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    Today I am exactly one day out of VSG surgery. I have only lost 10lbs. I am really trying, I never eat to much. Am I doing something wrong?

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    Today is my two month anniversary since surgery. Happy 2 month bday to my tummy!

    I will celebrate by cleaning out my closet! Out with the old in with the new!

  1. I actually feel super guilty about not being here!! I guess I should seriously update...well I started at 218lbs, had my surgery July 2nd 2014 and my current weight is 123lbs!! yay! I still eat very little,but I try to eat consistently. I am now trying to maintain this weight, although I am so short they say I could be smaller, I am amazed at where I am and very comfortable. Ummm health issues? all previous issue Gooooone! all meds? Goooone....I am so sorry for not being a better blogger :( but I wanted everyone to know I couldnt be happier with the choice I made to do this!. I am still in a state of disbelief I think. I looked at myself for the first time in the mirror today and was like OMG my stomach looks flat in clothes now(I do have loose skin issues, sooo booo)! what the heck is that all about! I guess this whole time...just like before surgery I just never REALLY look at myself, but now that I finally did again...woohoo! lol thank you all again for your support and sharing your stories, they helped so much along the way and I wanted everyone to know that I didn't just disappear and I truly couldn't have gotten through all of my pre-surgery issues and jitters without this site and these ppl!

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    I was sleeved 2/24/15. My period started two days later. I still have it. I usually don't have it because I has an IUD. I don't know if I should be worried and call mt GYN!?!? Has this happen to anyone???

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    latina63
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    So excited! I have lost 30 lbs so far from surgery almost 7 wks ago. I haven't been here for years and I am 1.5 lbs from One-derland!

  2. It's been 1 year since surgery. I WAS down 70 lbs until surgery on ovarian tumor back in Oct. After surgery I didn't listen and got on the scale after a week post op and had gained 13 lbs. I WAS SHOCKED! I called the Dr and he said it was due to all the fluids and gas they pumped me with. It took longer for me to heal that I thought it would. It took about 3 weeks at least. I eventually lost the 13 and got back to where I was. Which then put me right into the Holidays..... NEED I SAY MORE. I caved! I starting eating more and not focussing on the healthier foods. I let mashed potatoes, breads, rice, sweets creep back into my life. I SUCK!

    By January first I had gained 5 lbs. I was told by many that 5 lbs isn't nothing thru the holidays...but it was to me. I knew I wouldn't make MY GOAL of reaching 90 lb loss from surgery in a yr. (My year was Feb 7th) I am currently at a loss of 65 lbs. due to that darn gain. UGHH!

    I feel hungrier than I have in a long time...not sure why. I am ready to get refocussed on my losing and getting healthier each day.

    I tell myself all the time----- PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!!! That's what my Dr tells me. I try picking things that I have lots of protein but still allow me to eat whenever I feel the urge. Like I said I feel hungry and do not believe it is head hunger. I usually tend to grab a cheese stick, greek yogurt, or sometimes fruit....strawberries or lil' cutie because they are lower in calories. I will on occasion grab a protein shake but---even though loaded with protein they use up so much of my calories for the day. So, in that since, I tend to not grab those as often. I LOVE my protein shakes!! But once you've added the two scoops of powder and skim milk it's like 300 calories. Then I go into panic mode ...thinking "dang, I ONLY have 1,000 left for the entire day)

    I will totally admit, I stopped my walking program....was doing great until surgery in Oct., then wasn't aloud to exercise for 6 weeks due to healing. Then Holidays got busy and rain and cold. Excuses excuses!!!! :( Know matter what it was, I wasn't walking!!! I know that was a big part of my success and need to start back up with it again. JUST DO IT, MELISSA!!!!

    As for the eating....why am I craving carbs and sweets again?

  3. Hello everyone!

    In need of some advice. I have hit another plateau. Been fluxuation the same 3lbs for the past month. Also i fractured my coccyx and it is irritating my sciatic nerve VERY badly.

    Sitting,laying,walking, coughing, and even deep breaths hurt. I am currently in physical therapy to try and get this problem under control, but i am trying to hit Onederland by the first week of june ( roughly 32 lbs).

