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  1. I am a little over 2 months out now and feeling really good overall. I have stepped up my exerice a little bit; not as much as I would like but its getting there. I am getting a lot more comfortable with food and trying to limit my protein drinks when I can. The time seems to be flying now and everytime I step on the scale I see a little improvement. I am even starting to notice a change in my body somedays. I say somedays because most days I still see the same old me at 264 pounds. Every now and then though when I look in the mirror I see a skinnier me. Its crazy how the mind plays tricks on you.  I attended my first Healthy Behaviors class this week (its 1 of 4) and found it really helpful. I never was of the mindset that "support groups" could be helpful before this journey but now I am finding everything little thing I read or class I attend is helping me stay on the right path. I so wish I would have done this a lot sooner... but then again maybe I wouldnt have been sucessfull back then, who knows.

    One big step I have been able to overcome is eating out. I typically try to avoid eating out as much as possible just because I never know what I can and cant eat. This isnt always possible and I cant keep turning down invites from friends just because I am scared. I am a little obsessive about it but when I know I am going to go eat out; I immediatly go online and start looking at the menu and the nutrition facts. I look at everything and find what fits into my dietary needs. I still havent eaten fast food and honestly it doesnt even appeal to me to try and find something at one of those places. Its weird how food can be scary. I am trying to branch out more and try new things. I just hate that I wont know what doenst agree with me until I eat it. The whole trial and error thing sucks. Luckily I havent had anything that has made me sick just a few things made me feel pretty uncomfortable.

    I am excited for my 3 month post op later this month. I still cant believe how time is flying by now.

  2. I'm 11 lbs. from my goal of 135. Slowest pounds in the history of ever, but I keep pushing forward ounce by ounce. Frustratingly, I was stuck at 148 for about three weeks and then all of the sudden, dropped two pounds in two days. I'm thrilled, but confused as I haven't changed anything. I'm sure it's just a body thing as I inch closer and closer to a normal body weight, but urgh! I'm determined to reach my goal, so that I can be in a normal BMI (normal for my height is 141 or less supposedly). I'm happy with my weight now though and how I look, but I need that personal accomplishment - and, who knows, I may be even happier in the 130s.

    I'd been in a size 8 pants since Nov / Dec 2015, but hadn't bought new work trousers since size 10, so this past weekend I went trouser shopping as the 10s were looking very baggy - and I fit in a size 6!!! I couldn't believe it. Size 6!!! I'm in a small shirt already, so that hasn't changed. I kind of hope I don't shrink to extra-small as it seems harder to find shirts in that size.

    Anyway, as of today, I'm down a grand total of 116.6 lbs. from my starting weight and about 103.2 from my day-of-surgery weight.

    Can't wait until the number of pounds left to lose is a single digit. That will seem so much easier. Mind games, y'all. :)

     

    ETA (03/25/2016): Same pattern as before - suddenly dropped from 146 to 144 last night. Seems my body is taking its time in dropping these last few pounds, but no worries! I'm very happy with my progress and am sure I'll get to 135 eventually. Ha! So happy to only have 9 lbs. left to go though.

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    So...

    It's been 2 months since my surgery and Ive lost a considerable amount of weight. There's been some complications that I'm not really sure whether or not they have to do with the surgery but since I started dealing with the ailments after the surgery date, I can only suggest that it was do to an issue the doctor had while performing my procedure.

    What happened??? Well, during my surgery I developed some bleeding that turned into a hematoma. When I started my stay in the hospital room, I developed an even bigger one that made it difficult to breath. The doctors were about to put me back into surgery to attempt to fix the bleed but they first wanted to start blood infusions. I received a total of 4 infusions with the hopes that the natural clotting agents in blood would fix the bleed. While this was happening, I was getting 220mls of IV fluid ever hour for 4 days straight. The problem seemed to fix its-self as the bleeding stopped and my blood count raised to a level that doctors weren't worried anymore.

