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    I'm on day 3 of my 5 day liquid diet. DAY 3! I'm getting the hang of this. Discovered a way to satisfy my need for savory foods. Most protein shakes are so sweet, my tongue says, "Enough already! No more sweet stuff!" So I bought some unflavored protein powder. Now I can add it into vegetable juices or beef broth, etc. I'm also enjoying Campbell's Healthy soups. Just strain or puree the tiny bits of onion or such. Yum!

    Keeping my energy levels up has been a struggle. Having a boost of extra protein helps and keeping the water up helps too.

    I'm surprised, but the thought of fast food is losing its appeal. I'm hoping it goes away completely after surgery.

    Oh. Here's a perk. I've lost 7 pounds since I started the pre-op diet. I can't remember the last time I lost 7 pounds this fast.

    So, just 2 1/2 more days and I'm on the next step!

  1. ok, so I was going to play it smart and not weigh myself until my 2 week check up. After all, I have a lower BMI(start at 32), so I am not going to have an amazingly fast weight loss. I also tend to retain IV fluids forever, and everybody knows that any weight you lose is "just water weight" so it doesn't count....and I have been steadily increasing my fluids every day, so my goal here is to play it smart.

    So I got on the scale yesterday and it reported a number I haven't seen in a long while. So thinking that it was probably bouncing around, I quietly recorded it. I mean, i have mainly rested since surgery, nothing like the intense exercise I have done for several months leading up to surgery. I mean, I wouldn't be entirely surprised if I gained weight...that is my track record.

    Holy cow! i am down 9.5 pounds on Day3 Post Op! My bmi is 30.9, and I can hardly believe it. 185.5!!!

    Of course my belly is still swollen, from the surgery, but yowser! I am definitely on my way!

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    azrngolfer
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    Hi. My name is Dawn. I am using this forum to document my WLS journey, so feel free to travel with me...... I will need your support and experiences at some point!

    I have struggled with being overweight all my life. In 2002, I hit my all-time high weight of 250 pounds, moved to Arizona, and lost 75 pounds because I was golfing 3+ days a week while walking the course in 100+ degree Arizona summer! Then in 2005, I injured my back and neck and, over the course of the next several years, I regained all the weight and then some, putting me at my new all-time high of 255 pounds. At 5'1", my BMI of 48 put me in the classification of morbidly obese, and nearing super obese! Funny thing is, although I knew I was overweight and hated the way I looked, I would never had considered myself morbidly obese. And throughout my life, IF I told someone how much I weighed (which was not often), I always heard "no way" or "you do not look it" or "you carry it well" or something similar.

    However, now I was not only suffering from chronic pain and fibromyalgia from my injury, but my knees and hips were starting to hurt, and I knew it was only a matter of time before my health really started to deteriorate. I turned 47 this June, and I have a disabled adult son who is wheelchair bound and whom I need to be able to care of for many years to come, so I decided that I needed to take serious action to lose weight and improve my health. Actually, I had already made some other changes in the past 1 1/2 years, such as giving up ALL fast food since May of 2014 and quitting smoking on March 27, 2015.... both of those major accomplishments were before I had decided to seek bariatic surgery.

    My Primary Care Physician and my Pain Management Providers both recommended me for bariatric surgery and I received my referral to a great Bariatric Center of Excellence for consultation in July, completed their 20-page patient package (which included weight history, weight loss attempts, etc. since childhood!), and watched their required (and very informative) 2-hour WLS seminal video (twice!). I had my 4-hour WLS consultation on August 18th -- it included 4 written psych tests, meetings with the surgeon, a registered dietitian, an exercise specialist, and a financial planner, and finally a 1-hour counseling session with a psychologist. I weighed in at my consultation visit at an even 250, so I had already lost 5 pounds, even with my recent smoking cessation! It was a good thing that I had already quit smoking, because it was a requirement for surgery anyway, so one less hurdle I would have to clear. Another hurdle I found out about at the visit was that I would have to give up my Diet Dr. Pepper :( I can do this.....

