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    Hello Everyone,

    I am new here and still new to this whole surgery process. I feel like my life is just a movie right now and that I am not in it just watching it. I have been on a liquid diet from my doctor for 27 days today and I have lost 27 pounds.

    My doctor wanted my to lose weight before surgery.

    This have been really hard and being diabetic it messed with my meds. at first. I was on 3 diabetic meds. and now am off of two of them.

    I work two jobs and go to college. I am having a hard time keeping up my strength to do it all right now.

    I am getting about 600 cals. a day and that has taken so getting used to.

    I know it will all be worth it in the end I just wish I could fast fast forward these next 6 days.

    Thanks for listening.

    Amy :unsure::wacko:

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    Tomorrow starts the beginning of my sixth week post-op. I'm feeling good physically… am on track with my weight loss, even though I've plateaued for a while.

    I had someone ask me today if I was proud of myself for the accomplishments that I've made thus far. I couldn't answer that. I said I thought that I was "brave" - but I don't know that I could use the word "proud". At least not yet. Ask me that once I've hit my goal and maintained it for year. Somewhere in the back of my mind is still the fear that this won't work for me or that the fix will be temporary and I will end up gaining my weight back. I feel strong and determined yet I know the reality is that only I can make sure that I'm successful with this process.

    Hitting the sixth week… I've learned that as I start to be able to add in new things to my diet, not all of it HAS to be diet food. (Meaning my stomach can tolerate things I didn't think it would.) I still can't take more than about four bytes of solid food, but my question is this…

    When you were just starting out on this journey, once you could start to tolerate it, did you ever have a bite of a casserole? A spoon of whipped cream? A chip or two? I know there's still a lot that I'm not "supposed" to have yet but I've discovered that just because I'm not supposed to have it doesn't mean that I am physically unable. It's a new realization - and it scares me. I'm just being honest. I'm not looking to self sabotage or to go off of the plan my doctor provided, but many years of failed attempts are in the back of my mind.

    Please be kind in your response. I've done the extensive pre-work… I continue to see a counselor etc. I just could use testimony or some advice from someone who's been through it ahead of me.

  1. Haven't written here for a while because now I'm on automatic pilot: drinking water, getting in the protein and veggies, exercising pretty much daily (walks, water aerobics and lifting). I'm getting stronger and more fit. Weight loss is slower now, but that's as expected. Something like half a pound a week. Consistency means success to me, so I just keep plugging along. I did a meditation retreat over the July 4th holiday that was awesome, and am going to an emotional eating support group. The tendency to turn to food hasn't left, but it's not as ever-present as prior to surgery.

    This cartoon captures what sometimes goes through my head when the scale doesn't match my agenda (got to let go of that):tumblr_m5q6oyABkd1rqo1kco1_500.jpg

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    I am wondering how to have the conversation with work about missing time for appointments and the surgery. I don't really want them knowing all my health information. I don't know how long to expect to be out of work either so I have nothing definitive to tell them yet. how did you handle it?

  2. After thoroughly studying my weight loss chart for a pattern, I've come to the conclusion that there is no pattern and I'm okay with that. Not going to let the weeks when I only lose 0.2 lbs bother me because a loss is a loss and I know that there's always the possibility that I'll have a week like this one where I lost 3.9 lbs--internally FREAKING OUT as I type that!!!!! I'm 15 lbs away from my absolute lowest teen/adult weight and I'm so excited by the progress I've made. Thank you guys for being such an amazing source of support and information. I'd be lost without you!

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    NewMeIn2-15
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    It's my first time trying soft foods. It's also my two weeks since surgery. Re fried beans is my first treat of choice. They have never tasted so good! That said.... It's taken me an hour and a half to eat half a cup. Oh boy....

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    My surgery date was June 16, 2015… It's been 12 days. I knew it was going to be rough in the beginning, but I wasn't exactly ready for the pain that was involved with surgery. I'm past that stage now, and really that only lasted about four or five days. I was off the pain medicine after six days… And went back to work part time after one week. I'm planning to start back full-time to work on Monday… Just two weeks after surgery.

