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  1. its been a long time since ive been on here... I am up to 200 lbs again and trying to get control. carbs from food and beer have been the devil in my life lately and finding that none of my summer clothes fit this spring has been tough. I will be 3 years out end of july. I cant believe I let this happen! I am so dissappointed in myself! Back in XL tops to cover my muffin top sucks! Why is it so damn hard to eat healthy? I was doing so good. and then life flew by and here I am, regained 40+lbs. So here i am confessing, hoping it helps. Planning to get on here daily again, log on myfitness pal, and stop putting crap in my mouth. I read a few of my old blogs and just cried. still crying. I resolve to BE INTENTIONAL! I must remember NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS! How did I forget these things? How can I get back on track? Where is my willpower? I have to find it! Ill keep you posted...

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    Beckie
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    Has anyone heard of "pouch reset"? If so, does it work? I read an article on this and was thinking about trying it.

  2. Yesterday 5/3/15 was my 5 month post op. I am loving life. All the NSV and scale victories (even though those are slowing down).

    I have not decided my final goal weight yet. I thought I had, but I really dont want to look sick thin. I want to look think, but not sickly thin. That is why title states 20-30#s.

    I am wondering, since I am in slow mo with my weight loss, how did you lose those last lbs to make it to goal weight. I go to gym 3 times a week for 1 hr a day. I am in the middle of our corporate challenge events here at work. I run 5ks and 4 milers when i can.

    HW 256

    Pre op W 242

    SW 231

    CW 169

    GW 140-150

    Any suggestions would be greatfull.

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    Rona
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    Jeeeeez guys tell me that it goes away.. I'm in a private clinic and I can't even use the shower cause the smell in the private bathroom makes me gag... Not before the surgery though. I'm holding my little fluids down for everything i can whilst taking my clothes on and DUMBASS i put on a perfume.....

    And now I'm sitting with my head out the window writing this thing..

  3. So sorry I haven't been on or updating everyone! I got home yesterday and slept most of the day away. I am feeling pretty good today! Just a little bit of gas and muscle pain. Getting to learn my new stomach is harder than I though. I'm not even sure if I'm drinking too much or too little. I'm not attempting my protein shake yet cause it was causing stomach cramps pre surgery. So I'm just sticking to fairlife milk 2%. NUT wants 20 grams of protein and never really gave me a liquid goal. So I'm trying as much as possible!

  4. Well, I went to my 6 week check in since my lapband surgery. I have lost 20 pounds.

    My Dr. asked if I wanted to do an adjustment and said it was up to me.

    But, I have been doing well thus far.

    So, He said take it week by week. If I feel hungry more or stop losing. To come it and they will tighten it up.

    Bronchitus has put my activity level down lately. But, I am trying my hardest.

    If by Wed I haven't lost any more. I will have a fill.

    I'm nervous. Of course my only question.... Does it hurt?

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    So last week I hit the 50lbs down mark and wasn't the happiest with my prerogative, given that the week before (1 week post-op), I had dropped 10lbs in a week. The 3lbs that followed rounded me up to 50lbs and I was a little perturbed. This week I'm 4.2lbs down, closer to getting back on solid (or at least chewable) foods and am feeling a lot better. To cheer myself up with my 54.2lbs loss, I decided to look to see what I could compare for my weight loss.

    These things weight 50lbs each:

    - A small bale of hay

    - A big bag of dog food

    - A commercial bag of sugar

    - A small bag of cement

    - A case of potatoes

    - A case of rice

    - The average 6yr old

    - The average adult male bulldog

    - Two car tires

    - 10 - 5lb bags of sugar or flour

    - 6 Gallons of water

    - $200 in quarters

    50lbs of fat is:

    - 175,000 calories or the equivalent need for an adult male for between 70-87.5 days.

    - 22,680 grams of fat or the daily recommended value of 70 grams per day for 324 days.

    I feel a lot better now knowing that my lifestyle before was the equivalent of carrying around those things above on a daily basis. Granted not everything I probably lost was fat but its still amazing feeling the way I do. Now off to the gym!

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    I was 8 weeks post-op on Tuesday, the 7th. Since I started my pre-surgery liquid diet two weeks before surgery, I am down a total of 47 pounds...and today, for the first time in a long, long, long time I feel pretty. Granted I am still very overweight but I can see change and I feel change, and I have hope for my future. It's good to see my efforts pay off.

