• Announcements

    • John

      Community Guidelines   09/15/2015

      A reminder that we have a general set of guidelines that are available at http://www.thinnertimesforum.com/guidelines/. If you have any questions or concerns, you may express them to me or a Community Leader directly. Thank you,
      John Callery
Sign in to follow this  
Followers 0
  • entries
    21
  • comments
    57
  • views
    6,121

Feeling sad for my fat self.

andread7644

355 views

4.5 Months Post Op

234lbs

-91lbs total

Lately, I have been feeling extra sad for my fat self. Trying on my old pair of size 26 jeans gives me a lot of motivation. But today and yesterday, just looking at them makes tears start to well up. It just disgusts me that I never realized how big I used to be. And to think these jeans were getting really tight 5 months ago makes it even worse. Now, I know my body image is probably completely warped since most of the time when I look in the mirror I feel like I still look 325lbs, but its embarrassing to me because if I look like this at 234lbs, then holy cow I must have looked super duper horrible at 325lbs. I've been going onto mybodygallery.com lately just to get a feel for how I look now since I'm not sure if what I'm seeing in the mirror is exactly how I look, and when I type in my old height and weight and pants size, I relate very much to the images that show up. When I type in my current height, weight, and pant size I feel like the women look wonderful, but I don't feel like thats what I look like. Its really frustrating because it almost feels like I don't know who I am because I can't figure out what I look like! I'm not even sure if what I'm typing is making any sense at all. Now I'm just scared for what it will be like once I have actually met goal weight. Am I still going to feel obese and gross? I know I wrote a post about this awhile back already feeling this way, and now that I'm writing it again has me really concerned I will still feel this way when I am a normal weight.


Minnie1 likes this


4 Comments


Interesting topic..I was thinking along the same lines myself today. I am down about 60 pounds now about half way to my goal weight,but, when I look in the mirror I see someone still horribly overweight although, I feel so much better than I did 10 weeks ago, physically, my self image is completely shot...I have been overweight for 30 years now, I can't remember what it is like to be at normal weight.I am 10 pounds away from entering a weight zone that I haven't seen in 30 plus years..Andrea,you're big advantage in this self image problem is that you are so young and because you made the decision to take this bold step so young, you will have plenty of time to adjust slowly to your new self image. Over time hopefully, you will have a harder time remembering the bad ole "fat days" You are doing great! You look great... :)

Minnie1 likes this

Share this comment


Link to comment

Honey you were beautiful before and beautiful now and you will be beautiful when you level out.  It's from the inside - always will be.  Now you're just healthier - and probably a lot more comfortable in your new jeans :)

Minnie1 likes this

Share this comment


Link to comment

It takes a while for our internal image of ourselves to catch up to the reality.  I'm almost a year out and still have problems with that.  I've had to constantly tell myself that I am a normal size now, because all I see in the mirror is huge flappy arms and thighs.  As I understand it, it does get better in time as we adjust to our new body size - judging from my hubby's experience, women have more of an issue with this than men do.

 

Cavmommy above is right - you were beautiful before, now, and in the future.  You will just be much healthier and happier to enjoy it!

michieluvsu likes this

Share this comment


Link to comment

I've read posts where even at goal people don't really see themselves as they are. I believe it really does take some time to accept the new person looking back in the mirror, and the much smaller body. There is a feeling of pity and understanding when I see someone as big as I was before. Not really disgust, but a desire to help somehow. I know how it feels.

 

Ditto... you were beautiful before, are now, and will be as time goes by. :)

Share this comment


Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!


Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.


Sign In Now