    Is it possible? Have any of you had this experience? Please give me your advice it is greatly appreciated. Im ready to have the BEST summer of my life, my body just isn't :(

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    Went to the seminars, saw the Nutritionist and still have to see the GI Doctor and do the sleep study and then 2 weeks of Pre-Op Shakes. I was given a booklet of what I will need on my road to Bariatric Surgery. The vitamins, the protein shakes, and what to expect. I have always been a Big Guy so I expect to be thin or at least thinner ergo Healthier. I'm still on the fence about the type of surgery. Sleeve or Bypass? They say Bypass is the "GOLDEN STANDARD" I hope I can choose what is best for me but I don't know. Chime in any info will be greatly appreciated. Thanks

  4. So Last Dec I was at 307. this was my highest weight ever and I had managed to creep back up there. UGH. So As of today I am 108 pounds under that. Does it seem real ? NO . I've cheated a bit every now and again. but I know I will never ever be anywhere near that again. Does it seem real NO. I look in my MIRRORarrow-10x10.png and I still see the other 108 pounds. I told a co-worker I've lost a super model and they said no you've lost a super model wearing steel toe boots. (THANK YOU my brain screamed) And I said Thank you ..... It's been hard more mentally hard than anything because I still go to the same stores and I've gotten nicely kicked out by my favorite sales clerks who in the past have helped me choose things. I took a picture in my swimsuit. And it showed my problem areas that I need help with during my transition and I thought gross. then I thought it was grosser before. At least now I can better fit things. And I am ok with this. Mentally as I said I look in the mirrorarrow-10x10.png and I see the other me. And I know it won't go away. I know that physically I've changed but mentally it's harder. But it's good the mental picture flashes up because it reminds me of where I don't want to go back to. And I THANK GOD everyday for this chance at change. Also I forgot. the biggest thing to bug me is people saying oh you look so pretty now..... Well so I've really found out my fat phobia that I thought ppl had is real. So I wasn't pretty before ? I'm not saying I was or wasn't but this is how you think. UGH... Second ppl talk to me that I passed in the hall everyday at work and now they speak. Before I spoke and they kept going. Wow what are they going to do when I loose the other 50 pounds ? SMH

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    kpodnar
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    Tomorrow is my last weigh in required by insurance! I am nervous, excited, and scared! I have done well on my pre-op diet and met both my surgeon and PCP's recommended weight loss for the six month period. This time has been invaluable to me. I feel like I am already in the gastric bypass mind set as far as my food choices and my entire way of thinking about food. My husband and I went out to eat for Valentine's Day and I over ate and I still feel sick because of the large portion I consumed. Wish me luck tomorrow as my info goes on to the insurance company for approval!

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    gamzap
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    Today, for the first time since my surgery 6 weeks ago, I came face to face with that part of me, almost an alter ego, that got me to morbid obesity. I had been so relieved and grateful to not hear from her; I almost thought that miraculously the surgeon had somehow removed her on the table.

    One of my dearest friends has been going through a catastrophic loss....by inches. While she was in the hospital having surgery, her husband suffered a stroke and was being cared for by hospice in their home. When she recovered and returned home, she fell and suffered a spinal cord injury and is now partially paralyzed in the hospital. Yesterday I got the call that her husband was not expected to last the day. I went to see her, and then to their home to sit with her husband through his last hours. I was there for 8 hours and then the minister came so I went home to get some rest.

    I arrived back at their home early this morning and no one was there. I knew that he had passed in the night. I knew how devastated my friend would be as they were the most devoted married couple you can imagine. I wanted to go to the hospital to hug her and be sure her children were there with her.

    As I put the key into the ignition......my old alter-ego said to me LOUDLY......."First, let's go get an egg, bacon, cheese biscuit and a large diet coke at McDonald's. Then you will be ready to go face your friend's grief and be emotionally available for her."

    Emotional numbing. Food has been my coping and numbing medicine ...........This is just a dramatic example of a pattern that has been repeated over and over thousands of times in my life. How many fast food trips, how many brownies to get through the vagaries of life and still keep moving. Eat something to calm down, to cheer up, to hide the pain, to soldier on.

    What I needed was a little time to experience the moment, to take some deep breaths, to let some tears fall. I took a short walk, and even stopped to fill my gas tank on the way. I needed time to process, to allow myself to feel the depth of my sadness and acknowledge my feeling of helplessness that I could do nothing to take away the suffering of my friend.

    I felt those feelings.....and they hurt as much as I feared they would. But bearing them gave me a sense of strength, of solidity. I went to the hospital to hold my friend.....to be present with her in her grief, even knowing I could do nothing to change it.

    Many people share about grieving the loss of food and overeating - the loss of sensual pleasure, the fun of indulgence, the shared feasting with friends and loved ones. For me, life without emotional eating takes away my ability to hide from my feelings and the world.