    So far this is been quite an adventure. I feel different. Mentally my head is in a different space… Hopeful and encouraged. Physically, it's so different to not feel hunger and really not want to eat. I had my first post op appointment. All is well with the exception that I need to be getting in more fluids. In addition to that we're going through a heat wave and fluids are even that much more important right now. The last thing I want to do is get dehydrated. I read in one blog or post somewhere that someone said "this is the easiest yet hardest thing I've ever done". I think that's the most profound statement about this whole thing.

    I can't believe I'm already 12 days out. I'm through the initial difficult time after surgery, and now I am trying to get used to my new sleeve. It's a whole new way of thinking and eating. Actually I'm not really eating yet I'm just drinking. On July 1 I will be able to start introducing soft foods. Most of my focus is on actually trying to get enough fluids and protein for the day. It's so weird to eat so little and not feel like I'm starving. I'm still thankful to be off of sugar and no longer drinking soda. That in itself is a miracle. I've noticed that since I've been off soda I no longer have migraines which is a huge blessing. I hope and pray this is the beginning of many of the blessings from the surgery.

    One thing I noticed yesterday is my whole mentality of dieting in the past & the influence it has as I look towards this new way of eating and drinking with my sleeve, Even with as much as I'm drinking or not drinking I still have in my head less is more. I know that's not correct. It's just a mental thing I need to overcome in trying to be healthy instead of necessarily focused on losing weight. I know the Weight will come off as a result of taking care of my sleeve the right way. It's such a mental and physical change.

    Day 12 finds me optimistic… Curious… Hopeful… Excited. I can't believe it's already been 12 days. So far I have Lost 17 pounds in the first 12 days. Unbelievable.

  3. It's been a while since I have been on TT and its been a while since I have blogged.

    The last post I made was when I got the news I was approved for my wls . I was so excited and happy but like always for me things took a weird turn. I kept waiting to get the phone call, that never came, so I went back to my pcp and what was going on? I got told that the insurance paperwork had been mis sent and they had to re send it.So I waited some again and another month , I go back and ask again whats going on and I get told by my Dr.s assistant that she did send the info and so I called the surgeons office and they tell me they NEVER recieved the info.UGH at this point I was like somebody isnt telling the truth.Finally , I go back to see my doctor in May 2015 and he asks how my surgery went and I'm like it never happened and explained the run around I was given and he got upset questioned his assistant and finally the truth came out , that the surgeon no longer takes my insurance! So it happens now, I have switched insurances and I am waiting to try again. I am so frustrated and angry and disappointed that this happened. All the time spent getting tests done and going to NUT (paying out of pocket for nut) just to have it wasted and have to start all over again, I almost have given up, almost. I am trying to look at this in a positive light but, it aint been easy.

  4. I have made it to two months post-op. 35 lbs down since surgery, and almost 75 lbs down since beginning this journey on August 1, 2014. Well, a little past that. I have had some slow weeks, some weeks not losing, some days losing big. It is definitely a process. I am finally finding the real me again, and she wants to come out and live life! I am exploring new activities, opening up to people more, and living life more fully, and for that, the surgery already counts as a success! I ordered a dress for my vow renewal event in September. I was nervous, and really guessed at the size I would need, since the event is two and a half months away. I ordered two sizes smaller than I am now. Now that it's here, I'm only a size and a half away from that dress. Good news is, I can get it on, zipped and everything. There are lumps and bumps that need to melt away, but trying to get the thing on isn't laughable, as it would have been just months ago. It is a gorgeous dress, and I am so looking forward to looking gorgeous in it. It is stunning, and forgiving of many different body flaws, and It's everything I hoped it would be when I first laid eyes on it on-line, and took a leap of faith buying it.

