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Originally Posted by Americanwoman397
Christina
First of all you are so dang pretty that its not funny. I told Aaron when he met you that I would love to look like you. You have such a cute sweet face that makes everyone just love you. Something that us girls learned this weekend is if someone has a problem its there problem not yours. Don't let these MEAN PEOPLE take control of your life. You are a wonderful woman on the inside and out. We are not going unitl March so by then you will have lost another 30 or so lbs. No one there will know you as the fat girl. I love you girl and if you need to talk just know I'm here.
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You are such a sweetheart. I just love you to death. Thank you for the kind words. I know what you mean about other people's problems being theirs not mine, but this is MY issue that I need to deal with. I guess I was never comfortable being a "fat person" and maybe that is because for so many years I was thin? I don't know what the deal is. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me to get my head to catch up with my body. However, I know it isn't going to happen over night either. I don't mind going with just the wording on the shirts, but putting that fat picture up for all to see on National TV .. that is a whole other issue. I've been humiliated enough for one lifetime.. I don't need to add to that. It would be different say if it were the Maury show or something where someone could learn from my experience or maybe something like that.. but I have been a "freakshow" long enough. I know this may not make sense for some.. but someone may be able to relate to my anxiety and thoughts about this. It's just the way I feel, that's all. I do think it is a great idea.. or you could maybe put on a T-Shirt "Dr. Callery's Angels or Success Stories" or something like that. Then if someone asks.. it's different.. but otherwise.. pictures.. no way. It is different when it is all of us.. I have no problem with it.. but in a society where we were mocked and laughed at and ridiculled for many years I don't feel comfortable with that. Even if I do lose another 30 lbs and am at goal by then. I hope this makes some sort of sense to some of you. I apologize if I am not on the bandwagon with ya.. I do apologize if I seemed rude in my earlier post. My feelings are my feelings thats it. They are valid in my mind.
