Tuesday was my one month post-op, and I'm happy to say that my stall is over. Also, when I actually look at the numbers on the app that I use to track my weight, it's not really much of a stall. It just messed with my head to have only lost 10 pounds after 2, then 3 weeks out. Now I'm at -18 post-op, and -37 total, since the beginning of January. It's starting to feel like things are happening, although it looks to be happening a bit more slowly than for many others. My face looks thinner, my body feels thinner, and my clothes are fitting a lot better. When I move around, whether walking, climbing stairs, shaving legs in the shower, etc., I feel like I can do it more easily. It's great!
The eating situation is really strange. I'm not hungry at all. When it's time to eat, food sounds kind of good in theory, but isn't very exciting once I'm faced with it. I can eat about 1/4 cup of food at a time, more if it's soup/applesauce/something squishy like that. Some things taste terrible to me now: garlic and onions taste like metallic chemicals, eggs taste like sulphur, some kinds of cheese taste rotten. Fruits and vegetables taste amazing, but since I can only have a bite or two after eating my protein, I'm not getting much of them. I've been having red Thai curry tofu and vegetables the last few days for dinner (one batch makes enough for like two weeks, lol), and it's really delicious. The fat from the coconut milk went through me a bit fast the first day, but I guess my system has gotten used to it now, so it sits well with me. I'm still relying on protein shakes for most of my protein. Can't wait until I don't have to!
Energy levels are pretty good. I feel a bit tired in the afternoon, but not terrible, and since I'm not working at the moment, it's not affecting me much. I need to get out for more regular walks, though.
The big road trip I was on came to an end on Tuesday, as well. After seven months on the road all over the US, we arrived back where we started (there's a metaphor here, I just know it): my MIL's house I was really really really nervous about telling her about the WLS, since she's a tad judgmental of my decisions normally, and is also a crazy worrywart. However, perhaps because she has spent her whole life yoyo dieting, she actually seemed to think it was a good idea, and is really curious and enthusiastic about the whole thing (at least to my face, which is good enough for me!). She's also afraid to eat in front of me, which is kind of funny, because I couldn't care less. Sadly, I find myself judging her food choices in my head, which is not kind. She has had the most success in her life doing 80s old school dieting, and relies on 80s nutritional science to this day. Diet = low fat, high carb food. With fat free cheese on top. Hold the protein. Iceberg salads with fat free (sugar filled) thousand island on top. Jelly beans for a treat because fat free! Coke is OK because it's fat free! It makes me sad because I know how hungry that kind of diet can make a person. And how ineffective that kind of dieting can be. I'm really holding my tongue, though. Over the years, I've definitely bought into the sugar and refined carbs = evil school of thought, but it would be a complete change of worldview for her, and she's not one to change philosophies on a dime. Smile and tell her she's doing great. It's better for our relationship, I promise.
One weird thing that happened this week was that I had a strange reaction to new calcium chews I had bought. I got gummy ones and figured they had some sugar, like my multivitamins, but when I was chewing the first two I noticed that they were really sweet! I checked the package info (why did I not do this when I bought them? I'm usually so careful about these things), I saw that they have 7g of sugar per two chews, and you're supposed to have 4 chews per day! What!? Then, about an hour later, I got HUNGRY. That stomach growling, empty, craving sort of hungry that I would maybe get after having something really sweet like pancakes and syrup. And this is after a month of not having anything like hunger at all. Stupid calcium chews!!! Goodbye forever. I'm buying some liquid calcium that is sugar free. I've been cruising the ThinnerTimesForum boards, so I have a good idea of what to look for this time. Thanks to those who've done this research and shared it!
Next week comes with new challenges: I'm going to a big international conference for my profession to look for a job for the next school year, so I'll have to manage getting all of my food/liquid while at a conference all day. I'll also be meeting up with a friend who I would normally be having quite a lot of beer and pizza with - I'm going to tell her about the WLS since she's a really good friend, but as someone who's never had real problems with her weight, I'm pretty sure she won't understand. We'll see.
Wishing I had done the surgery a couple of months earlier so I feel more confident in job interviews. When I was last thin-ish, I remember sitting in on a conversation with a group of people who were in charge of hiring for my department - they were all bad-mouthing a heavy person who had interviewed. The toxic language was awful. They really couldn't see hiring a fat person because obviously fat people had no self control and didn't try to take care of themselves at all. "I mean, just put the burger down and go to the gym." The closeted fat person in me was just cringing and pitying the guy. The world is kinder to people of socially acceptable size, and cruel indeed to those of us who are not.