    I was extremely weak and I had sever headaches during my stay at the hospital and at home. There were times of complete blindness and I could constantly hear my pulse to the point where it began to even whine as if it was a tiny little siren. I felt like my eyes wanted to pop out of my head. When I had my follow up appointment with my surgeons. They were very alarmed by these symptoms and sent me to my general physician. My general physician was also extremely alarmed by what my surgeons and I were telling her so she sent me into to see an eye specialist and requested an MRI on my head. It was determined that I had sever swelling of the optical nerves or papilloedema on both eyes. They were thinking that I had a tumor in my head. So, I went in for the MRI at 5pm and then I got home and was resting about to call it a night when I got a call from my general physician telling me to go to the ER immediately. I was scared as I was preparing myself for the ER doctor to tell me that I needed to have brain surgery ASAP. He was in contact with my doctor and he told me that there was good news and bad news. Good news is that you do NOT have a tumor. What you have is idiopathic intracranial hypertension. I have a pseudo tumor. In other words... my body or eyes are reacting as if there was a tumor but in the words of Arnold Schwarzenegger, "IT's NOT A TUMAH!!"  Its referred to as idiopathic because there is no medical explanation. He said now for the bad news. We are going to have to perform a spinal tap to drain spinal fluid to ease the pressure on the back of your eyes. Not fun and the only thing I gained was a new respect for women giving birth and receiving an epidural.

    Things are subsiding now. I have lost a total of 48 lbs so far and I'm starting to enjoy the idea of getting new cloths that will fit me. my pants are beginning to far off my hips.. 

  3. Wow. Five years! Happy, healthy, not necessarily a model patient but I weigh 143-145 most days, eat like a "normal" person for the most part, although I still don't use straws, eat rice, or drink carbonated beverages. I try not to drink with meals. I do drink wine. Mm that's about it. Enjoying life. 

  4. I have some things I need to get off my chest... It has been two months since my gastric sleeve/gallbladder surgery.   I had two really important things to discuss, in my first outing since surgery to my monthly book club meeting.  The waitress who waited on us was very RUDE and I was wondering if anyone has anyone had a similar experiences.

    I ordered my chicken Caesar salad and a takeout box(I only 1/4 cup of the salad and took the rest home as previously advised) the waitress made the comment that "why was I ordering that ?  And that it was two years before she could) she had gastric bypass previously. and then when I was cashing out she made the comments about "my stomach what I was going to do with my access skin and that I needed to get myself in gym”, and the third comment was not made to my face but with the owner of the restaurant and waitress talking about me while I was eating all because this particular waitress eavesdrop on our conversation. My question is has anyone ever encountered this problem?? Should I give a bad review on Yelp?? I am still bitter about this.

    My second question is my friends wanting me to start going out for drinks and food and because of this incident I am terrified (my friends have insured me that they love me and just want to see me not what I am eating) .. My second question did anyone have anxiety about going in public after having surgery even with close friends or self?

      I am sorry to bother everyone with these questions and appreciate anyone's advice (normal I would keep off the internet but it’s hard to share with my close knot family and friends and I wanted others opinions who have the surgery... THANK YOU for listening.

     

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  5. If you had Gastric Bypass surgery  9 months ago, I'm doing a graduate thesis on FAT Bias and the role it has played in our lives before and after surgery. I would really love to chat with you about it if your interested in learning more. I need volunteers for my research, this is an important study that considers the fat bias experiences people have had in there lives based on whether they were over-weight as children or if they gained the weight as adults. please contact me to learn more -Scott

  6. 2016&Ready
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    well I went for my psych eval results this morning ... I passed... Whew ... Not that I didn 't think I would .... But what the heck ... Why should the results of my MMPI control my future .... The results actually said My responses were too contrived ???? What does that mean????  It means that I was too afraid to be exposed????

  7. just.a.pretty.face?
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    Hi, I was wondering if anyone has any advice on sugar alcohols or sugar substitutes.   So far I am doing well and am 70lbs down with surgery being September 18th.  however, I am working out 4-6 times a week walking a 5k at least twice a week and then the gym for about 1.5 hours the other days with a trainer. I am still stalling at times, and I know that that will happen naturally but I want to make sure that I am giving my body the best opportunity possible to loose this weight and be healthy.  Basically I am wondering if anyone has had any issues with sugar substitutes affecting them in a negative way and slowing down their weight loss.