    The following week, I had the necessary pre-op lab work done. Now was the waiting game.... waiting to hear from my insurance on authorization. I was a bit worried because, although I had MANY weight loss attempts in my life, I was not sure there was any documentation of them in my current medical records (the one doctor monitored program I had done was in California more than 10 years earlier, and those records were no longer available). My loss in 2002 had not been medically monitored, but even if my doctor had noted that loss in my records, it had been over 10 years ago and those records were likely destroyed also (medical records are required to be stored for only 7 years).

    On the afternoon of Monday, August 31, 2015, my life changed! I received THE letter from my insurance company.... my surgery had been APPROVED! I tried calling the office all day Tuesday but they were closed for some reason (turns out the entire medical building was evacuated), so I called and left a message first thing this morning, and the surgery scheduler will be calling me back by the end of the week. All I was told today was there are several things I must do before my surgery (one is attend a nutrition class), and the scheduler would go over everything when she called me back.

    I am so excited and cannot wait to find out my surgery date!

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    Ok.. I talked with the Doc and he says NO HIGH EMPACT exercise !! I love hiking and trails, and My doctor says no, because my weight is still heavy and could cause damage to my knees and hips. He says Pool time, and stationary bikes!.. and I thought hmm.. a bike would be GREAT! So! I pulled out my old mongoose.. you know the one.. that time when we thought "Hey I'll get a bike and ride my fat @$$ off!!" lol.. and then you ride it 3 times and never look at it again.. well Mine got left out behind the storage shed, and went to pot.. It took a weeks worth of pulling it apart, and replacing cables and such.. and I'm proud to say that since Friday I have put 12 miles on that old bike !! I'm 360 ish.. but the weight I have lost has made it possible for me to ride that thing like the wind!! I just wanted to share with you guys !! I couldn't be happier!

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    MrsKitz
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    So I'm new on here and new to WLS and everything is happening so fast.

    Right after Memorial Day I landed in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer on a hiatal hernia. Thanks to a genetic disorder my blood doesn't coagulate properly so I was severely depleted. 14 units of blood later, 2 hospitalizations, and several trips to the ER, and a whole mess of tests, I finally got diagnosed properly. And that's when the sleeve came up. My surgeon recommends it to help prevent future problems. I jumped at the idea since weight loss has been a problem most of my adult life.

    So here I am. Not able to sleep because I'm too excited about all the changes about to happen.

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    So I've been dreaming and thinking of the surgery, I'm excited then I get nervous I just don't any complications, I don't want to look droopy either I've seen lots of people who lost tons of weight look sickly and much older than before but then they gain the weight again and they look younger does that make sense anyways, but in the long run it's just me, myself and I who is battling really, in my heart I want it badly but my mind plays tricks with me and makes me think about FOOD, I know sick right but I've always had that issue, I just want to get it over with it so my mind will stop messing with me and be on the same team as my heart and will. Anyways, just thinking out loud and wondering if you had this issues before surgery and how you feel after if you have. Who wins Heart or Mind LOL!!!

  2. Well, Thinner times... We meet again!

    Here is my story/timeline.

    I was 275 lbs, miserable and tired ALL THE TIME. So, I called my PPO insurance and 1 month later I had gastric bypass. I made a quick decision and voila! I lost 125lbs! 3 weeks post-op I meet the amazing Handsome_Devil10 here on Thinner Times and then 3 months post-op BOOM! I was pregnant. I was the incredible shrinking woman while growing a baby belly. It seemed too easy! I lost 80 of those 125lbs while pregnant. Needless to say, I was not expecting that to happen and my Dr. was not happy with me at all. AS IF ALL THAT WASN'T ENOUGH- the day after I found out I was pregnant, My mother lost her long battle with cancer. Fast forward 3 1/2 years and I now am married to the Handsome_Devil10 and we have 2 children (4 1/2 and 2 1/2). Who would have thought that so much could happen in 5 short years?! My crisis (and I am serious, I am in crisis) is that I have gained back 65 lbs and can't seem to change my ways. I need someone's help. All of these life events has altered my way of thinking and quite frankly my will to change. Has anyone else experienced this? Am I alone? Most importantly, has anyone gained this much weight and got it off again? What can I do? Any non judgmental comments and help are greatly appreciated...