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    duckster43
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    Well here I am roughly 9 weeks post surgery and I am still adapting to my new "tool." I've lost 82 pounds and roughly 4 pant sizes!! I thank God for giving me the strength to go forward with the surgery. I also thank God for my loving and supportive family, who are helping me every step of the way!!!

    I am learning how to work this tool into my life style. It hasn't always been easy but it has all been good. My children have been the most amazing through the entire process!! They've been helping me adapt our menu to a healthier one AND they'be become so much healthier because of it.

    Even though my journey has just started I still have a long road to go.

    Have a great day.

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    You are everything that is bad, you are everything that has made me sad, you are everything that is life altering.

    No matter how accomplished I am in life, no matter how much I have, because I am fat I feel worthless-and because I feel worthless I allow other people to treat me as though I am worthless.

    Its time to make it all stop. Its time to gain control of this beautiful gift that God has given me and do something with it.

    So many years have gone by, so many opportunities missed, so many chances not taken because I am overweight.

    The freedom of being a normal weight can give you trumps over all the deliciousness in food

    I cant do it anymore-your not good for me-I walk a few blocks and im huffing and puffing, I attempt to put my shoes on and I start to sweat, I spend days letting life pass me by because I am too tired to get out of bed.

    It is not worth it. I am worth more then what I consume. My Life would be so much better if I could control what I eat.

    You are my drug, always lurking in my head, always present. My car has become a comfort zone because its one of the places where no one has to see me eating the unhealthy food that I eat, and I wont have to feel criticized when Im eating it. I know Im doing wrong so my car became a place where I can shut off the world while I commit a crime on myself.

    I want it to stop. I want to see the world in a different way. I want people to see me for who I am not what I eat. Because if they don't see shoveling it in my mouth they will surely see it in the weight Ive gained.

    I want to be present in the world. Not in the shadows where I stay now because I feel unworthy but in crowd of beautiful women that are being admired.

    Its time to take charge...so...my love...food...its over. I will no longer use you to fill that void in me that is missing. I will only use you to preserve my beautiful life I will be living.

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    I choose life
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    So I am 1 week and 1 day from surgery and I thought it would be good to write down my thoughts so that if I am ever asked or curious, I will be able to remember some of my early lessons. To be completely honest it also helps me to have a place to clear out all the thoughts that jumble inside my mind.

    Firstly, all the preparation for the change was never going to prepare me for all the things that are changing inside me and around me. Excitement does not begin to explain what I feel when I think about the future. My true regret is that I have waited so long. I know that I am only 35years old, but it seems that living a day without this kind of commitment to health and life, was such a wasted opportunity. Don’t get me wrong I understand that there are many things that I have my life that I would not have had if not for each of those days, namely my husband of nearly 10 years and our amazing 9 year old daughter. I just wish that I had done this earlier so that I would not have wasted so much time, I could have spent enjoying them and our lives together. I am just so grateful that I have not wasted anymore time, because every moment with them is and will continue to be worth the work that has and will continue to lay ahead of me.

    Another thing that has occurred to me in the last week is that in all my years of dealing with food I have had no real idea of what my relationship with it was. I have heard a lot “grieving for food”, because you in a sense are losing a close friend and something that you have come to depend on for comfort. While I completely can see that this is something that a person could struggle with and honestly I imagined it would be something that I would struggle with. However, oddly enough that is not something I feel. It seems like ever since the surgery I have a great feeling of relief that I don’t have to deal with food and the torment that I have always had with guilt and gluttony. It almost feels like I have been released from the clutches of a bully. I know that sounds nuts to me to think of food and my addiction to it as a bully. I am sure I am not the only person to feel this but it is a feeling that I never expected. It is like leaving an abusive relationship, only you are the one who is abusing yourself. (Let me express that I am not belittling the trial of an abused woman.) I just never thought of my relationship with food in this way. I always thought that like an addict I would somehow miss the food and the eating, but I really don’t. I love the fact that there is something that there is something that is giving me time to learn how to build good and healthy habits.

    So those are 2 of the thoughts that I have had in the last week. I know there will be more in this learning process. I’ll keep typing and you can keep reading if you like. :)

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    ToadBelly87
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    I find that it's important to keep a food journal. While I have a hard copy of my emotional journey, I also have found it helpful to post on sites like this as well as Blogger and Tumbler. I have a private site on Penzu and I often write a list of what I'm eating at the time that I eat it. I note how much it is as well as my liquid count. At the end of the day, I add up ounces and grams and configure what I need to be working on. My doctor here in Las Vegas, NV (Dr. Darren Soong/Atkinson), recommends 80-100oz water per day and 70-80g of weighted out protein, but believed to be more for men. I'm up about 60g and I am working on eating more nuts and more fish cutlets and chicken rather than rare steak (which I love). If I really want to have an occasional carb, I'll dip some whole grain crackers in hummus or put cream cheese or peanut butter on a piece of nine-grain bread.