    Also, I am going on a cruise next week and wanted to see if anyone has any advice on the true alcohol.  I have not taken in much alcohol since surgery but know that I will not avoid it on the cruise.  The food aspect does not scare me as I feel like I have beaten that need that I use to feel towards food, but don't want to gain weight from alcohol.  I know that I will not have beer, but any advice on what to have that will not stall me or at least make me not gain would be very appreciated!  (working on being honest with myself about the situation:)) 

  8. So my vsg was 10/19/2015.  I've lost about 80 lbs. Since I began. My highest weight was nearly 375!! On surgery day I was 325 and today I am 284. I have recovered very nicely. To be honest, I feel so normal its like surgery never happened. My loss has been a little slower than I hoped for., but I'm feeling better everyday.  The only real difference is I can't eat very much.  I know that I will hear a lot of crap about goals and diet and being honest with myself. But that's the thing I am honest with myself. I have not changed my life much at all. I healed and did well with food pretty quick. No food is completely off the table for me. I ate cookies and bread throughout the holidays and I enjoyed it. I noticed that I cannot eat beef two days in a row or my digestive system gets sluggish. And some foods just sit a little heavy like potato. But I have not thrown up or felt sick from anything. I have not  vomited once since surgery. Have not had the runs or constipation. No heartburn. No indigestion. Nothing. Nothing has changed for me except the size of my stomach and 5 small puncture scars on my upper tummy. I eat my protein first. But I am not on a "diet" anymore. Im aware to get the most weight off a diet would serve me well.. But I'm trying to live a normal life. I am a foodie. I like to cook. I like to eat. Surgery did not strip me of this. Vsg is what I did, not who I've become. I don't drink soda. I don't do caffeine. I don't fry food often. I don't eat fast food. When I do eat something sweet or fattening its from scratch. I even bake my own bread. My overall diet is pretty natural and healthy anyway. I don't do aspartame or other chemical sweeteners. I use sugar and honey. I quit the protein shakes and don't plan revisiting them unless a blood test shows I'm deficient. I still put carbs on my plate. Once I eat my protein and vegetables there isn't much room for more than a bite or two. I don't graze I eat 2 meals and 3-4 small snacks a day. I drink mostly water. I don't feel deprived of anything. I feel that I have completely adapted. I don't even notice how little I actually eat until someone voices concern that I'm not getting enough. My small portion is my new normal. The hardest part was teaching myself that it's OK to not finish my plate. I waste food every night. I don't plan my meals by protein grams, I naturally gravitate to high protein Foods and I believe that my overall protein and vitamins/ mineral needs are being met with my whole food approach. Considering my surgery was at the beginning of The holiday season ( food season in my family) I am very pleased with my progress.  My loss is weird. I lose 10 stall , lose 10 stall etc. I literally drop 10 pounds overnight and then stall till my next 10. I find it strange and it seems physically impossible. I lose inches during my stalls. 

    All this being said. It is new years and for as long as I can remember losing weight has been my resolution. Not this year. My resolution is to go out and do all the things that I have not been able to because of the pain of my size in the past. I still have a ways to go.. But the current me could run circles around the 3 month ago me. But still I am geared towardss heath this time of year from the past. I guess it's become a tradition. My next doc appointment is at the end of the month and I will finally be cleared to workout more than walking and I can't wait to see how the pace of my loss is once I can do more strenuous activity. I'm getting jiggly in places that have deflated and I can't wait to tighten it up some. I will be eating closer to the surgery status quo minus the sugar free chemicals, and I will be focused on taking myself down to healthy.  I plan on getting as much out of this honeymoon phase as possible. I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store. Im excited about the future and finding myself again. I'm excited to shed this fat suit. I hope you are all well and making strides in your journey. :)

     

  9. My sister and brother in-law were very surprised when they saw me. My brother-in-law repeatedly told me how good I looked. It felt great!!! I had a new outfit on and more importantly a very positive attitude. This year has been a wonderful year for me. Losing seventy pounds does something wonderful for one's ego. I had a lot of energy to walk around the city without getting tired. This year my goal with be to exercise at least five times a week. I have to up the exercise because I have stopped losing weight and have stalled at 169 for  at least a month. My bariatric team has been encouraging me to exercise at least five times a week. I have been really resisting this and giving them plenty of excuses. But now I am ready to make this change in my life. I have become to realize it's never to late to change. This truly has been a journey of wonderful changes.

  10. so today have been the first day that i have been relitivitly pain free. i get a little twinge every now and again when i sneeze and cough or if i use too much of my core to sit up. and for some reason when i am sitting in the kitchen in a chair it hurts just sitting there. not sure why, but it does. other then that i have been feeling great, physically that is. i have been having a lot of food cravings and wanting. it has been very very hard. i knew it would be, but not this hard or this intense. i know it is something that i will have to deal with for the rest of my life. on christmas the rest of my family was having pizza. i love pizza and i did think it would be hard at all. but they got my fave kinds. the kids had cheese and pepperoni and the wife had a gormet chicken garlic supreme one. it wasnt that i was hungry or anything, i was just wanting it. i really really wanted it. i didnt take one bite ot lick or anything, but it made me think a lot. made me think about how honest i was with myself before the surgery. made me think about the relationship that i have with food and why i eat, besides needed to in order to have energy and live. i thought that i ate out of boredom and when i was having a bad day, but that apparently isnt the case. i eat cause i want the bad things i guess. i meen i know thats how i got to where i am now, but it was just very hard the other day. also the things that i thought would give me the most trouble wanting havent really been that bad at all. i thought that i would want more sweets and things like that, but those havent been bad at all. i dont even really miss beer or booz as much as i thought i would. 