    Sincerely,

    This hopeless woman...

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    julie8893
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    Well another week has gone by and have found it extremely helpful with everyone reaching out to me. I have been able to keep my protein where it's suppose to be and drink plenty of water. I was also able to walk over 10,000 steps 3 days this week!!! WooHoo!! too exciting. I have had so many medical problems with knee replacements and many back surgeries and now have a permanent spinal cord stimulator; so excuse if I get excited over walking, but with this week coming off it has been so much easier on my back already. I hope everyone has a great week and look forward to talking to more of you.

    Thanks for all the advise, I deeply appreciate it.

    Julie

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    Hi Everyone!!

    I am a virgin to this website and this is my very first post!

    My surgery is on Monday and I have to admit, I am very excited but nervous too. I have been preparing for this for almost a year now and have researched and tried to take in all of the information I could get my hands on. I thought I would never get to this day but here I am. :D

    I had me preop group appointment last Thursday and met some really nice people that will be going through surgery in the next month or so as well. Out of the group of us, I will be the second one to go through the surgery. I am doing the Bypass and I am feeling very hopeful about it. I do have several acquaintances that have had the surgery as well and the one thing I have found with anyone I have met that has had the surgery is, NOT ONE PERSON REGRETS IT and has said they would do it again!! That to me is a huge statement and very encouraging.

    I am sitting here waiting very patiently for my call from the hospital to let me know what time my surgery will be on Monday. I am praying it will be early. I feel like I have been preparing for this my whole life. Finally something I am doing for me! I know my thoughts are all over the place and I apologize for that. LOL

    I would really appreciate any advice and/or feedback. Thanks so much and let the journey begin......

    Thanks! :wub:

  3. I don't really get a chance to speak with my mother in law often. Not because we dislike each other or even live far away from each other...but because my German is horrible and while she understands some English it is not enough for us to have a serious conversation.

    We chat from time-to-time over whatsapp. I use google translate and speak in simple sentences so it translates less wonky.

    The other day we were chatting about the construction going on outside of my apartment that will continue for the next 1.5 years (MOTIVATION TO NOT SIT IN HERE ALL DAY AFTER SURGERY) and then we started talking about the surgery. She is no stranger to medical issues both personally and professionally (she was a nurse when my husband was a child).

    She asked how I was and I told her I am excited. I really have no reason to be nervous at this point as I know I have a great surgeon and my husband is super supportive.

    She said something to me that really made me stop and think. She said "You have made it this far, this is what is important. Many people work for a year and get rejected for whatever reason. You should be proud of yourself and remember that you are lucky!"

    I was kind of taken aback. I wasn't offended by the statement, in fact, it reminded me of the hard work that I have done. Of the working out, dropping weight, weight coming back, the lectures from doctors, the constant reading on health issues, the marathon youtube sessions to find out information about nutrition and the surgery. But in the end my hard work put me in a position that made me lucky. All of the stars lined up and I did the leg work but it worked out!

    I guess this is what i am trying to say:

    There are people that are out there willing to help you but you have to be willing to help yourself. To be your own advocate and have conviction in what it is you are doing and what you are wanting. No one will hand you a "get whatever is you want" free card.

    I also realize that I am lucky in the fact that I don't have to pay for any of the hospital bills. That bill will be footed by the German government as will all the aftercare and possible follow up surgeries I need. This is truly awesome and I am so very thankful.

    It is easy to get bogged down in numbers, protein, diet, pain, schedules.

    Just take a moment, sit back, and remember where you were, where you are now, and where you are heading and realize that at the end of the day NONE of this would would be happening if it weren't for you.

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    Hello Everyone,

    I am new here and still new to this whole surgery process. I feel like my life is just a movie right now and that I am not in it just watching it. I have been on a liquid diet from my doctor for 27 days today and I have lost 27 pounds.

    My doctor wanted my to lose weight before surgery.