    My food intake has increased to a level I can live with. I have enough energry to go about my day, with some left over for intense spin workouts or long walks. I have many things to work on still. Even though I know it is an issue of mine, I still haven't mastered patient and mindful eating. Too many of my meals are eaten on the fly, running out the door to drop the kids off at school then into work just making it on time. Or a string cheese or boiled egg snarfed down in the car on my way to a Dr. appointment over my lunch hour. I am sometimes making my stomach a little unhappy by eating too fast, or too much, when some mindfulness during meals would be a cure to that problem. I have a hard time slowing down, and appreciating the fuel I'm putting into my body. I've been telling myself for weeks to stop multitasking while eating, and have done nothing to actually make a move toward doing it. The things that save me are the fact that I no longer have the serious cravings for sweets/junk/fast food like I did before, and I no longer have the space to eat too much of anything. At least the food choices I'm making on the fly are more or less "safe."

    I am beginning to see my world opening up again. I have classes I'd like to take and hobbies I'd like to resume. I want to take fly-fishing lessons with my sons. I want to go to the climbing gym. I want to get tattooed. I want to jump out of an airplane. I want to go on a date with my spouse that isn't just dinner and a movie. I want to go backpacking. I want to go kayaking. I want to explore more of my world, both urban and wild. And I have already done many things I wouldn't have dreamt of doing in my 260 lb. body. I went on an airplane and didn't have to pray the seatbelt would fit. I tried paddleboarding for the first time. I wore a swimsuit at Lake Tahoe in front of people, without a cover-up. I bought a skirt, and wear it just because it's comfortable. I don't want to just exist, I want to truly live life. And for the first time in many years, I feel alive and happy. I have lost and gained a LOT of weight over the years, but this is the first time in my adult life that I am actually hopeful that real, permanent change can be mine, and I am seeing the weight that kept me from really living fully for so long melt away like snow in the sun. Likewise, the cloud of depression and guilt that has followed me around for many years off and on, is also melting away as I turn toward the sun.

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    helpimfat
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    I have a blog on tumblr, which you can view here: http://cutefatcute.tumblr.com/

    It has a bit more info about me as well as a lot of whining. :cool:

  5. NewMeIn2-15
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    My surgery is this coming Tuesday. Nervous isn't the right word. Hopeful..... Maybe that's it. Of course I'm nervous also but it feels like a new chance at life. It also feels little like gambling. I mean-there's a chance I'm going to win the jackpot as I put in the hard work and use the tool how it's intended. But there's still the small voice from the doubters that makes me worry- what if I go thru all this and still fail. I know I have done the hard work to get here. Just look ahead and not back. Tuesday is coming. Saturday (today) I have blocked to just get ready. Clean house-run errands-get groceries (shakes, sf Popsicles, etc) - woke up early but sit here not sure where to start. I can do this. It WILL be ok. This is my chance. It's all led up to this & my future is bright - I just know it. Here we go.

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    Hello, just had gastric sleeve June 2, 2015 and I'm trying to build a menu to get me through the summer barbeques. I was wondering if anyone has options for me.

    I usually eat MorningStar balck bean beggie burgers or the chicken has anyone had experience?

    How about "rice crackers" with avocado or mango??

    shitake Noodles?

    Thanks.

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    I am one of those people who must weigh daily, no it doesn't make me crazy, but it is something that I am afraid if I don't do I will get out of control and gain.

    My pattern has been that I will drop 3-4 lbs in a week then stall out for a week. When I stall I stay the same weight for that week. This past Monday I weighed in at 163.3, since I have bounced in the 163 point something range, the last two days 163.8. I have recognized this pattern, yet the stalls still cause me to fear failure.

    I know a lot of people would kill to be 163, but for me at 5 ft 2 in I am just barely in the over weight range, at 164 I would be obese. I am really hoping to lose 30-35 more lbs to put me around 130, which is a healthy BMI. My mom says that due to my fat being spread out and not centralized in one spot that I don't look 163, yet I am.

    I am currently 5 months and 10 days post op, so people who have had WLS that I will continue to lose. Yet, I am so scared of not making it to my goal weight. I wear a size 10/12 depending on the cut, so I know I have gone down sizes (have been as large as a 22), but it just isn't enough. When I look in the mirror I see a change, but I still tell myself I am fat.

