Stuggling
Posted 04-04-2009 at 03:42 PM by armywife456
So, I'm about ten months post op and I feel terrible! HORRIBLE! I feel that I ate better before surgery or at least knew how to! Now, I snack all the darn time! More than I did before surgery! I mean don't get me wrong, I did snack alot before too but obviously just much larger portions! Well, I don't "dump" and at this point I REALLY wish I did! Then I'd be afraid to eat sweets (my ultimate weakness). But I am more afraid to eat right because I get sick on "good for you foods." I feel so hopeless, I wish I could just jump off a cliff at this point. I hate how I feel now, I mean yeah I'm down over 110lbs but I still eat like a fat face! UGH! I am so upset! When I felt like a nice sandwich for lunch I could eat one! Well I ate about two but what I would give to just have half of a turkey and cheese sub! OMG! I know the bread isn't the best for you but darn it! I want it all together as a sandwich should be and eat it! I guess what really bothers me is that I want to eat the same things I used to but just not as much of it as I used to! When it comes to sweets, like a candy bar lets say, I can still eat the whole candy, now I don't get the KING SIZE anymore but I can still enjoy it in its entirety. If I wanna peanut butter and jelly sandwich I cant have one because of the damn bread! I have tried just mixing PB&Jelly in a small bowl and eating it but its just not the same as having the sandwich in its entirety! I'm getting so frusterated! On top of the whole eating thing, I just want my boobs to look their age! I am 25 and they look 60+ heck there are prob 70 year old ladies with better ones than I have now! I HATE IT! I would rather them be full again! But mostly I am just frusterated because I wanna eat! And I don't wanna eat how I am because its just gonna lead to worse things, like diabetes or me re-gaining all that wt! I don't want that for myself! I feel so hopeless right now. 
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hi i am sorry to hear about the way you feel after reading your blog i decided to look over your profile and saw your pictures...you look good missy and if you back to what you used to look like that would really hurt you.
Try not to buy what is making you overeat...like breads and chocolate. Only take out the portion of food you will eat and hide the rest from your site..but mostly dont try things that got you big in the first place. i understand it is hard but love yourself first to stop yourself from becoming what you dont want to become...fat and unhappy. Go workout or go to the library or out with your friends to the mall and take long walks but dont torture yourself inside you home. Read what you put on this pictures and look at yourself at what you have accomplished and dont let yourself be defeated...power to you missy if you ever need somebody look me up ill be here ready to listen to you and try to help you out. |
 
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