet potatoes. I still feel really weird eating seafood after being a vegetarian for so long, but it's an easy way to get in a lot of protein. I kind of wrinkle my nose a bit at it.

This works out to between 600-800 calories, with 70-90 grams of protein. Occasionally I eat 900, with 100g of protein, but it feels like too much food (I do it intentionally to shake things up a bit). It feels like I'm eating all the time, but I think that's just because I eat slowly. I'm 100% on not drinking for 30 minutes (usually 45) after eating - it's becoming a habit.

I'm walking a lot - like an average of 15000 steps per day. I've been doing 9 mile walks on the beach a lot, which is very enjoyable, but I'm starting to get blisters on my feet just from walking so much, I think. I walked 187 miles in the past month, according to the Fitbit (what? that's insane), which works out to over 6 miles a day. My poor little feet need to toughen up, though. They're always the weakest link in my walking/hiking. All of this walking is making me feel GREAT! I really feel stronger, all of my muscles are getting more toned, and I have a lot more energy. I imagine that carving three hours out of my day every day once I am gainfully employed again will be pretty difficult, but I bet I can do two, especially since my food oriented time is greatly decreased and I'm not going to be sitting down and having a glass of wine after work every day... the odds of exercising after a glass of wine are approaching zero.

I feel like I'm not striving to be invisible anymore. In my years as a thin/normal-sized woman, having someone look at me in public was usually a positive thing: it led to positive interaction, or at least neutral non-interaction. In my years as a heavy woman, having someone look at me has mostly been a negative thing, and this is partly due to societal feelings about heavy women and partly due to my own shame and self-loathing about being heavy. It's a two-way street.

Being noticed in public doesn't generally lead to positive interactions for heavy women. Having seen how this works from both sides makes this difference very clear - society is a lot nicer to thinner people. This isn't a pretty truth, but it's how things work. My strategy for dealing with this has been to adopt invisibility - flowy, drapey clothes, no eye contact, general blending in. I'm starting to feel like I don't need to do this as much. It's a good feeling, and I'm looking forward to feeling more comfortable as time goes on.

I sort of wish I could just fast forward a few months, so I could just be normal weight already, but I don't think that's likely to happen. I still keep feeling really impatient even though the whole process is going pretty quickly. I know the second half of the weight-loss phase will be a bit more enjoyable than the first half just because everything I do right now is a bit more pleasant since I'm thinner and happier now, and that's only going to get better.

 

 




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Yay someone else who drinks Fairlife milk. It's great isn't it?  I also have to learn how to pace myself while eating. it's a big change, I am one of them now that just wants to get it over with instead of savoring my food. 

Walking, invest in some good shoes, or insoles. Shoe investment may be hard, I have found that my feet have dropped a size. An entire size. 

I agree with you about how our society is to bigger people. I recently was told by a co-worker that as I lose weight I am being more and more beautiful each day, and it's like "Really?" .. come on now. But I love my new body, and I show it off because I can. Maybe I shouldn't, but I enjoy doing it, but I now can meet people in the eye, which previously I had issues doing. 

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Fairlife is great! I'm not usually a milk drinker, but I needed something without lactose for my shakes :) 

I have the daintiest most sensitive princess feet, it sucks. I always shell out for good shoes because I have to - I have always been a walker/hiker, and I have had blisters ruin way too many trips to not take shoes seriously! I just got a new pair of hiking boots (Keens :wub:) I've been breaking in for a trip I'm taking in a couple of weeks, but you're right, I do need new regular old athletic/walking/trainer type shoes. My current ones are probably not helping with the blisters.

It definitely feels like a slap in the face when someone gives you a backhanded compliment that makes it clear how much they think you used to look awful before losing weight (I'm speaking from previous experiences losing weight - I'm not at this stage yet this time!). Compliments are nice, but there is that edge there, often. Enjoy your show-off-able body, Zyia, you totally deserve it!!

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Way to go! My favorite parts are how well you're getting to know you pouch and how the drinking rules have become a habit. That kind of control has to feel so good!

I'm amazed how much you're walking! Walk down to San Diego and visit me! :D My feet are super blister-prone. It's ridiculous. I recommend Ryka brand shoes and socks with as little polyester as possible.

You're doing just amazing! You have so much to be proud of.

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Thanks, Gretta! Yes, it's good to feel like I'm more aware of my guts and their needs. 

Let's see, San Diego is about 1200 miles, at 6 miles a day, I should be there in time for... New Years!

I'll look into Ryka. I used to have some sandals by them a while back. I liked them.

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We can cut that in half if I walk toward you at the same time. Ha ha. :D

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Get it girl! Love reading about all the steps your taking and thanks for posting what you're eating! I love seeing how people are changing and adapting after surgery, as well as to get ideas for things to eat :)

167 miles?! Crazy awesome!

I've ordered a lot of samples of protein shakes and powders lately - I think I will have to try the syntrax nectar, as I keep seeing it everywhere!

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5 hours ago, delilas said:

Get it girl! Love reading about all the steps your taking and thanks for posting what you're eating! I love seeing how people are changing and adapting after surgery, as well as to get ideas for things to eat :)

167 miles?! Crazy awesome!

I've ordered a lot of samples of protein shakes and powders lately - I think I will have to try the syntrax nectar, as I keep seeing it everywhere!

Thanks for reading and commenting :) 

I've been thinking of getting the sampler pack... I've only tried vanilla, chocolate, and strawberry kiwi so far. The strawberry kiwi was like liquid jello, which was an interesting change, and actually pretty tasty if you can get behind the unapologetic fake strawberry thing. Quite a few of the flavors mix with water, which is kind of handy sometimes. Let us know how it goes!

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If you can get Kroger store brand products where you are, I love mixing this low carb yogurt smoothie with Syntrax Fuzzy Navel and ice.

 

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10 minutes ago, Gretta said:

If you can get Kroger store brand products where you are, I love mixing this low carb yogurt smoothie wuth Syntrax Fuzzy Navel and ice.

 

Hey, that sounds like a good idea, Gretta! I don't have a Kroger near me, but since it's store brand, I bet there are Safeway or whatever brand drinks that are the same thing. 

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I've looked all over, and Kroger is the only store brand I've seen like that. They have an awesome Carbsmart milk too (no lactose, high protein).

Kroger brand is sold at a ton of differently-named stores nationwide. You can find one under the "Chains" section here https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kroger

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5 hours ago, Gretta said:

I've looked all over, and Kroger is the only store brand I've seen like that. They have an awesome Carbsmart milk too (no lactose, high protein).

Kroger brand is sold at a ton of differently-named stores nationwide. You can find one under the "Chains" section here https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kroger

Hey, thanks, I forgot they sell Kroger stuff at Fred Meyer. I'll look for it!

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On 6/12/2017 at 3:58 PM, Gretta said:

If you can get Kroger store brand products where you are, I love mixing this low carb yogurt smoothie with Syntrax Fuzzy Navel and ice.

 

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I'm checking out this yogurt when I go home to LA next month. That sounds super delicious!

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1 hour ago, NerdyLady said:

I'm checking out this yogurt when I go home to LA next month. That sounds super delicious!

Oh good! The flavor on its own is a little strong for me, but sooo yummy with ice & protein powder.

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@Gretta I am a Kroger shopper. I might give this a shot. I tried the carb master before and it was strong but I didn't think of blending it.

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