    It is like I am just out there searching for validation that I am not fat and will make it, yet when people say I will I fear they are wrong. I have been overweight since I was 5 years old and it is so hard to lose that mind set.

    Maybe I need therapy.

  6. Today, I am 184.6 lbs. I am down an amazing 67.4 lbs since 2/24/15. I feel so good and I am only just past the halfway mark. Guess what I did the other day...I crossed my legs! That is only one thing I can do again, but it is HUGE. I got into a size 14 and although it was a little snug, I managed to button and snap them STANDING UP. No lying on my bed to do it. Again, HUGE. The tide has turned and I am more lean muscle than fat. I know I am eventually going to slow down and in fact, I have some weeks with little to no loss. I only loss .2 last week, but I also lost nearly 2% body fat. That means more fat burn and more weight loss after. I now have a visible jawline, neck and shoulders. I have shoulders! LOL I have an actual shape that resembles an hourglass...still a bit bigger than what I will end up with but it is there, my friends.

    I do have a few issues I am currently dealing with, but I knew going in, that there is always a price to be paid. I am still having difficulty with solids. Some days, all I can handle are shakes and yogurt. Other days, I am fine with most solids. It is unpredictable and I end up with this sensation of having eaten a bowling ball and so nauseous, that throwing up is preferable and I am not a fan of that. So, for the time being, I am sticking to the easy to digest thick liquids stage, and hoping for the best maybe a month down the road. The most important thing to remember is protein, water, and enough calories to fuel my daily workouts.

    The other issue is this funky taste I get in my mouth. It seems to originate from down below and comes up my throat and fills my mouth with a metallic, alkaline, weird taste...hard to describe. It is rather unpleasant. A friend of mine says she dealt with both issues earlier on in her post op days and they went away. I am hoping mine is short lived.

    Aside from those two things though...,and one is avoidable, even if the alternative kind of sucks too...I am doing well. I am no longer using my CPAP!!! That, alone, is cause for celebration. =)

    The picture is actually a few weeks old. That blouse not only used to be small on me, but I was testing the strength of those buttons! LOL Not anymore. I also had to get rid of my jeans as they all kept falling off. Not down...OFF. Whoops! LOL

    Only 64.6 lbs to go!!!

  7. It took me all of 10 months to get down to the size where my body said stop. By Oct 2014, I was 135 and that's where I've been for the past few months. my original goal was somewhere in the ball park of 125 - 130. I picked this number because that's where I see most people that started at my height and around the same size. my doctors goal for me was around 140.

    For several months I was happy with 135 and I did what I needed to do to maintain that weight.

    3 weeks ago my husband says he wants to do low carb for a while in effort to lose about 10lbs. He started at around 208. He is an active military solider and is within his weight limit, however, he does have a nice round belly. Low carb will help flatten that out. His eating habits could use some improvement as well. So I introduced him to my world. No more white flour, no processed foods, no high sugar items, no soda, no fried foods... etc. We have been doing low carb together now for almost 3 weeks with the occasional break for weekends. I have started tracking our intake and have limited him to 100 - 150g of carbs a day. Higher protein then he's used to.

    I didn't have intentions of losing weight during this process just being more mindful of my intake to support his changes, but in doing so I have jump started the loss process again. When I noticed the scale moving, I thought wow, my body is O.K. with more lose. Now I have set my mind to lose a total of 5lbs. not a big deal at all. Who notices 5lbs.

    Well 5lbs on a person of my "body type" might be a huge difference. My weight for the last 5 days has been rotating between 131.2 - 132.6. I'm happy that it is not 135 - 137 anymore but I set my goal to 130 and it is ticking me off.

    I know I have lost inches and my size 2 jeans are getting looser. When I see my belly in the mirror, I can see my ribs, followed by a bunch of loose skin around my mid section. I have a lean muscular frame with a 19% body fat which is considered below average. I should be ecstatic.....

    Why am I freaking out about 1lb. Why is it so important to me that the scale reads 130 or lower. I am determined to see that number on the scale and will not allow our "diet" to stop until I get to goal. But at what point does this mental block become a concern?

