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Idiot diet brain is making me crazy

Jen581791

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I'm having to do a lot of self-talk to try to calm down about the speed of my weight loss. I find my idiot diet brain worrying that it's not going to work, that I'm going slow, so I'll never reach my goal, that I'm doing something wrong, that I need to "try harder," that I'm going to fail, that I'm just that one person in a million that this doesn't work for. My rational brain can then inform myself that no, it's working, just a bit slowly, and I need to be patient. I'm doing everything right (600-800 calories per day, 65+ grams of protein, very low carb, 80+ oz of water, 3-5 miles of walking per day, all my vitamins, eating slowly, chewing well, etc, etc, etc.). 

I have to tell myself that my behavior is what I'm changing, and that I have no direct control over how my body responds to those behavioral changes - it will lose at the pace it will lose at. I'm stuck again (for a week now), and getting antsy, but I know it will change soon - that is, my rational brain knows. My idiot diet brain is freaking out. It's like arguing with an irrational toddler sometimes. 

"Maybe I'm not eating enough calories."

"Maybe I'm not eating enough carbs."

"Maybe I should try eating meat." (yuk, btw, not appealing to me)

"Maybe I need a cheat day. Some people swear by that."

"Maybe I need to exercise more."

"Maybe my metabolism is so messed up that I'll never reach my goal."

"Maybe I need to drink more shakes."

"Maybe I should try to eat all of my protein instead of using shakes."

"Maybe my scale is broken!"

It's like my idiot diet brain actually thinks that there is some sort of magical formula that will "work" and that anything else will not work. It's this weird magical thinking that leads sports teams to not shave until they win the championship or students to wear their lucky t-shirt on test day or whatever. 

I've been stuck for a week, which is just a blip on the timeline, for sure, but it feels like a lifetime.

I'm down 50 since pre-op (mid January).

I'm down 30 since surgery (Feb 14). 

It's working. I'm just being impatient. I'm looking at others' results and assuming my losses will come as quickly (they're not). But it IS working. 

Deep breaths. 

 

Update two days later: down a pound and a half this morning, so I guess I'm not broken or permanently stuck ;) I made up a very comprehensive spreadsheet and graph to track my weight loss, which clearly shows that I'm making progress. Good to look at when I'm feeling unsure.




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You really are doing everything perfectly! And people call this the "easy way out"... ;) They should see how much work we have to put into this. I'm not sure how fast you're losing, but if it is a bit slower than some people, well, that's probably easier on your body and your skin. Keep the faith! <3

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I've had every single thought that you have had.  We need to look at the big picture! :)

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I highly recommend "Intuitive Eating". Though we can't follow all of the guidelines since we can't truly eat whatever we want you may find self forgiveness for how we got here: the wicked cycle of dieting and the dieting industry which I'm convinced is evil and has contributed much to the obesity in our society.  

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6 hours ago, Hotmamatime said:

I highly recommend "Intuitive Eating". Though we can't follow all of the guidelines since we can't truly eat whatever we want you may find self forgiveness for how we got here: the wicked cycle of dieting and the dieting industry which I'm convinced is evil and has contributed much to the obesity in our society.  

I looked up the book on Amazon - it looks like it might be a useful read. Wicked cycle of dieting, indeed - definitely some familiarity with that! I think I'll give it a go, thanks :) 

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Jen, I've been going through the exact same thought process - about wanting to get to goal after surgery or see continuous progress so that I know I'm doing things right, but I can't help but jump to over thinking it when there's signs of stalling and my weight isn't going down or even worse it's going back up! Eek! 

Sounds like with getting your water, protein, and walking in you are building up your lean muscles, so that might weigh more for a while, but I'm glad your scale let you know that things are still going in the right direction! :) 

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On 5/1/2017 at 4:18 PM, Hotmamatime said:

I highly recommend "Intuitive Eating". Though we can't follow all of the guidelines since we can't truly eat whatever we want you may find self forgiveness for how we got here: the wicked cycle of dieting and the dieting industry which I'm convinced is evil and has contributed much to the obesity in our society.  

@Hotmamatime I've finished the book and it was really great! I'm trying to incorporate the concepts as appropriate to my current stage (3 months post-op, so not everything is completely applicable) in baby steps, starting with just thinking about the whole process of eating differently - giving up the dieting mentality. Thanks for the recommendation. I'm feeling a bit calmer about things :) 

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