  5. I saw my GP for the infections and everything is under control. But since I've also come down with gastroenteritis and the constant vomiting less than a month post op is really taxing my tolerance for pain and general stress. My weight loss has slowed down, even while I vomit everything I eat so I can't say I appreciate the double slap that it feels like.

    I'm ready for all the obstacles and issues to pass by me now so that I can hopefully look forward to further weight loss and an enjoyable life, because it's been anything but since surgery.

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    I'm right behind you!! :) Can I ask what your "liver cleanse" diet consists of?

    Yes Breakfast: 1 high protein meal replacement shake and twelve oz of water or sugar free beverage, Lunc: 1 high protein meal replacement shake with one food item from list below and of course the twelve oz of water. afternoon snack 1 food list item Dinner four oz of lean turkey,chix breast,ham,roast beef, or fish, baked grilled orbroiled. plus one half cup of raw/cooked green vegie, or one half cup of low sodium v8 juice.

    eve snack 1 high protein meal replacement shake. drink 64 oz of non carbonated sugar free lbeverages aday.examples inc. h2o, propel,crystal light,g2, sugar free kool aid , sugar free pop scicles,sug free jello, fatfree chix or beef broth. food selection is 1/2 cup plai oatmeal, or 1/2 cup unsweetened app sauce, 1/2 cup sugar free pudding, 6 oz light yourt that is less than 90 cals or 1/2 cup non fat cottage cheese.

    Source: Two weeks before the sleeve surgery., what is your dr having you do?

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    My Wife picked me up mid morning for the 90 minute drive to our home. I made myself a spot on the recliner and watched some tube and read. I walked and walked every chance that i could as I did not like the gassy feeling....waking really works to get rid of it. I am happy eating yogurt, cream soups and sugar free pops....My wife and youngest son are leaving for the weekend so I will be home for the weekend with my oldest son. He will be working off and on so I will ahve plenty of time to rest and relax. I did not take any pain meds once home.....

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    What I didn't know last week that I wished I had known.

    How hard it is to actually drink and eat 100 oz.'s daily.

    To check the sugar content before spending $100 on vitamins, softener's, protein supplements and to buy chewable and not something that needs to be crushed as they may taste bad!

    Head hunger.

    The surgery and post op pain was not existent except for the shoulder pain the first two days.

    Exactly what would be prescribed at discharge for the next 30 days before my first check up. Prior to discharge I had an opportunity to ask questions but thinking I would get what most other bloggers got did not ask surgeon. Talking to his nurse is not making me feel secure that I am getting the best advice and I am self medicating to prevent stomach ulcers.

    Looked into what foods to have to varied diet. Seems my diet from Mayo is much different than others. I think more lenient.

    Protein shakes really suck after three weeks.

    I produce enough gas to fill the Good Year Blimp every day.

    How full I stay from morning until I go to bed.

    That a meal would be considered 1/2 cup with 8 oz of skim milk.

  8. I was sitting on the subway while on my way home from work and a "normal" sized girl (wasnt skinny or fat)who looked about my age came and sat right next to me. I caught a glimpse of our reflection in the window across from me and I was surprised at what I saw. I didn't look bigger than her. We both looked like two regular sized girls. It was such a good feeling.

    I just moved from California to New Jersey, but I am working in NYC. this is such a great change,I honestly feel like I am getting anew start.

    As of today I am 209 lbs. I started out at 255 so as of right now I am 46 lbs down,I had my surgery November 19.

    This is truly amazing and I really do love this sleeve. I feel MYSELF again. I have a new found love of life,and it's just the beginning.