    Hubby is at 200 now BTW and he wants the scale to read below 200 as well and is just as determined. He loves his new eating habits and I believe he will be more aware of what he puts in his body from now on. He says he feels cleaner and has more energy. He's asked for at least 1 more week of this diet which of course I am happy to do since I don't eat most of the stuff he used to consume anyway. It just makes my life easier to not have to worry about what starch to put on his plate.

    I want him to be happy and healthy and would love for him to be more fit.

    Im still being healthy (as in not being malnourished). Im eating less then 100g a day of carbs. At least 100g a day of protein. My fat intake is @45g. My calorie intake is @ 1000 a day. I know most post ops think this is too much but I am also very active and walk at least 4 miles a day. So since im doing the right thing... is really that bad that my body is losing weight in the process? Is it really that bad that I have cut out the bad things that I had let back in? My NUT would say no.... but my ribs!! Ahhhh..

    Thoughts....

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    Whew, my last few weeks have definitely been a challenge at work. I am having to learn to trust, both in my professional life and personal/physical health. The stress seems to be taking a toll on my health...I have a horrible case of bronchitis, I am sure this has been worsened by both the stress and my insurance refusing to refill a prescription for my moderate (good days) to severe (bad days) chronic asthma medication. They will fill the rescue inhaler but not the corticosteroid. So very frustrating.

    Though this new season has some rough edges, I am looking for the silver lining. I want to find my lesson in all this and I think it is trust, learning to trust. Not man but God. He is bring my faith to a new depth.

    The flip side of this is that my blood pressure is way down my Cpap is no longer needed. I weigh less than I have in the past 24 years! So exciting and rewarding!

    Growing is not easy, but it is rewarding, this is a season of growth for me, in so many ways...Ill take it, cant wait to see where I land!

  8. Just checking in, this weight loss process is just that, a PROCESS. The surgery is NOT the goal, the liquid diet never really goes away and exercise is somewhat essential.

    Here is what I have learned:

    1) I can't catch a break, I must count, measure, and select correct foods ALWAYS.

    2) Exercise would help things go quicker, but I still have not been able to embrace the gym, I do like to ride bikes.

    3) Red meat is very difficult to digest, it actually causes a strange sensation and takes about an hour to go away

    4) Macaroni is out of the question, oh how i miss Mac and Cheese. Cheese is pretty much off the menu too

    5) Most fast food places are just not worth the trouble, strangley enough, French Fries are the easiest to eat, but who wants those calories?

    6) Menapause is a #*%$#, my skin is dry and it interferes with weight loss, I have to work harder, Morel of the story, do it while you are YOUNG

    7) Becaues of Menapause, the skin is not going back, the more I lose, the worse the melting candle looks. Again, do it while you are YOUNG

    8) I am not longer diabetic, but I still have to select correct foods

    9) I fell off the weight loss wagon more than once and got a lecture from my doctor GET IN A SUPPORT SYSTEM. So I joined weight watchers and finally settled down to the reality of the situation.

    10) I am now faced with cosmetic surgery.

    Regrets: getting the EVIL band in the beginning, it was a useless idiotic choice and only delayed things. I had revision to a SLEEVe and yet I wonder if I would have done better with BYPASS. We ALL have that discuss in the back of our minds, what if?? So play the cards you have. Eat LESS and get busy focusing on other things to do. The WORLD of Karen no longer revolves around FOOD.

    Now i am planning for plastic surgery, tummy tuck and breast lift. It is very big surgery. My top weight was 240ish, and now I am 161 and those 80 pounds did a number on my body. I realize people here have lost way more and look fabulous, but I don't. So I am going to do something about it.

    I still have other goals, desires and wishes. I still wish on stars believe that things just may all WORK OUT in the end. thanks for reading, Karen

  9. Hi All,

    My name is Cathy, I am in my thirties weigh 95kg - 170cm tall. I don't have huge amounts to loose and although my BMI isn't enough to qualify me, the fact that I had gestational diabetes allows me to have surgery.