    in 2 days i go back for my 2 week check up. i so cant wait for the dr and the nutritionis to see how well i have been doing and i hope that my blood work is all in order. i would hate to have to take shots or more pills for things. taking pills not is a HUGE pain in the @*#. everything had to be ground and powdered. i didn't think that it would be that big of a deal, but some of the pills taste horrible when you have to really taste them. it got so bad that i had to get a liquid multivitamin instead of the ones that they approved for me to take. it was so bad that taking it made gag and almost throw up. most of the others arent that bad, but i think that the pill i have to take to prevent gallstones might rune plane greek yogurt for me. its thousands of tiny little dots and they taste horrible. oh well. i knew this before i signed up for this so i will just have to deal with it. 

    i have also been taking self pictures every week, only taken 2 sets so far, so that in 6 months and in a year i can look back as to how big i was and how far i have become. i have also been getting on the scale every other day or so. i know i shouldn't but i just cant help myself. im steadily loosing weight every day and that has felt really good. i have beein keeping track since dec. 2nd and i was about 308.4 lbs then. so far i have lost about 21 lbs since then. it really makes me happy to see the numbers going down annd down and down. after years and years of the numbers going all over the place. sometimes up..... sometimes down..... it just feels good to be making some real progress. 

    i also cant wait to be going back to the gym on a regular basis and really start dropping the pounds. i wanted to get my water intake under control before i started really heading back and now that i think i have it down good i think i will start going there every day and just walking. a good clip but nothing too crazy for now. i also cant wait to get back to lifting. i loved it when i was making some good headway with the lifting and i cant wait to start it all over again.   

  11. Today I went to see my surgeon who did my sleeve for me and she says I have to talk to the therapist and nutritionist first before talking another surgery. I only went to see her because in my despair I couldn't think of what else to do. I feel as though if something as drastic as surgery didn't work for me what else can anyone do. I am only 18 lbs less than my original weight 3 years ago. The most I've ever lost was almost 30 lbs. I would come online and research failed gastric sleeves, everyone reassured me I was just losing it slow. No one loses this slow. I can't even say I eat a lot of fast food. I can eat a full plate of protein with ease. And I usually don't have time to eat all day so I have large helpings in the evenings.

    I also feel frustrated because something is obviously wrong with me. I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety. I sometimes drink more now than I did before surgery. Nothing crazy but even that I drink vodka and diet coke. No sugary drinks. I'm pretty sure I have high blood pressure now. Even if I were the absolute worst patient and I know that I'm not, I should have lost a modest amount. My thyroid is fine last I checked a few months ago. Being this way has destroyed my self esteem and my life. I try diet and exercise in vain. I felt like she was making it clear that it was me and not the surgery. I'm sure she's right but it hardly seems fair that so many people did it and at least had temporary relief. 18 lbs in three years gaining and losing the same 10-15?? 

    I am scheduled to do a barium swallow so she can look at my stomach and see if I need a revision. I don't want to switch to another type of weight loss surgery if it comes to that. If my sleeve is too big I'd be willing to redo it. Otherwise that's it.

     

    The nurse practitioner says my case is unusual. That in their practice they may see one or two people per year who have not lost any weight like me. 

     

    Why did I have to get the confirmation that I'm a biological freak of nature? I would suspect this when everyone says how easy it is to lose weight. I become maniacal about tracking things 

    How do you cut out a chunk of your stomach and without even increasing your meals, remain the same weight?

     

    So if you googled and landed on my page, I am a person who 100% failed at my weight loss surgery and now I have begun the very long process of trying to do something about it.

     

    This nutritionist is going to make an appointment with me way later just to tell me to log my food which I already do. I am going to take the most meticulous notes I can so we can get to the point. Three years. The idea of waiting another day for legitimate help out of this prison of a body feels too much to bear.  I'm going to turn thirty looking like this and single because of it.

