01-28-2006, 05:54 PM
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Can barely walk, can't sit I just hobble around. My butt hurts so bad and to think I thought I was working those muscles the last month I was working out. I have to tell you, besides the pain in the rear-literally, getting a trainer is so worth the money! He had me do lunges and squats across the gym with 10lb weights in each hand. I almost cries but I found a bunch of muscles I hadn't previously worked. Then he did some ab work off the floor which is so much nicer on my back.
The scale was up a pound or so this morning and I feel like my quads have 25lb weights hanging off of them. I was kind of cought off guard when the scale moved the other way but I quickly realised that it's my PMS week. I also realised I haven't been this weight in years and when I break through the 90's I will not have seen the 80's since 2000! When I see the 70's (crossing my fingers) I will not have seen them since 1999 and in a very UNHEALTHY way. Then below that I haven't seen since I did Jenny Criag in the 7th grade  I am excited with anticipation!
My kids are obsesed with holidays. They are constantly asking about what the next oen is and how long till their bithdays. I started thinking, I haven't ever had any kind of party/gathering/dinner for my birthday since I turned 15 in the 9th grade. It's kind of sad but my friends were never that interested in what was going on in my life, it was mostly always about them....and I was always ok with that. They did take me out for my 21st just to get me drunk  I am not big on parties- I enjoy being with people who want to celebrate me, which usually ends up being my DH, Mom and Dad and my wonderful children, but what I wonder is why I am "ok" with friends who don't find the special moments and days in my life important? I find that I have become less thoughtful of their special days and occasions and have actually lost contact with some of them. Me wonder if I was just there to make them feel important? I hate questioning my friendships. All of the people who backed out fo my daughters birhtday in December have found thei kids biorthdays coming up......I don't wnat to begrudge my kids the chance to have a great time at the party but I am starting to feel the one-sidedness of our relationships. Pooey
Enough of that. Ava wants a bath so I am off to fill the tub.
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