    I had the band put in by Dr Justin Bessell at Adelaide Obesity Surgery, in November 2013. Can you believe that I have actually gained 2 kilos since then.

    I have had many adjustment's - putting more fluid in, then taking it out and this has been going on and on and on...

    When I have my period, the band feels so tight and cant eat much at all, then for the other 3 weeks of the month it is too loose and I eat too much.

    I went back today, and they agree that this has not worked for me mainly due to my hormone levels.

    Dr Bessell isn't a huge fan of the Sleeve - he doesn't like the idea of throwing out a huge portion of your stomach, which is something that concerns me as well.

    The Bypass does sound good, but it scares me a lot.

    I would love to hear your feedback on this.

    Thanks

    Cathy

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    Things I will not miss...

    Being the biggest girl in the room

    Feeling shame and embarrassment about the way I look

    Not being able to bend over and touch my toes

    Feeling full

    Binge eating

    Struggling to get out of a chair

    Back pain, leg pain, joint pain

    Not being able to touch all my parts

    Using a sleep apnea machine

    Taking meds for high BP, cholesterol

    Being out of breath walking from a parking lot

    BEING FAT!

    On to the next chapter...

    PS The one thing I do like about myself are my ankles. I've made it this far without having KANKLES. So if you check me out, start there. hahaha

  10. I've lost 60 lbs. Some days the scale will be up a pound or two. Bad scale? Water weight? It gets frustrating when I hear others have lost more in the same amount of time. Am I doing something wrong?

  11. I can't believe it's only been 9 weeks. I still vomit occasionally and have woken up in the middle of the night to vomit- there doesn't seem to be anything in particular that sets it off.

    I have sublingual Zofran and it helps, but I worry I will get esophageal erosion if this doesn't stop. I still get diarrhea and gave just resolved to accept that as my new normal. Anything I have tried to treat the diarrhea only makes me extremely constipated and more miserable. The weight is coming off slowly now. I don't know how much is normal but I eat my proteins and supplements and get my fluids, but I can't always get the recommended amounts thanks to the vomiting.

    I have discussed all this with my PCP but I don't think she knows why I am having these issues, either.

    At least I'm still losing.

  12. its been a long time since ive been on here... I am up to 200 lbs again and trying to get control. carbs from food and beer have been the devil in my life lately and finding that none of my summer clothes fit this spring has been tough. I will be 3 years out end of july. I cant believe I let this happen! I am so dissappointed in myself! Back in XL tops to cover my muffin top sucks! Why is it so damn hard to eat healthy? I was doing so good. and then life flew by and here I am, regained 40+lbs. So here i am confessing, hoping it helps. Planning to get on here daily again, log on myfitness pal, and stop putting crap in my mouth. I read a few of my old blogs and just cried. still crying. I resolve to BE INTENTIONAL! I must remember NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS! How did I forget these things? How can I get back on track? Where is my willpower? I have to find it! Ill keep you posted...

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    Has anyone heard of "pouch reset"? If so, does it work? I read an article on this and was thinking about trying it.

  13. Yesterday 5/3/15 was my 5 month post op. I am loving life. All the NSV and scale victories (even though those are slowing down).

    I have not decided my final goal weight yet. I thought I had, but I really dont want to look sick thin. I want to look think, but not sickly thin. That is why title states 20-30#s.

    I am wondering, since I am in slow mo with my weight loss, how did you lose those last lbs to make it to goal weight. I go to gym 3 times a week for 1 hr a day. I am in the middle of our corporate challenge events here at work. I run 5ks and 4 milers when i can.

    HW 256

    Pre op W 242

    SW 231

    CW 169

    GW 140-150

    Any suggestions would be greatfull.

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    Rona
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    Jeeeeez guys tell me that it goes away.. I'm in a private clinic and I can't even use the shower cause the smell in the private bathroom makes me gag... Not before the surgery though. I'm holding my little fluids down for everything i can whilst taking my clothes on and DUMBASS i put on a perfume.....

    And now I'm sitting with my head out the window writing this thing..