    This have been really hard and being diabetic it messed with my meds. at first. I was on 3 diabetic meds. and now am off of two of them.

    I work two jobs and go to college. I am having a hard time keeping up my strength to do it all right now.

    I am getting about 600 cals. a day and that has taken so getting used to.

    I know it will all be worth it in the end I just wish I could fast fast forward these next 6 days.

    Thanks for listening.

    Amy :unsure::wacko:

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    NewMeIn2-15
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    Tomorrow starts the beginning of my sixth week post-op. I'm feeling good physically… am on track with my weight loss, even though I've plateaued for a while.

    I had someone ask me today if I was proud of myself for the accomplishments that I've made thus far. I couldn't answer that. I said I thought that I was "brave" - but I don't know that I could use the word "proud". At least not yet. Ask me that once I've hit my goal and maintained it for year. Somewhere in the back of my mind is still the fear that this won't work for me or that the fix will be temporary and I will end up gaining my weight back. I feel strong and determined yet I know the reality is that only I can make sure that I'm successful with this process.

    Hitting the sixth week… I've learned that as I start to be able to add in new things to my diet, not all of it HAS to be diet food. (Meaning my stomach can tolerate things I didn't think it would.) I still can't take more than about four bytes of solid food, but my question is this…

    When you were just starting out on this journey, once you could start to tolerate it, did you ever have a bite of a casserole? A spoon of whipped cream? A chip or two? I know there's still a lot that I'm not "supposed" to have yet but I've discovered that just because I'm not supposed to have it doesn't mean that I am physically unable. It's a new realization - and it scares me. I'm just being honest. I'm not looking to self sabotage or to go off of the plan my doctor provided, but many years of failed attempts are in the back of my mind.

    Please be kind in your response. I've done the extensive pre-work… I continue to see a counselor etc. I just could use testimony or some advice from someone who's been through it ahead of me.

  4. The other day (more like a few weeks ago,) I was sitting at a Cards and Games shop with both my boys while the oldest tutored the youngest in Algebra. (I’m sure you can imagine the bribery involved. But a mom’s gotta do what a mom’s gotta do ;)) During a brief moment when Trevor was actually working independently, Andrew and I were chatting about everyday things and— I can’t remember why but— he asked if I still keep up with my WLS blog. I was immediately filled with the familiar guilt I am flooded with each time I think about my blog. I LOVE my blog! And I LOVE the connection it gives me to my friends in the WLS community. But, as you know, I just can’t seem to keep up with it since getting sick a couple (plus) years ago.

    I exclaimed to Andrew, “I want to! I swear! I think about it all the time! BUT…” I paused, feeling disproportionately emotional about such a simple, casual, unexpected question and thinking of how to explain what has been increasingly on my mind lately. There must have been a lot of emotion in my voice because Andrew stopped all his fidgeting and card sorting and looked up at me— I mean, prolonged eye contact. I continued, “I STILL think about blogging all the time. Everything I do is still relevant. I am always thinking of how I would write one experience or another. I compose them in my head constantly. I even START to write a lot of them down, BUT…”

    Another pause. Another wave of emotion. And even more uninterrupted eye contact from my son. I swear, I must have seemed like a hot mess because he looked so concerned and so… interested. I was hesitant to continue, thinking maybe I shouldn’t burden my son with my “issues.” The past few years have been pretty tough and I have done my best to minimize its effect on my family. Especially Andrew, since he has his own family now. But he is grown— almost 24 years old, married, a new homeowner, management at a major corporation, and expecting a baby (that’s SUPER exciting!) And he did look pretty grown up there with his computer and graph paper, overseeing his little brother’s math and looking at me expectantly. I mean, if you pretend not to notice the Pokemon cards spread out on the table :P.