    Overall the last 8 weeks have gone well. I can tolerate most foods if eaten slowly, however I have had some episodes where I ended up sick, two of which were bad...first one was the shrimp I swallowed too quickly without chewing enough - OMG - that was horrible!! And then last week was the chicken wings my Hubs made. Must have been too much fat (butter) in the wing sauce and ranch dressing because I was really nauseous and had to go to bed right after dinner.

    All in all I can't complain. I'm grateful I have this opportunity to make my life better. I will not take it for granted and will work daily to reach my goals!!

    - Michelle (327 / 295 / 165)

  5. Well as of Monday, I am officially 6 mths post op. I'm down a whopping 68lbs too. Just minutes ago I realized I'm almost half way to my ideal body weight. The changes are so fast my mind just can't keep up. I've went from a tight 22 to a comfortable 14. Shirts were 3x and now L-XL. I can't look at clothes and determine if they fit right now. My mind can't comprehend my new size just yet. I hold it up and think "that's too small" and it either fits or is too big. I wore a skirt last week for the first time in probably 10 years! I'm loving all the changes but I still see the need for more. I'm ok with that too, it keeps me motivated. I'm admittedly uncomfortable with people gushing over the weight loss. Some even say I need to think about stopping. I pray it doesn't become a "you're too skinny" situation. Like most, my biggest regret is; not doing the surgery sooner. I wasted so much time being fat and miserable! I'll be 40 in about a month and I feel like I've been given my life back. If this is half way, I'm gonna be ecstatic when I hit goal! Everyday it's like there's something new I notice. I wonder if my mind will ever fully grasp the new me. This journey is awesome!

  6. Ok, so a week out and I'm feeling fine. Truth be told, I actually felt almost normal the day I left the hospital. Luckily, I can do the majority of my weekly job from a couch, or bed, or a chair...anywhere I have my laptop and wifi. So, I decided to stay home all week last week and rest, which was probably a good idea. It was even more difficult because I felt so good.

    It's funny- the two week liquid fast? Easy. Wasn't really a challenge and I didn't cheat once. But now, essentially being three weeks into a liquid fast, I am done with it. I want food. I don't mean junk food or anything bad- I just want some real food. A piece of meat, some chicken, a plum- I don't care. Just real food. Eating, even though I don't eat much right now, is so boring. I go to my first follow-up meeting tomorrow with my nutritionist and I know that my next phase is pureed, and I'm just praying that it's short...even though I know it's not.

    Onward and upward. I'm feeling good and ready to keep losing the weight.

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    Blog. Just the name makes me roll my eyes. You know what I am talking about. That vapid, self important person you overhear at Starbucks or at work, "Yeah, you should totally check out my blog, I review the latest chai-tea and compare it to my favorite." Yes, that person. I always looked at blogs as a very conceited thing. Who wants to read about other people? Who is so self absorbed that they really think other people want to know what they had for breakfast and how it compares to what they had last week? I certainly didn't think it was very important.

    Until now.

    What changed, you may ask?

    I actually read some blogs, then I watched some video-blogs (Vlogs?). I saw people giving advice, relating experiences and telling stories that were interesting. Not every blog is a self righteous clown spouting the latest trend and it's importance to the cultural feasibility of generation Y. Some of them are genuine people with things to say and experiences to relate.

    I hope I can be one of them. I'll try. But, if I post about the latest trend in anything but a sardonic manner, feel free to call me out on it!

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    Its been hard on me lately. From losing my job, my mom being put on disability and other personal issues I havent been making good choices. Im not in control of my food right now and its super hard and frustrating. My doctor wants me to lose 10-15 pounds before surgery and it seems impossible to even do that. All ive done is eat and eat and eat. I almost did well today and then got carried away. Im tired of my life being about food and it determining how i feel about myself. I wish that I were strong enough to just get through this but i feel like im not and today just made everything feel a lot harder. im afraid to weigh myself because more than i fear having made no progress i fear that Ive gone backwards and gained weight. I wish i didnt have to think about food all the time, i wish eating wasnt a big life struggle where i win or lose against it, i wish that i could just eat a tiny plate of food and be alright with myself instead of having to eat and eat and eat and then feel bad about myself. None of this is fun and im so very tired of dealing with this. I feel like im a child whining but its hard for me not to complain when i feel so overwhelmed and like i just cant do anything right in regards to my weight. it makes me scared that i wont get this surgery and if i do scared that ill mess up and not lose the weight. Im really worried and frustrated and feel like im stuck. sigh.

