It went really well. He was very surprised with how much weight I have lost to say the least. He said that he has some sleevers who only lose about fifty pounds who started out around the same weight I was. I told him I'm really not trying to lose weight at this point. In fact I don't really want to. I'm afraid it's going to make my face look really gaunt. The only way I can stop it is to eat a ton all day long and I just don't want to. I just love the freedom of not thinking about food constantly.
If I start to look bad I will have to but hopefully it's going to keep coming off my thighs and torso. My inner thighs look absolutely horrendous right now but honestly? I don't care. I might have to wear board shorts this summer for swimming. Or maybe I don't care.
My surgeon even commented that I don't look like I have a lot of extra skin around my torso and I really don't. My lower ab region looks like a balloon that has been inflated and deflated about twenty times, but I was expecting that. I really don't feel the need to have plastics. My husband is attracted to me and I don't feel like I have to be perfect. Having said that I could change my mind. And I would never tell anyone else not to do it because if you work this hard on it and then you still feel bad about how you look, go for it!
I am wearing my wedding rings on my middle finger and keep thinking I should go have them resized but if I continue to lose weight I'll just have to get them resized again maybe. I'm just going to wait and see.
I am wearing size 8 jeans (in a brand I know runs small) and I can take them off without unbuttoning them so I'm pretty sure I could get into a size six in this brand. Which blows my mind. I don't think I wore a size 6 when I was in jr high. It's vanity sizing and I know this. Because I was smaller than this in jr. high and I was probably a size 9. In highschool I don't think I was ever below a size 10 but then I did like to wear big loose clothes. It was the 80's.
I'm still in the honeymoon phase and I know this. It gets more difficult after this. But talking to my surgeon yesterday, I'm even more convinced that the mental aspect of this is the most important. If you aren't willing to look at why you started over eating or eating compulsively or why you binge ate, or why you wanted to gain weight (yes you did) then I don't really think you are going to be successful.
I reminded myself yesterday of why I need to be sure to eat enough protein during the day. I don't eat dinner before yoga class because it just feels heavy and our bodies aren't very good at bending and folding and twisting while digesting. I forgot I was going to yoga so I didn't up my day time protein and calories like I should have. I started to get shaky and by the end I felt like I was really weak.