  9. I just created an account with this site, and mostly because I have just made two of the biggest changes in my life. I lived in Columbus Ga my entire life and on Feb. 18th 2014 I had Gastric Bypass. Everything was going great, until May 2014 my husband of almost 10 years and in the military and stationed in Fort Benning GA for 11 years received the orders that I dredded and knew would come. PCS orders. I was leaving the place I was born and raised and more importantly just had major surgery and was going to need the biggest support system for at least the first year. We moved, thank God, only 6 hours away to Fort Campbell KY in July 2014. I thankfully was able to continue eating healthy but with 3 kids and the move and my husband going away as soon as we got here to school for 2 months I didn't get much time to exercise. I have been able to continue to lose weight since ive been here and fortunately reached my goal weight of 135. but I realized in the past 2 months, starting November, I have been eating like my old self again. The holidays came and here without mom, brother, grandparents, etc really hit me hard. I have been eating cupcakes, cheesecakes, cookies (Otis spunkmeyers 100cal each!), and even been to krispy Kreme twice and had about 3 donuts over a few hours. This type of eating has put me in a deep depression. I eat these things in a frenzy and so fast to where im like getting it stuck and feeling uncomfortable because I tried to get it down so fast before I can even stop myself. I used to be like this, but in recent years have really put a lot of effort to think things through before I just shoved something in my mouth. I feel like I have really screwed up. I went for the first time to the assigned nutritionist here on post since ive been here and he told me I was eating way too much. That me eating a cup and sometimes a lil over that, at only 10 mos out at the time was terrible. that the most should be 3/4 of a cup. I have been trying to do that but if I don't measure and eat say eggs , like 2 of them I will eat something else like half an apple and before you know it im uncomfortable because im too full. I really need some good guidance. I don't want to be that patient, we all know that patient that lost so much weight and 3 years later full blown obese. Does anyone have any rituals they'd like to pass on or good advise? sorry for this extremely long, detailed book.

  10. blogentry-52788-0-29316700-1420692241_thEven though today was a "good day", I've stopped twice at Dairy Queen in the past week (it's on the main road in my little town), and eaten ice cream.

    And so I keep walking around thinking that I might be this way after I have surgery, I worry that I'll be one of "those people" that go through the pain of recovery, but don't change their habits and don't loose the weight.

    I know I've made huge improvements since starting this lifestyle, but gosh, why can't I just do it with full conviction and give it 100% effort?

    I've attached a photo of two shirts: the blue one is the size I've worn for years (2X). The green is one I bought on an Alaskan cruise in 2012 (we went on bike rides in all the ports). The green shirt is labeled XXLarge - HA HA HA! Someone's idea of a cruel joke?

    What ever. I just want to be able to FIT into the green shirt, I don't give a **** what size it says it is.

    2012 was such a good year for me fitness wise. But like so many things, I didn't finish what I started, so am I just programmed for failure?

    NO NO NO. Must not think this way. Must think positive. The past is just that - the past.

    I'm going to have slip-ups in the future, but they WILL be fewer and further in between.

    OK, I think I'm going to be okay.

  11. Within my dieting history, there has been an era of mindful eating. I had a mindful eating coach, books and ceremonial vessels. None of that intensity compares with my first week as a sleeved person. Even without hunger hormones, I am learning so much about my stomach, sure. More importantly I think, is the knowledge of how far I am willing to go to make the most nutritious ounces, the extra steps on my pedometer, both while lightheaded. I am a painter and my current canvas will surely have some bolder strokes.

    I know there will be bad days, but I am FINALLY mindful of every bite, and the yin yang of being present/long term consequences.

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    VolMommy
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    Well, I am less than a month from my surgery. Today I was looking at myself in the mirror, and thought here I am now weighing in at 246 lbs and I feel like a disgusting monster. Will I really be able to lose weight with this tool? I haven't seen successful weightloss since my son was born 5 years ago. I have tried it all... except bulimia and anorexia. I have learned that I am addicted to food, and I have been working on this for years. I am ready for this change, but I know it is going to be a hard road.

    I wonder how long it will be before I notice weight loss, I have such major body issues I can see that being a problem for me. I am sure I will never be happy with how I look, but it is something I am working on daily.

    I wonder if there is a group where spouses of those of us that have had surgery can go and learn. My husband does not understand, but I know that he wants to.

    I think that is what I will work on... finding information for him. Maybe if he is positive.....it will make me feel better.

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    Jilibird
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    I am about 10 years out.. 2 days ago I ate a orange and it got stuck as I call it and I threw it up.. I delt as tho I couldn't keep anything down yesterday.. I did eat a little bit but I didn't feel right and threw up again last night about 5 hours after I had eaten.. Today I feel a little better but not great.. I have been drinking a little but I just ate some cheese toast and it has stayed down but I felt like it wasn't.. Has anyone every has this happen.. I have thrown up quit a bit but this has never happend where I feel I can't eat 2 days later.. Thank u in advance..