  7. WooHoo I am definitely off the dreaded plateau big time. When I posted my last blog I had lost 2 pound 1 week 7 the next and just last week I lost a whopping 11 pounds. I am so happy the weight is coming off again. Plus it looks like I will hit my 1st goal by the time I go to my knee Dr. to see about surgery approval.

  8. i just would like to get this out as a simple observation. there have been some things that i've seen that have bothered me to a certain extent. and i'd like to clear the air here before things continue to get out of hand.

    as you can see from my stats, i am a new sleever, still in the honeymoon period. i came to thinner times as a pre-op back in august. (ba dum bum) i lurked and observed until i finally joined in. i've been obese all of my life. so i was nervous, and scared about surgery... but excited.

    i started to ask questions. i got honest, truthful answers. and not once (with the exception of a bacon incident) did i step out of line. because i knew that there are people here who have the same struggles, have been through similar circumstances, but come out on top - lose the weight and KEEP it off, because they're willing to work.

    now i know i'm not perfect. and i haven't agreed with everything that some have said on this forum. but i also know that i'm not a veteran at this. i still have a long way to go, and the veterans here have been kind enough to share their experiences and offer advice, which is what this forum is for.

    so i just have a few words of advice for all you newbies.

    - please don't talk back or cause a scene. whether you agree with what someone is saying or not, this is not a forum for name-calling or backhanded comments. we are a team here. there isn't a competition. if someone is being up front and direct with you, it's because they're trying to help.

    - follow your doctor's plan. none of us here are surgeons, but 9x out of 10 you were given a program before you signed up for surgery. and i can probably tell you that your long-term plans goes something like this: protein and veggies first. measure everything. drink tons of water. stay away from sodas and other carbonated beverages. keep carbs and sugar low. stay away from bread, rice, and pasta. take your vitamins. and if you feel like it - exercise. you don't have to if you don't want, but if you do - go for it. follow your guidelines to a T. if you're stalling, there's a reason for it. be honest with us and yourself.

    - remain humble and willing to listen. there's a reason you're here. and there's a reason that you're obese. if you knew everything, you wouldn't be here.

    - YOU WILL STALL DURING THE FIRST 3-4 WEEKS POST-OP. i cannot stress this enough. IT IS NORMAL.

    - no matter what we here on the boards have to say, it is up to YOU to lose the weight.

    that's all i have, really.

  9. It's not til April 24. I know how slowly the wheels of medicine turn. I live it everyday. Still I am surprised at how long it took to get an appointment. If I had seen the other surgeon in the group the wait wouldn't have been as long but he isn't up to par with Dr. Moon. He's the one. I'm in a fortunate position to have seen both of these surgeons as a nurse and in a professional capacity. The wait may not be what I want but it is definitely the best thing to do. I have already started making changes so I feel confident that I can succeed in this journey. Training for my first 5K... what was I thinking?!? Oh, well I already paid the entrance fee so it's happening :)

  10. Do me a favor everyone. Please. Hug your loved ones around you. Call your loved ones you live away from. Connect. Re-connect. Tell them you love them. And really mean it!

    *sigh*

    I think I've come on here 7-8 times in the past 2 weeks, trying to make this entry. I get the title in. I get 4-5 sentences in. And then I just can't continue. I'm going to push past the 4-5 sentences now. I don't promise it's going to be coherently written.

    Saturday, February 28th, my beautiful 29 year old sister, Nicole, took her own life.

    There. I said it.

    We know how. We're about 90% sure we know why. She left a letter to my Mom & Dad. And she left a letter for our baby sister. We've found other evidence. And, while we know the why, we still just don't understand. I don't think we'll ever understand.

    Your little sister isn't supposed to die before you. Especially when she has so much good in her life.

    *deep breath* Reel it in, GA!

    I am struggling. I am angry. I am hurt. I am lost. I feel guilt. It's a never ending cycle.

    I am currently searching for a therapist to talk to. Or a support group. Hard to find one that's not religious based.

    Anyway, my whole point of this entry was to ask you to please love your family. Even if you're so mad at them you could spit nails. Keep in touch with them. LOVE them and let them know you love them!