    I decided to continue. This subject has certainly been on my mind A LOT lately and it seemed it was time to work it out. “It’s just that… I know that it’s important to post about my experiences. Not only for people who may need the information, but for ME to be able to process things and give and receive support. Especially since I have gotten sick…”

    Pause and regroup. And he is STILL with me! “When I started this process, I promised to share honestly and openly and not hold anything back. When I was successful but struggling with “minor” but normal complications, it was easy to do. But, now that I have gotten sick…”

    Deep breath. And he’s STILL listening. “When I don’t feel well, I don’t want to post about it because I just feel like such a whiner. And when I DO feel well… when I can actually DO things…”

    I couldn’t figure out what to say next. How to describe it. In hindsight, I can say I am not good with vulnerability. Duh. But I also HATE to feel selfish, much less admit to it;) So you can imagine my relief when Andrew finished my sentence, “You don’t want to spend THAT time blogging about stuff instead of DOING stuff.”

    “EXACTLY!” I exclaimed. End of conversation. It’s great to have boys. Especially when they grow up so nicely.

    Of course, that wasn’t the end of my thoughts on the subject. A few weeks have passed and, as usual, I have thought about my blog a lot. And, I have been DOING a lot. In general, over the past year, I seem to spend less and less time feeling sick and whiney and more and more time participating in real life (relatively speaking, of course.) That’s a VERY good thing! And as I think honestly about my whole WLS experience and my blog, I realize a few other reasons I tend to avoid posting—

    1. I don’t want to scare people. My early experience was terrific but, despite actually appreciating my severe dumping complications and learning to work successfully with them, many people seemed to be more than a little freaked out by them. So, even though I fully believe in the value of knowing ALL the possibilities in order to assess the risks and rewards of such a potentially life-changing decision as WLS, I would really hate for my experience with THESE rare, dramatic, life-threatening complications to frighten folks away from the prospective benefits of the surgery.

    1. Like I said, I don’t like to feel vulnerable. If you have read my blog beginning way back in 2011, you realize I seem to have no trouble sharing my vulnerable moments. But, that would be after the fact. Or, even as I work through something but am almost certain that I WILL be able to work through it. But, this condition has placed me in a perpetual and uncomfortable state of vulnerability and my confidence in my ability to work through it comes and goes. I don’t like that. LOL. Understatement.

    1. I feel like a failure and a fraud. I know it’s not my fault that my body reacted so drastically to the surgery. And I KNOW I have a vast amount of experience to share (Heck, even if it WAS my fault, sharing the experience would be valuable) but I feel like I don’t quite have the right anymore. Sure, I live the very restricted life of someone who has had gastric bypass, BUT I have also technically failed and had the surgery reversed. Can I really offer support and advice to other WLS patients? I know… wah, wah, wah. Did I mention I hate to feel vulnerable? Oh, and I hate to fail. I hate to be weak. And I really hate for anyone to feel sorry for me. So, I don’t enjoy sharing this aspect of my journey. See? I feel guilty even putting this on (virtual) paper.

    1. I’m a bit of a perfectionist (shocker!) So every time I feel like adding a new entry to my blog, I feel like I also need to “catch up.” I want to tell everything that has happened since I last blogged. And that often feels incredibly overwhelming so I just don’t post. Lame, I know;)

    So, in the past few weeks, I have done a lot of thinking and sorting this issue in my mind. I have had a few events and conversations that have kind of pushed me to sort through this little blogging block I have had. And I have decided I need to quit letting all these darn excuses get in the way of blogging my WLS journey.

    My blog was instrumental in my success the first couple of years after WLS and I am sure it has been helpful to others as they decided to embark on their journeys or as they went through similar steps. It has acted as a sort of therapy as I dealt with issues common to WLS patients and allowed me to connect with others and gain friendship and support that I really needed. I still need all that. The WLS community is important for success and you guys are important to me. I am so lucky to have made so many good friends and I KNOW I can count on you for support when I need it. And I love to provide support when I can. So I can’t keep waiting until I feel stronger or until I “catch up.” I am just jumping in… again.

    I know you have heard it before… But I’m not going to worry about whether I “fail” to keep blogging or whether I will be uncomfortable sharing in the future. I am just going to blog today and INTEND to keep doing it. Who knows, one day it may stick and I will be effortlessly blogging again… regularly!