    I posted this in a thread in the long term post op VSG portion of the site for anyone who wondered like I did years ago if its possible to fail.  Unlikely, I hear, but there's always that one

    I'm that one. :( 

    my heart is broken

  12. I had my surgery done on 11/30 and have found this process was so much more difficult then I had imagined. I had read everything in the book, and had done so much research and practiced this sip sip sip thing before the surgery. My world basically has flipped upside down. I cannot tolerate anything with more than 4 grams of fat, 4 grams of sugar, or thick proteins. I dump on EVERYTHING. It's absolutely frustrating, beyond frustrating, so depressing. I thought that I would rock this, and be absolutely perfect at it. I was horribly wrong. This is nothing like I thought. 

    I've had to go to the ER for an IV and a CT scan because they thought I had a leak. Turns out no leak and I was just waiting for the IV to finish and was sent home. I was sickly, because of the OXYcodone they gave me for pain. I can no longer take my pain medications because I dump when I take it. I hate dumping it's the worst feeling in the whole world.

    Im getting so frustrated because I cannot do any protein at this point without dumping, I've tried like 5 different protein shakes. It's horrible. I know that I'll get through this eventually, but it just blows. 

    Sorry, vent over.

  13. I know I shouldn't be complaining, it's not really that bad, but remembering to do it is.   Having to do a calorie count is not easy either.  I try to plan my meals better now, so I can write everything down in the morning, then if I have to add anything I can.

    How do you all do it??

  14. First the stats:

    Day of surgery:  Sept 1; 191 lbs 

    Today: Oct 29;  bouncing around between 169 and 173.

    So now I am almost 2 months out and I am in a bit of a pause.  Sigh.  I have moved to fairly normal foods, per the doc, but I think I have slipped back into some old habits.  Grazing and snacking.

    Even though the amount of Grazing and snacking is a severely reduced volume of food....it is there.  I think my brain hunger is based on the weather getting rainy and chilly.  I have fallen back to "but it's just yogurt...it is a healthy snack"  -- when intruth, that same size yogurt is really a meal for me now.  I have to remind myself that there is likely no sick thing as a snack for me any more.  I used to pick my way thru the morning...now that would spell disaster.

     So my plan is to only allow myself into the kitchen to prepare a plate. .. a full meal... and not grab and go.  That full meal may look exactly like the thing I am grabbing and going with, but it represents a break from a long g-instilled habit.

    My husband is amazing--he has taken over prepping meals bc he knows me like I know me. 

    Thanks for listening--I think I figured this one out.

  15. kisten1210
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    so ...  Surgery was February 4 of this year. Since March I have sounded like I have severe bronchitis with a squirrel stuck in my throat! I finally started going to an ENT  to figure out what was going on. In the process he found nodules on my larnynx and wanted me to have it checked out by a G.I. doctor  because he believed that it was caused from Gerd even though I have had Gastric Bypass... after talking to my surgeon he said that Gerd can still happen after surgery ...  Very slight chance but can still happen. 

    This last week I ended up getting an upper G.I. scope and they found that my vocal chords and my larnynx were pretty severely damaged and very scared - during intubation during surgery.  I am just in the beginning stages of this, but it's kind of sad, and I going to sound like this forever? Yes I am healthier I am 125 pounds lighter and I am still alive but they damaged my vocal chords!  I sound like a man ... hot!

    happier note!  They checked out my pouch  and it is perfect size… As well the openings at both ends are perfect! And my intestines look great. Finally he said my surgeon did a fantastic job!

    any advise?  What would you do if this was you?

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    I had a revision of my lap band which I had several years ago. My sleeve was done 06/15 and I have recently hit a plateau. I have been ranging from 167-168. It seems like the scale just doesn't want to move. I am active and watch what I eat. How can I get past this I keep asking my self. I know that I have become a slave to the scale and have been trying to stay away. I even moved it down to the livingroom but that doesn't seem to stop me. I still find my way down there before getting into the shower for the day. I just hope that this doesn't last to long.

     

     

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    HI, I just had my revision from lap band to ryn bypass on Nov. 4th.  Still in a lot of pain. especially when getting up and down.  I'm  surprised howi feel hungry at times.. wasn't like that when  had the lap band surgery back in may 2009.  anyone else in the same boat and pointers?