  11. Yesterday, I competed in my first powerlifting meet -- a push (bench press) pull (deadlift) competition here in Portland, Oregon. I have been working out with a personal trainer for about a year now, but decided to compete after watching a meet here in PDX in mid-January.

    Me with my trainer between the bench press and deadlift attempts.

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    My results were:

    - 2 of 3 good lifts on bench, hit my PR of 115

    - 3 of 3 good lifts on deadlift, set a new PR of 131

    - won my weight/age class for deadlift (I was the only one in it :))

    - set a world record in my weight/age class for push/pull (combined deadlift + bench) -- this is a new class in this federation and I think I'm the first one in my weight/age class to compete in it :)

    The bench press is the first event and I feel it is my weaker lift. I was really nervous going into this -- I hadn't lifted all week (per the advice I've read online). I was afraid I couldn't even lift my opener (99 pounds). Once I started warming up, I felt much better. 100 pounds felt like nothing. I hit my opener with no problems. I decided to go up to my PR (personal record) of 115 for my second lift. They help you get the bar off the rack and you hold it up and then lower it to your chest. Once it is stationary on your chest, the judge says "bench" and you push it up. Then, you have to wait for the judge to say "rack" to rack the bar. I raced the judge on the rack command, but they gave it to me :) and so that counted. For my third lift, I got ambitious and went up 5kg to 126 pounds. I tried and fought the good fight, but I could not press it. I am pretty sure I could have pressed 121 pounds.

    I feel much stronger in deadlift. I chose an opener I could easily hit -- 198 pounds -- and made it easily. For my second lift, I chose my PR -- 225 pounds and made it. Having learned from my bench press experience :), I chose to only increase 2.5kg for my last lift and made a new PR of 231 pounds.

    The awards ceremony went on almost longer than the competition :). There were a lot of lifters in a lot of categories. I was the only woman in the 54-60, 198 pound deadlift class, so I got first place. I was also the only woman, and I believe the first woman in this federation, to compete in the push-pull class, so not only did I get first place, I got a world record. For my two first places, I got two samuri swords. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with them -- maybe display them over the fireplace? :) Someone made a snarky comment about getting a world record with only 346 pounds, but I didn't know I was going to get a record when I entered. I am excited to see how strong I can become, but mostly I am doing this to keep challenging myself. I love backpacking and skiing, but I can't do that every day. I can lift weights 3-4x/week and it is something that challenges me.

    I've been training with a personal trainer at my local "big box" gym. She's great and has definitely helped me a lot this past year, but she is not a powerlifter. There is some technique involved in powerlifting (especially in bench press and squat, which wasn't an event in this meet but will be in future meets). There's also a body of knowledge around "programming" -- how much you should lift and how many reps/sets -- to get stronger. I've contacted a couple of local power/weight-lifting gyms/coaches in the area to see if I can get some more specific coaching/training. The gym I work out at currently is very convenient -- it is 5 minutes from my job and about 15 minutes from my house -- but none of the trainers are powerlifters.

    For anyone that has read this far :) and is intrigued, I would encourage you to check out a powerlifting competition in your area. For the most part (except for that one snarky comment), it is a very supportive environment, especially for newbies. It is exciting to see people challenge themselves, especially (I think) the women and girls. There were girls as young as 12, women as old as 85-89, disabled (blind) women, small women (112 pounds), and large women (200+ pounds).

    Based on what I learned from my endocrinologist post-surgery, I wouldn't recommend heavy lifting until you are out of the "honeymoon" phase and have leveled off your weight. While he did want me doing resistance training daily or every other day to minimize the loss of lean body mass, he did not want me exercising heavily -- again to minimize the loss of LBM. For sure, you should not start lifting any weights post-surgery until you are cleared by your doctor.

    I named this blog "reclaiming my life" because I was hopeful I would be able to do things I had been able to do previously. But, I've done so much more post-surgery -- including this competition. I am so grateful for my health and what I've been able to do these past two years. None of us know how much time we have in life -- I hope to set records in the 95+ age category :) -- but I am so grateful for today and feel so blessed.

  12. Weighed Monday, and I have made it to 167. That's 12 lbs away from my high school weight of 155. Wow, I have to say that my body doesn't look like it did back in high school. LOL. I'm really having a hard time wrapping my mind around all this. In my mind, I am still holding on to those larger numbers when I try to remember what I weigh now. Someone asked what I weigh now, and I told them 176 before it dawned on me that I weigh 167. Will I ever be able to wrap my mind around it?