  5. Haven't written here for a while because now I'm on automatic pilot: drinking water, getting in the protein and veggies, exercising pretty much daily (walks, water aerobics and lifting). I'm getting stronger and more fit. Weight loss is slower now, but that's as expected. Something like half a pound a week. Consistency means success to me, so I just keep plugging along. I did a meditation retreat over the July 4th holiday that was awesome, and am going to an emotional eating support group. The tendency to turn to food hasn't left, but it's not as ever-present as prior to surgery.

    This cartoon captures what sometimes goes through my head when the scale doesn't match my agenda (got to let go of that):tumblr_m5q6oyABkd1rqo1kco1_500.jpg

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    I am wondering how to have the conversation with work about missing time for appointments and the surgery. I don't really want them knowing all my health information. I don't know how long to expect to be out of work either so I have nothing definitive to tell them yet. how did you handle it?

  6. After thoroughly studying my weight loss chart for a pattern, I've come to the conclusion that there is no pattern and I'm okay with that. Not going to let the weeks when I only lose 0.2 lbs bother me because a loss is a loss and I know that there's always the possibility that I'll have a week like this one where I lost 3.9 lbs--internally FREAKING OUT as I type that!!!!! I'm 15 lbs away from my absolute lowest teen/adult weight and I'm so excited by the progress I've made. Thank you guys for being such an amazing source of support and information. I'd be lost without you!

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    NewMeIn2-15
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    It's my first time trying soft foods. It's also my two weeks since surgery. Re fried beans is my first treat of choice. They have never tasted so good! That said.... It's taken me an hour and a half to eat half a cup. Oh boy....

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    My surgery date was June 16, 2015… It's been 12 days. I knew it was going to be rough in the beginning, but I wasn't exactly ready for the pain that was involved with surgery. I'm past that stage now, and really that only lasted about four or five days. I was off the pain medicine after six days… And went back to work part time after one week. I'm planning to start back full-time to work on Monday… Just two weeks after surgery.

    So far this is been quite an adventure. I feel different. Mentally my head is in a different space… Hopeful and encouraged. Physically, it's so different to not feel hunger and really not want to eat. I had my first post op appointment. All is well with the exception that I need to be getting in more fluids. In addition to that we're going through a heat wave and fluids are even that much more important right now. The last thing I want to do is get dehydrated. I read in one blog or post somewhere that someone said "this is the easiest yet hardest thing I've ever done". I think that's the most profound statement about this whole thing.

    I can't believe I'm already 12 days out. I'm through the initial difficult time after surgery, and now I am trying to get used to my new sleeve. It's a whole new way of thinking and eating. Actually I'm not really eating yet I'm just drinking. On July 1 I will be able to start introducing soft foods. Most of my focus is on actually trying to get enough fluids and protein for the day. It's so weird to eat so little and not feel like I'm starving. I'm still thankful to be off of sugar and no longer drinking soda. That in itself is a miracle. I've noticed that since I've been off soda I no longer have migraines which is a huge blessing. I hope and pray this is the beginning of many of the blessings from the surgery.

    One thing I noticed yesterday is my whole mentality of dieting in the past & the influence it has as I look towards this new way of eating and drinking with my sleeve, Even with as much as I'm drinking or not drinking I still have in my head less is more. I know that's not correct. It's just a mental thing I need to overcome in trying to be healthy instead of necessarily focused on losing weight. I know the Weight will come off as a result of taking care of my sleeve the right way. It's such a mental and physical change.

    Day 12 finds me optimistic… Curious… Hopeful… Excited. I can't believe it's already been 12 days. So far I have Lost 17 pounds in the first 12 days. Unbelievable.

