My goodness i am so stressed out trying to juggle all these appointments and trying to get them all done before April 19th. I start a 2nd job on the 19th so I will be working 8am-5pm and then from 1130pm- 7am. How am ever going to work 2 jobs and get the last few dr visits in?
I have the last of my cardio type visits tomorrow and then on the 10th my last pcp visit. on the 12th my sleep study. on the 14th pshc, testing followed by 1 day long testings on the 18th to have everything in to Surgeon.
I know I can juggle all this and once my surgery is over I will be able to cut back to just the dayshift job but I am so overwhelmed! I have to keep them both for now because my night job is where the Ins coverage for surgery comes from, and the new job is a higher paying, closer to home and much more of my dream job.
To make matters worse my husband who is usually supportive has found something stuck in his butt latley and taken it out on me! I think this journey is going to cause problems between the 2 of us like i never imagined. Has anyone else ever just been so fed up with their spouse like i am feeling right now? I feel like i have put up with his "flaws" for a long time now and am starting to resent him. I am ok with him being the stay at home dad but he wastes so much that we cannot afford to waste! I dont understand how to get through to him anymore and honestly I am getting tired of being so anxious around him and irritated by his excuses to hang out with his friends all the time or excuses to get out of doing anything else he needs to do at home. I already feel like I have to nag for the kids to get the care they need and i honestly am worried that all his yelling is doing some damage to all of us around him.
Is it wrong for me to dream of my life after this surgery? I know it is not a fix-all band-aid. I know that this is just a tool to help shove me to change but is that change going to happen to other things then my body? Will I get some backbone?
One last thing, my sleep study consult is tomorrow... any comments on what i should remember to share with the DR at the sleep lab?
Take care to all and thanks for letting me vent!!
Angella
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Bloodwork,EKG,Info session/DONE
Sleep study consult & all Cardio testing/DONE
Psych eval & testing 4/14 & 4/18/06
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