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    Today I am exactly one day out of VSG surgery. I have only lost 10lbs. I am really trying, I never eat to much. Am I doing something wrong?

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    Today is my two month anniversary since surgery. Happy 2 month bday to my tummy!

    I will celebrate by cleaning out my closet! Out with the old in with the new!

  13. I actually feel super guilty about not being here!! I guess I should seriously update...well I started at 218lbs, had my surgery July 2nd 2014 and my current weight is 123lbs!! yay! I still eat very little,but I try to eat consistently. I am now trying to maintain this weight, although I am so short they say I could be smaller, I am amazed at where I am and very comfortable. Ummm health issues? all previous issue Gooooone! all meds? Goooone....I am so sorry for not being a better blogger :( but I wanted everyone to know I couldnt be happier with the choice I made to do this!. I am still in a state of disbelief I think. I looked at myself for the first time in the mirror today and was like OMG my stomach looks flat in clothes now(I do have loose skin issues, sooo booo)! what the heck is that all about! I guess this whole time...just like before surgery I just never REALLY look at myself, but now that I finally did again...woohoo! lol thank you all again for your support and sharing your stories, they helped so much along the way and I wanted everyone to know that I didn't just disappear and I truly couldn't have gotten through all of my pre-surgery issues and jitters without this site and these ppl!

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    I was sleeved 2/24/15. My period started two days later. I still have it. I usually don't have it because I has an IUD. I don't know if I should be worried and call mt GYN!?!? Has this happen to anyone???

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    So excited! I have lost 30 lbs so far from surgery almost 7 wks ago. I haven't been here for years and I am 1.5 lbs from One-derland!

  14. It's been 1 year since surgery. I WAS down 70 lbs until surgery on ovarian tumor back in Oct. After surgery I didn't listen and got on the scale after a week post op and had gained 13 lbs. I WAS SHOCKED! I called the Dr and he said it was due to all the fluids and gas they pumped me with. It took longer for me to heal that I thought it would. It took about 3 weeks at least. I eventually lost the 13 and got back to where I was. Which then put me right into the Holidays..... NEED I SAY MORE. I caved! I starting eating more and not focussing on the healthier foods. I let mashed potatoes, breads, rice, sweets creep back into my life. I SUCK!

    By January first I had gained 5 lbs. I was told by many that 5 lbs isn't nothing thru the holidays...but it was to me. I knew I wouldn't make MY GOAL of reaching 90 lb loss from surgery in a yr. (My year was Feb 7th) I am currently at a loss of 65 lbs. due to that darn gain. UGHH!

    I feel hungrier than I have in a long time...not sure why. I am ready to get refocussed on my losing and getting healthier each day.

    I tell myself all the time----- PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!!! That's what my Dr tells me. I try picking things that I have lots of protein but still allow me to eat whenever I feel the urge. Like I said I feel hungry and do not believe it is head hunger. I usually tend to grab a cheese stick, greek yogurt, or sometimes fruit....strawberries or lil' cutie because they are lower in calories. I will on occasion grab a protein shake but---even though loaded with protein they use up so much of my calories for the day. So, in that since, I tend to not grab those as often. I LOVE my protein shakes!! But once you've added the two scoops of powder and skim milk it's like 300 calories. Then I go into panic mode ...thinking "dang, I ONLY have 1,000 left for the entire day)

    I will totally admit, I stopped my walking program....was doing great until surgery in Oct., then wasn't aloud to exercise for 6 weeks due to healing. Then Holidays got busy and rain and cold. Excuses excuses!!!! :( Know matter what it was, I wasn't walking!!! I know that was a big part of my success and need to start back up with it again. JUST DO IT, MELISSA!!!!

    As for the eating....why am I craving carbs and sweets again?

  15. Hello everyone!

    In need of some advice. I have hit another plateau. Been fluxuation the same 3lbs for the past month. Also i fractured my coccyx and it is irritating my sciatic nerve VERY badly.

    Sitting,laying,walking, coughing, and even deep breaths hurt. I am currently in physical therapy to try and get this problem under control, but i am trying to hit Onederland by the first week of june ( roughly 32 lbs).

    Is it possible? Have any of you had this experience? Please give me your advice it is greatly appreciated. Im ready to have the BEST summer of my life, my body just isn't :(