  7. It's been a while since I have been on TT and its been a while since I have blogged.

    The last post I made was when I got the news I was approved for my wls . I was so excited and happy but like always for me things took a weird turn. I kept waiting to get the phone call, that never came, so I went back to my pcp and what was going on? I got told that the insurance paperwork had been mis sent and they had to re send it.So I waited some again and another month , I go back and ask again whats going on and I get told by my Dr.s assistant that she did send the info and so I called the surgeons office and they tell me they NEVER recieved the info.UGH at this point I was like somebody isnt telling the truth.Finally , I go back to see my doctor in May 2015 and he asks how my surgery went and I'm like it never happened and explained the run around I was given and he got upset questioned his assistant and finally the truth came out , that the surgeon no longer takes my insurance! So it happens now, I have switched insurances and I am waiting to try again. I am so frustrated and angry and disappointed that this happened. All the time spent getting tests done and going to NUT (paying out of pocket for nut) just to have it wasted and have to start all over again, I almost have given up, almost. I am trying to look at this in a positive light but, it aint been easy.

  8. I have made it to two months post-op. 35 lbs down since surgery, and almost 75 lbs down since beginning this journey on August 1, 2014. Well, a little past that. I have had some slow weeks, some weeks not losing, some days losing big. It is definitely a process. I am finally finding the real me again, and she wants to come out and live life! I am exploring new activities, opening up to people more, and living life more fully, and for that, the surgery already counts as a success! I ordered a dress for my vow renewal event in September. I was nervous, and really guessed at the size I would need, since the event is two and a half months away. I ordered two sizes smaller than I am now. Now that it's here, I'm only a size and a half away from that dress. Good news is, I can get it on, zipped and everything. There are lumps and bumps that need to melt away, but trying to get the thing on isn't laughable, as it would have been just months ago. It is a gorgeous dress, and I am so looking forward to looking gorgeous in it. It is stunning, and forgiving of many different body flaws, and It's everything I hoped it would be when I first laid eyes on it on-line, and took a leap of faith buying it.

    My food intake has increased to a level I can live with. I have enough energry to go about my day, with some left over for intense spin workouts or long walks. I have many things to work on still. Even though I know it is an issue of mine, I still haven't mastered patient and mindful eating. Too many of my meals are eaten on the fly, running out the door to drop the kids off at school then into work just making it on time. Or a string cheese or boiled egg snarfed down in the car on my way to a Dr. appointment over my lunch hour. I am sometimes making my stomach a little unhappy by eating too fast, or too much, when some mindfulness during meals would be a cure to that problem. I have a hard time slowing down, and appreciating the fuel I'm putting into my body. I've been telling myself for weeks to stop multitasking while eating, and have done nothing to actually make a move toward doing it. The things that save me are the fact that I no longer have the serious cravings for sweets/junk/fast food like I did before, and I no longer have the space to eat too much of anything. At least the food choices I'm making on the fly are more or less "safe."

    I am beginning to see my world opening up again. I have classes I'd like to take and hobbies I'd like to resume. I want to take fly-fishing lessons with my sons. I want to go to the climbing gym. I want to get tattooed. I want to jump out of an airplane. I want to go on a date with my spouse that isn't just dinner and a movie. I want to go backpacking. I want to go kayaking. I want to explore more of my world, both urban and wild. And I have already done many things I wouldn't have dreamt of doing in my 260 lb. body. I went on an airplane and didn't have to pray the seatbelt would fit. I tried paddleboarding for the first time. I wore a swimsuit at Lake Tahoe in front of people, without a cover-up. I bought a skirt, and wear it just because it's comfortable. I don't want to just exist, I want to truly live life. And for the first time in many years, I feel alive and happy. I have lost and gained a LOT of weight over the years, but this is the first time in my adult life that I am actually hopeful that real, permanent change can be mine, and I am seeing the weight that kept me from really living fully for so long melt away like snow in the sun. Likewise, the cloud of depression and guilt that has followed me around for many years off and on, is also melting away as I turn toward the sun.

