When does it seem 'real'?
Well my surgery is done- RNY on 2/7 and I'm a whopping 3 days post op. And for some silly reason it just doesn't seem like I really did it. Sure, I've got what look like knife marks on my belly, I have horrible gas pain, and I'm suffering to get fluids in (It's 7:30 pm and I've only gotten 44oz in) - but it still doesn't really seem 'real'.
My mind says "go ahead you can eat" but my body is SO rebelling (and I know I can't eat anything- I'm on phase 1 clear liquids). My point is that it was such a sureal experience- I went to the hospital, took a nap, and woke up feeling like shit. You think that would be enough to convince me that I actually had the surgery wouldn't it?
I read everyone's posts about eating 'real' food and I'm so anxious to just have a bloody piece of cheese or pudding (sugar free of course). And I know that I most likely will advance to that at the end of next week. But it seems like forever!
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