  17. AskAnt305
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    Good morning TT family, 

    Got the new diet from the doc, starting phase three... pureed foods...yum.... I will start tomorrow got to go shopping first I bought a ninja prep pro just for this... my old blender really didn't work for this part.  So. It's the middle of October and I'm suppose to be on this for the next three weeks, I made a fission to stay off the scale as best as I could I found myself jumping on three times a day and getting confused so I'll try this out... I got a little lazy on getting to the gym but it's more of a time issue then me not wanting to go, I really want to go!!! Not sure if anyone is following my YouTube channel from here but my next one will be up soon it's do I n got be on the insurance process. Well off I go melting away.. till next time...

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    Today I handed in my hospital admin papers. It's all systems go.

    i keep thinking that at this time in 2 weeks time, it will be done! 

    When I was in line today, another lady was handing in her papers too. When I went to leave she pulled me aside and said she overheard I was getting the same operation as her. She has her surgery 4 days before me and was very nervous. 

    I was trying to support and relax her which was weird as I'm very anxious too. 

    She kept saying that I will look amazing once the weight was off especially because I was young! Lol this woman looked in her late 40s, so i couldn't help but say that I am 40. Well she almost died, couldn't believe it and thought I was in my early 30s!!! Geez the past 7 days of dieting, detoxing, 3ltrs of water daily and losing 6kg must be working lol!!!! 

    We wished each other the best :) 

     

    13 days to go! 

  18. I am doing well.  I have been so busy with my new job and the little ladies starting back to school.  I am down 111 pounds.  I only have about 14 pounds to my goal weight.  There are many positives.  I have decided to train for a half marathon.  I have been running for several months but I felt like I needed something more.  I run usually 3 days a week for 3 or 4 miles but I have recently added Sunday as my long day and last week I did 6 miles.  So hard to believe that I was able to run 72 minutes straight and I didn't really feel bad afterwards.  I feel so blessed to have had this tool to help me reach goals that I never thought were attainable.  Another positive is the energy that I have.  It is amazing.  

    One weird thing is clothes shopping.  I know I am an abnormal female.  I hate it.  It is so hard trying to find clothes that fit that are appropriate and long enough.  I don't want to dress like my teenage daughters or like my mother so this has been a little bit of a struggle for me.  Today I am actually wearing my first pair of leggings.  OMG I love them.  It is like being in workout pants at work.  LOL!!!

    Negative side is my mother.  She is always the first to give me back handed compliments.  Like you look pretty but don't lose anymore weight you face is too thin.  It is hard because she lives with me.  I usually have my husband there to keep me grounded but I am afraid she is going to get a good lashing from my mouth when and if she hits me on an off day.  

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  19. Tuesday will be 5 weeks post op. I still am unable to eat anything that is not liquid or pureed....is that normal? I'm still struggling with my water intake and protein. I have days were my food has been stuck for 12 hours before I was able to vomit it up. I can also feel everything go down which tends to be painful, including water. Can't complain about the weight loss...start 326... Surgery date 316....today 256.
  20. leigha
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    So I have started my new job and I LOVE it. I now work at an involuntary evaluation and treatment center. It is basically a psych ward. I do admits and discharges.

    I have lost 117lbs and and 3 lbs away from being under 300lbs. I have been going to the gym regularly and swimming. Aside from my back hurting I am starting to feel like I have a new lease on life. Yesterday while at the gym my trainer put me on a leg press and put it at 320lbs and said "Hey that is more than what you weight now!" That was surreal, so she wanted me to leg press my former weight of 419lbs, I did it, it was hard. She wanted to try too so she sat her small self down and pressed with all her might and couldn't move the press. She just looked at me and said I don't know how you carried all that weight around. Neither do I, but I did for years.

    My tenth wedding anniversary is in a couple of weeks, 10 years ago we didn't have any money so we don't really have any quality wedding photos. Literally there isn't one picture of us both facing the camera. A couple of weeks ago I was able to FIT into my dress! I wore it around the house for like an hour. So I have contacted a photographer, she did family photos in December and let her know what I want to do. She is excited and I am in planning mode. On my wedding day I went to get my hair done and came out looking like a alien, my hair was pulled so tight. I ended up going home after and using baking soda to pull all the hair spray out. and then just wore my hair straight and down. This time I want to do victory rolls, my hair is red now, and used to be brown, so I think the dramatic hair will rock! I am planning to do a classic cat eye and red popping lips. I am making a few mementos for our pictures too so that we have a prop in the photos that show 10 years. I am so excited to have this opportunity

    My work schedule is weird so I am not on as much as I used to be, but know that I am rooting for each one of you and here if you need me!.

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