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    I have a blog on tumblr, which you can view here: http://cutefatcute.tumblr.com/

    It has a bit more info about me as well as a lot of whining. :cool:

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    My surgery is this coming Tuesday. Nervous isn't the right word. Hopeful..... Maybe that's it. Of course I'm nervous also but it feels like a new chance at life. It also feels little like gambling. I mean-there's a chance I'm going to win the jackpot as I put in the hard work and use the tool how it's intended. But there's still the small voice from the doubters that makes me worry- what if I go thru all this and still fail. I know I have done the hard work to get here. Just look ahead and not back. Tuesday is coming. Saturday (today) I have blocked to just get ready. Clean house-run errands-get groceries (shakes, sf Popsicles, etc) - woke up early but sit here not sure where to start. I can do this. It WILL be ok. This is my chance. It's all led up to this & my future is bright - I just know it. Here we go.

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    Hello, just had gastric sleeve June 2, 2015 and I'm trying to build a menu to get me through the summer barbeques. I was wondering if anyone has options for me.

    I usually eat MorningStar balck bean beggie burgers or the chicken has anyone had experience?

    How about "rice crackers" with avocado or mango??

    shitake Noodles?

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    I am one of those people who must weigh daily, no it doesn't make me crazy, but it is something that I am afraid if I don't do I will get out of control and gain.

    My pattern has been that I will drop 3-4 lbs in a week then stall out for a week. When I stall I stay the same weight for that week. This past Monday I weighed in at 163.3, since I have bounced in the 163 point something range, the last two days 163.8. I have recognized this pattern, yet the stalls still cause me to fear failure.

    I know a lot of people would kill to be 163, but for me at 5 ft 2 in I am just barely in the over weight range, at 164 I would be obese. I am really hoping to lose 30-35 more lbs to put me around 130, which is a healthy BMI. My mom says that due to my fat being spread out and not centralized in one spot that I don't look 163, yet I am.

    I am currently 5 months and 10 days post op, so people who have had WLS that I will continue to lose. Yet, I am so scared of not making it to my goal weight. I wear a size 10/12 depending on the cut, so I know I have gone down sizes (have been as large as a 22), but it just isn't enough. When I look in the mirror I see a change, but I still tell myself I am fat.

    It is like I am just out there searching for validation that I am not fat and will make it, yet when people say I will I fear they are wrong. I have been overweight since I was 5 years old and it is so hard to lose that mind set.

    Maybe I need therapy.

  10. Today, I am 184.6 lbs. I am down an amazing 67.4 lbs since 2/24/15. I feel so good and I am only just past the halfway mark. Guess what I did the other day...I crossed my legs! That is only one thing I can do again, but it is HUGE. I got into a size 14 and although it was a little snug, I managed to button and snap them STANDING UP. No lying on my bed to do it. Again, HUGE. The tide has turned and I am more lean muscle than fat. I know I am eventually going to slow down and in fact, I have some weeks with little to no loss. I only loss .2 last week, but I also lost nearly 2% body fat. That means more fat burn and more weight loss after. I now have a visible jawline, neck and shoulders. I have shoulders! LOL I have an actual shape that resembles an hourglass...still a bit bigger than what I will end up with but it is there, my friends.

    I do have a few issues I am currently dealing with, but I knew going in, that there is always a price to be paid. I am still having difficulty with solids. Some days, all I can handle are shakes and yogurt. Other days, I am fine with most solids. It is unpredictable and I end up with this sensation of having eaten a bowling ball and so nauseous, that throwing up is preferable and I am not a fan of that. So, for the time being, I am sticking to the easy to digest thick liquids stage, and hoping for the best maybe a month down the road. The most important thing to remember is protein, water, and enough calories to fuel my daily workouts.

    The other issue is this funky taste I get in my mouth. It seems to originate from down below and comes up my throat and fills my mouth with a metallic, alkaline, weird taste...hard to describe. It is rather unpleasant. A friend of mine says she dealt with both issues earlier on in her post op days and they went away. I am hoping mine is short lived.

    Aside from those two things though...,and one is avoidable, even if the alternative kind of sucks too...I am doing well. I am no longer using my CPAP!!! That, alone, is cause for celebration. =)

    The picture is actually a few weeks old. That blouse not only used to be small on me, but I was testing the strength of those buttons! LOL Not anymore. I also had to get rid of my jeans as they all kept falling off. Not down...OFF. Whoops! LOL

    Only 64.6 lbs to go!!!